Summary: Complete! Spike had found the love of his life, and now she's dead and gone. He keeps texting her anyway.
Beta and Sensitivity Readers: None
Artists: cd85
Categories: Alternate Reality, Challenge Response, All Human
Characters: Buffy, Spike, Giles, Willow, Xander, Anne Pratt, Dawn, Joyce, Oz, Tara
Genres: Angst, HEA/HFN, Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Slow-Burn
Warnings: Adult Language, Mental Health Issues, Spike/Other (Temp), Substance Use/Addiction, Violence
Challenges: Whatever you want to call it.
Completed: Yes Chapters: 15
Word count: 53,009 Hit Count: 3,519 ePub Downloads: 37
Published: May 04, 2024 Updated: May 18, 2024


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Story Notes: party This is a birthday gift for honeygirl51885, and if you know that the numbers in her name are her birthday, you'll notice that this is a little bit early!


And the REASON for that is, because the first year when she and I first started talking and I knew I wanted to write a gift fic for her, she'd just had a baby in the same month as her birthday. And in the US, that month also has Mother's Day, which she could be celebrated for for the first time! And ever since I've wanted to write a fic that somehow covered the span of all those three days in May, but I haven't been able to find the right fic or the right year for it.


Then, when I was deciding what to write her this year, I remembered her telling me that in 2024, she's mostly been in the mood to read angst, and AH. And I LOVE reading AH, but it's somehow really hard for me to come up with ideas for it, so I looked at my saved challenges for inspiration, and lo and behold, I had one that I grabbed awhile ago because it looked interesting!

I didn't have any plans for that challenge when I saved it, but looking at it again, this whole story pretty much fell right out of me. SO, from now until May 18th, I'll be posting a chapter every day, which will cover her daughter's birthday, her own birthday, and Mother's Day.

Happy early Birthday, honeygirl, I hope you enjoy your angsty AH fic! Thank you for another year of being an amazing friend and writing partner! hug


Banner by the phenonemal Claire, who was just as excited as I was to bring Spike into the sunlight!squee

1. Chapter 1 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 18 Comments: 12 Word Count: 2,696 Hit Count: 605 Published: May 04, 2024

2. Chapter 2 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 21 Comments: 9 Word Count: 2,136 Hit Count: 219 Published: May 05, 2024

3. Chapter 3 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 17 Comments: 9 Word Count: 3,722 Hit Count: 231 Published: May 06, 2024

4. Chapter 4 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 16 Comments: 10 Word Count: 2,996 Hit Count: 219 Published: May 07, 2024

5. Chapter 5 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 16 Comments: 8 Word Count: 3,083 Hit Count: 226 Published: May 08, 2024

6. Chapter 6 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 18 Comments: 7 Word Count: 5,076 Hit Count: 288 Published: May 09, 2024

7. Chapter 7 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 19 Comments: 11 Word Count: 3,193 Hit Count: 229 Published: May 10, 2024

8. Chapter 8 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 18 Comments: 9 Word Count: 4,199 Hit Count: 221 Published: May 11, 2024

9. Chapter 9 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 17 Comments: 7 Word Count: 4,528 Hit Count: 231 Published: May 12, 2024

10. Chapter 10 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 14 Comments: 6 Word Count: 4,216 Hit Count: 185 Published: May 13, 2024

11. Chapter 11 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 18 Comments: 9 Word Count: 3,544 Hit Count: 205 Published: May 14, 2024

12. Chapter 12 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 14 Comments: 8 Word Count: 3,329 Hit Count: 156 Published: May 15, 2024

13. Chapter 13 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 10 Comments: 6 Word Count: 4,243 Hit Count: 223 Published: May 18, 2024

14. Chapter 14 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 9 Comments: 5 Word Count: 3,456 Hit Count: 142 Published: May 18, 2024

15. Chapter 15 by violettathepiratequeen - Likes: 11 Comments: 6 Word Count: 2,592 Hit Count: 139 Published: May 18, 2024