Penname: Holly
Real Name: Holly
Member Since: October 25, 2006
Last Active: August 04, 2020
Membership Status: Administrator
Skin: spuffy1

I’ve been a part of Spuffy fandom since 2002—specifically, the summer between my junior and senior years of high school. A friend had pneumonia and wanted company. She took advantage of my presence to put in the first season of BtVS and…well, things spiraled. Already a veteran of fanfic writing, I abandoned my then-fandom of Hannibal/Silence of the Lambs (don't judge me) and started writing my inaugural Spuffy fic, Sang et Ivoire. This story, be warned, reads very much like a seventeen-year-old trying to sound older than she is. It was the most heavily plotted and longest story I'd written at that time, and launched me into the greater Buffy fandom and helped me find my Spuffy-centric people. Throughout the rest of high school and all of college, I wrote Spuffy fanfic like it was my job, was super involved in fandom, and was one of the original founders of Elysian Fields.

In 2009, my first novel was published and I began drifting out of fandom to focus on launching my publishing career. In 2010, I finished The Writing on the Wall, my last novel-length Spuffy story of that era, and began working exclusively on original work, published under my penname, Rosalie Stanton.

In 2017, when the 20-year anniversary rolled around, I got nipped by the fandom bug and returned to start a new story and finish two of my abandoned WIPs. As of right now, I am completely back in the saddle. While I do plan to continue publishing as Rosalie Stanton, fandom gives me something I don’t get elsewhere—something I didn’t realize I’d missed until I returned.

I am 100% a romance writer, which means I live for HEAs. As is evident in all of my fics. I am also a proponent of finding a way to make sure the HEA sticks, either by immortalizing Buffy or mortalizing Spike. This, by the way, is why so many of my fics had claims in them. It was an easy way to get that. Though I'm going to see about being more creative in future works.

Thank you, Spuffy community, for being such a large part of my life.

