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Summary: Post-Not Fade Away. Buffy seeks Spike's remains, but then finds him in the most unusal place.
Winner for Best Buffy Characterization at Love's Last Glimpse Awards Round 18. Winner for Best WIP, runner up for Best Angst, Best Buffy Characterization, Best Future Fic at Love's Last Glimpse Awards 2006.
 
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Categories: Post-Series, Award Winners, Award Runners-Up
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Charles Gunn, Original Characters, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Rape (Actual), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp)
Completed: Yes Chapters: 28
Word count: 110,038 Hit Count: 85,153 ePub Downloads: 1,133
Published: February 26, 2015 Updated: February 27, 2015


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Story Notes: Not sure where this is going. But new fic. PWP--- Poetry without plot. :) Well, no poetry yet.
Joss owns them, and the whole bloody universe.
Banner by beanbeans.
Originally published on Livejournal in February 2006.

1. Chapter 1 by anaross - Likes: 39 Comments: 22 Word Count: 1,339 Hit Count: 8,927 Published: February 26, 2015

2. Chapter 2 by anaross - Likes: 23 Comments: 8 Word Count: 2,004 Hit Count: 3,909 Published: February 26, 2015

Not happy with this. Everyone's totally unlikeable. But at least they showed up. :)

3. Chapter 3 by anaross - Likes: 23 Comments: 8 Word Count: 1,681 Hit Count: 3,625 Published: February 26, 2015

Finally! The poem. The first one, anyway.

4. Chapter 4 by anaross - Likes: 28 Comments: 14 Word Count: 2,312 Hit Count: 3,379 Published: February 26, 2015

Bad Spike! Bad Spike!

5. Chapter 5 by anaross - Likes: 25 Comments: 8 Word Count: 3,198 Hit Count: 3,484 Published: February 26, 2015

6. Chapter 6 by anaross - Likes: 17 Comments: 4 Word Count: 3,036 Hit Count: 3,024 Published: February 26, 2015

I haven't even read this over, so don't expect much. And it ends at the wrong point. Oh, well.

7. Chapter 7 by anaross - Likes: 22 Comments: 7 Word Count: 3,592 Hit Count: 2,917 Published: February 26, 2015

Not enough Spike, alas. Well, there is plenty of HIS TORSO. But not much of the rest of him. :) More next time, I promise.

8. Chapter 8 by anaross - Likes: 22 Comments: 7 Word Count: 2,165 Hit Count: 2,849 Published: February 26, 2015

Vampires Behaving Badly

Again, wrote fast, put up wet. Haven't edited.

9. Chapter 9 by anaross - Likes: 22 Comments: 6 Word Count: 4,153 Hit Count: 2,842 Published: February 26, 2015

Kind of lost here-- didn't realize this was going to happen. Meant to go right to Gunn. And Robert Frost. But they will have to wait till Ch. 10, I guess.

10. Chapter 10 by anaross - Likes: 24 Comments: 9 Word Count: 6,629 Hit Count: 2,940 Published: February 26, 2015

Okay, total self-indulgence here. I have officially lost any touch with anything remotely known as "plot". I keep thinking I know where I'm going, and I don't get there. Plus I just read rahirah's Vegas story, and I'm all verklempt with admiration, because she does Buffy voice so well, and she PLOTS too, and I am not worthy.....

But anyway. Frost. The reference to "dawn goes down to day" is for Nan Dibble, who used that poem in my favorite ever fan fic scene, where Spike tries to keep Dawn, at least in his own memory.

I am going to have to massively revise this -- consider this very much a Work In Progress.

11. Chapter 11 by anaross - Likes: 23 Comments: 8 Word Count: 4,986 Hit Count: 2,842 Published: February 26, 2015

12. Chapter 12 by anaross - Likes: 22 Comments: 9 Word Count: 6,704 Hit Count: 2,793 Published: February 27, 2015

13. Chapter 13 by anaross - Likes: 20 Comments: 5 Word Count: 6,488 Hit Count: 2,794 Published: February 27, 2015

14. Chapter 14 by anaross - Likes: 21 Comments: 6 Word Count: 2,448 Hit Count: 2,716 Published: February 27, 2015

Short one....

15. Chapter 15 by anaross - Likes: 21 Comments: 7 Word Count: 5,228 Hit Count: 2,651 Published: February 27, 2015

This is really... I don't know where I'm going. I'm completely channeling Buffy, I think. Writing without meaning. :)

16. Chapter 16 by anaross - Likes: 20 Comments: 8 Word Count: 5,640 Hit Count: 2,712 Published: February 27, 2015

17. Chapter 17 by anaross - Likes: 18 Comments: 5 Word Count: 4,763 Hit Count: 2,613 Published: February 27, 2015

This feels sort of jagged. I don't know. Maybe it just is jagged.

18. Chapter 18 by anaross - Likes: 19 Comments: 4 Word Count: 1,585 Hit Count: 2,430 Published: February 27, 2015

Short one... unproofed-- I'll read it over tomorrow because I don't like the opening.

19. Chapter 19 by anaross - Likes: 20 Comments: 6 Word Count: 3,271 Hit Count: 2,413 Published: February 27, 2015

This is one of those chapters I'm not sure of.   I know where I'm going, but getting there? Hard.  It turns out to be too long for one chapter post, so I'll make it two.

20. Chapter 20 by anaross - Likes: 20 Comments: 7 Word Count: 3,108 Hit Count: 2,411 Published: February 27, 2015

21. Chapter 21 by anaross - Likes: 20 Comments: 4 Word Count: 1,018 Hit Count: 2,356 Published: February 27, 2015

Zero conflict.  Just mush.  Oh, well, we're due a bit, right?  I've had a glass of wine and read such lovely poems, and I'm afraid I'm feeling way too mellow to be mean to my favorite characters.....

For the moment.

22. Chapter 22 by anaross - Likes: 19 Comments: 5 Word Count: 4,087 Hit Count: 2,358 Published: February 27, 2015

Slowly, slowly... trudging to an end.  4 more chapters maybe?

23. Chapter 23 by anaross - Likes: 20 Comments: 5 Word Count: 6,073 Hit Count: 2,479 Published: February 27, 2015

Well, this is ragged again.  I am in that "don't look down" mode. I think maybe the emotion is all up and down. Antic Spuffy.

24. Chapter 24 by anaross - Likes: 19 Comments: 6 Word Count: 3,863 Hit Count: 2,418 Published: February 27, 2015

Maybe three more chapters? Not quite sure. I always have trouble ending things. :)

25. Chapter 25 by anaross - Likes: 21 Comments: 5 Word Count: 2,663 Hit Count: 2,355 Published: February 27, 2015

Wanted to get this out fast. It's rough. But trying to make it finish-- God, I hate writing action.

26. Chapter 26 by anaross - Likes: 20 Comments: 7 Word Count: 6,376 Hit Count: 2,451 Published: February 27, 2015

27. Chapter 27 by anaross - Likes: 22 Comments: 9 Word Count: 5,851 Hit Count: 2,519 Published: February 27, 2015

New chapter. One more after this. (Don't worry.)  I don't know... this is all chunky. Written in pieces. Unedited, so if you see anything screwy, let me know.

28. Chapter 28 by anaross - Likes: 72 Comments: 45 Word Count: 5,777 Hit Count: 3,943 Published: February 27, 2015

Finally, The End!