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Summary: Buffy is broken, and Spike is determined to again make her whole by giving her what she needs most: an ear to bend, a shoulder to cry on, and, most importantly, someone who understands.
Categories: Season 6, Episode Rewrite
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Drama, POV, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Word count: 26,869 Hit Count: 28,525 ePub Downloads: 785
Published: September 02, 2007 Updated: September 22, 2007
Summary: Buffy asks Spike to help her with her Thanksgiving dinner and is determined to keep Xander’s prophecy the previous year of a “new tradition” from coming true. The PTB, unfortunately, have other ideas. Season 5: No Glory, Riley, or Dawn.
Runner up for Best Long Story at Love's Last Glimpse Awards 2005.
Originally published in 2005 for Seasonal Spuffy | Edited in 2019
Series: Holidays on the Hellmouth
Categories: Seasonal Spuffy Entries, Season 5, Alternate Reality, Holiday Fic, Claim, Award Runners-Up
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Word count: 23,055 Hit Count: 16,952 ePub Downloads: 456
Published: October 28, 2006 Updated: October 28, 2006
Summary: On a rare night to themselves, Spike catches Buffy in the middle of a very personal act in a room that he swore he would never enter again.
Categories: Season 7
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Drama, Porn w/ Plot, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 11,500 Hit Count: 5,469 ePub Downloads: 289
Published: January 20, 2007 Updated: January 20, 2007
Summary: Buffy and Spike have been best friends since kindergarten; they’ve been through the best and worst of times, which makes it obvious to Buffy that Spike ought to be the one to whom she loses her virginity.
Categories: All Human/Fantasy
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy, POV, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Word count: 23,697 Hit Count: 9,107 ePub Downloads: 189
Published: March 16, 2017 Updated: March 16, 2017
Summary: Season 3, Lover's Walk. Spike returns to Sunnydale to kill the Slayer. He’s just too drunk to do it properly, and ends up getting himself into the deep without even realizing it. Perhaps worst of all, he has no memory of his actions the next day.
Winner at the Spark and Burn awards.
Categories: Season 3, Episode Rewrite, Claim, Award Winners
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Cordelia, Faith Lehane, Giles, Oz, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 52 Table of Contents
Word count: 120,380 Hit Count: 197,772 ePub Downloads: 1,639
Published: October 30, 2006 Updated: October 31, 2006
Summary: A not-so-brilliant idea for a Christmas present goes horribly wrong when Buffy and Spike find themselves literally glued together for the holidays. / Season 4, post-Something Blue. Originally written in 2003/2004; revised in 2017
Categories: Season 4, Claim
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy, Lighthearted, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 6 Table of Contents
Word count: 25,472 Hit Count: 18,154 ePub Downloads: 461
Published: October 30, 2006 Updated: July 29, 2017
Summary: He watched her pause, watched her trembling hand form a fist and unfurl again. So unlike the Buffy he knew, the Buffy preserved in his memory. That Buffy would have smarted off and popped him in the nose for daring to share her space. This Buffy did neither.
Categories: Season 6, Episode Rewrite
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama, Porn w/o Plot, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 4,346 Hit Count: 4,151 ePub Downloads: 147
Published: April 27, 2013 Updated: April 27, 2013
Crumbs by Holly [NC-17] Likes: 584 Comments: 244 Updated!
Summary: Kissing Spike in that alley—talk about a bad idea. Now she’s gone and made it awkward with the only person she can stand to be around, and whatever else, she can’t lose the peace Spike brings her. She also can’t give him more than she has to offer right now…though maybe she can someday. If he’s willing to wait.
Categories: Season 6, Episode Rewrite, Challenge Response
Characters: Buffy, Ensemble, Spike
Genres: Challenge Response, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Character Death, Sexual Situations
Challenges: Buffy the Debt Collector
Completed: No Chapters: 13 Table of Contents
Word count: 67,648 Hit Count: 12,516 ePub Downloads: 105
Published: April 29, 2020 Updated: July 31, 2020
Summary: Book I of the Yellow Brick Road series. An alternate version of Season 3's Helpless, in which the Council locks a drugged and powerless Buffy in with a certain bleached-blond vampire who already has two Slayers under his belt.  -- Originally published in 2003; heavily edited and revised in 2019.
Series: Yellow Brick Road
Categories: Season 3, Episode Rewrite, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Dramedy, Porn w/ Plot, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 8 Table of Contents
Word count: 27,711 Hit Count: 35,651 ePub Downloads: 1,006
Published: October 28, 2006 Updated: May 05, 2019
Summary: A prophecy unfolds just as a new Slayer arrives in Sunnydale.  A cocky, British, platinum blond Slayer with a devilish smile and a body to die for. And Buffy doesn’t know what surprises her more—the fact that he’s male, or the animal attraction that festers between them almost from the beginning
Runner up for Best Romance at Love's Last Glimpse Awards 2005. Winner for Best Villain (Penn) at Love's Last Glimpse Awards Round 18. Winner for Best General Fluff Award at the Spuffy Awards Round 7.
Categories: Season 2, Alternate Reality, Award Winners, Award Runners-Up
Characters: Angelus, Buffy, Drusilla, Giles, Other, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 20 Table of Contents
Word count: 90,008 Hit Count: 39,919 ePub Downloads: 748
Published: October 29, 2006 Updated: October 29, 2006
Summary: While her nights are occupied fighting evil, her dreams are haunted by a devastatingly sexy if not totally evil vampire. But how thin is the line between dreams and reality? More importantly: how thin does she want it to be?
Categories: Season 2, Challenge Response, Claim, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Challenge Response, Dark, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Porn w/ Plot, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Buffy/Other (Temp), Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 15 Table of Contents
Word count: 72,027 Hit Count: 21,395 ePub Downloads: 311
Published: June 13, 2019 Updated: June 25, 2019
Summary: A slayer barters with a demon to rescue her lover and finds herself unwittingly projected nearly three hundred years into the future with no memory of the life she left behind.
Written in 2007 | Edited in 2019
Categories: Season 2, Episode Rewrite, Challenge Response, Time Travel, Claim, Award Winners
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Drusilla, Giles, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 34 Table of Contents
Word count: 96,586 Hit Count: 59,813 ePub Downloads: 694
Published: March 08, 2017 Updated: March 09, 2017
Summary: They have changed, but the world has not. After The Writing on the Wall.
Series: The Wallverse
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Riley Finn, Spike, Xander
Genres: Drama, Established Relationship, POV, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 4,365 Hit Count: 3,914 ePub Downloads: 234
Published: March 10, 2011 Updated: March 10, 2011
Summary: You are walking through the cars on a train.  Each car seems to belong to a different train, with strange new landscapes outside the window.  You walk through the next door, and into another … no, wait, you’re in a submarine. But there’s a train door at the far end, so you walk through the echoing chamber, and you go through the door, and — why are you in the basket of a zeppelin?  How’d that work, and what country is that down there?  
Series: The Exquisite Universe
Categories: Season 1, Season 2, Season 3, Season 4, Season 5, Season 6, Season 7, Comic (Season Not Specified), Post-Series, Alternate Reality, Challenge Response
Characters: Ensemble
Genres: Challenge Response
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Violence
Challenges: Exquisite Corpse IV
Completed: Yes Chapters: 9 Table of Contents
Word count: 47,567 Hit Count: 2,241 ePub Downloads: 59
Published: April 17, 2020 Updated: May 31, 2020
Summary: The Slayer’s friends treat a very reluctant Buffy to a Valentine’s Day surprise in hopes of uplifting her down-trodden spirits. But the last thing that Buffy wants to do—especially while her heart still aches for her lost vampire—is submit to a stranger’s touch, even knowing that Spike would want her to move on. She just she fears she never can.
Winner for Best PWP at Love's Last Glimpse Round 19.
Categories: Post-Series, Claim, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Fluffy/Comedy, Porn w/ Plot, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Fetish, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 7,704 Hit Count: 4,126 ePub Downloads: 232
Published: January 05, 2007 Updated: January 05, 2007
Summary: A prophecy. A choice. A martyred vampire, and the Slayer who loves him. (Edited in 2019)
Categories: Season 7, Episode Rewrite, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Drama, POV, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 5,029 Hit Count: 2,779 ePub Downloads: 122
Published: September 07, 2007 Updated: September 07, 2007
Summary: A rogue Slayer is on the run. As the Scoobies follow reports and sightings that lead them further into the Old South, President Bartlet prepares for a speech in Vicksburg while Deputy Chief of Staff Josh Lyman is assigned a project that will unwittingly change his life.
Series: The Garden Club
Categories: Claim, Crossover (Books or TV shows outside Buffyverse), Season 4
Characters: Anya, Buffy, Faith Lehane, Giles, Other, Spike, Wesley, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 49 Table of Contents
Word count: 246,644 Hit Count: 14,853 ePub Downloads: 293
Published: October 28, 2006 Updated: October 28, 2006
Summary: 'Some knowledge and some song and some beauty must be kept for those days before the world again plunges into darkness.' – Marion Zimmer Bradley
Categories: Crossover (AtS), Post-Series
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Drama, POV, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language
Completed: Yes Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Word count: 18,565 Hit Count: 7,516 ePub Downloads: 161
Published: October 30, 2006 Updated: October 30, 2006
Summary: Wolfram and Hart attempts to restructure the Order of Aurelius, one vampire at a time. A soul hampers one, a chip the other, and a Slayer stands between them. -- Originally published in 2004; heavily edited and revised in 2017.
Runner up for Best Saga and Best Crossover at Love's Last Glimpse Awards 2004. Winner for Best Original Character (Zack Wright) at Love's Last Glimpse Awards 2005. Winner for Best Spike Characterization (Judges' Choice) at the Spuffy Awards Round 5.
Categories: Season 5, Crossover (AtS), Claim, Award Winners, Award Runners-Up
Characters: Angelus, Buffy, Cordelia, Darla, Drusilla, Charles Gunn, Kate Lockley, Lorne, Original Characters, Other, Spike, Wesley
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Rape (Actual), Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Torture, Vampire!Buffy, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 51 Table of Contents
Word count: 229,886 Hit Count: 60,233 ePub Downloads: 761
Published: October 29, 2006 Updated: June 26, 2017
Summary: Breaks from AtS S5 Canon. Upon answering a desperate call a late autumn night, Wesley invokes the help of Fred in nursing a broken warrior back to health.  A warrior that does not want to live but to see the face of a woman that has moved an ocean away.
Categories: Post-Series, Crossover (AtS)
Characters: Buffy, Fred, Spike, Wesley
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Word count: 17,821 Hit Count: 9,909 ePub Downloads: 260
Published: October 30, 2006 Updated: October 30, 2006
Summary: For a hundred years, William the Bloody has led a trail of bloodshed and chaos across Europe and the Americas. That all comes to an end when the woman he’s devoted his existence to brings his mate to him in the guise of a late-night snack. A small girl with eyes of green and blonde hair. And suddenly, Spike is thrown into a world of color beyond the black and white, and his life is never the same.
Winner for Best Challenge Response at Love's Last Glimpse Awards 2006. Winner for Best Spike Characterization, Best General Angst, runner up for Best General Saga at the Spuffy Awards Round 8.
Categories: Alternate Reality, Claim, Award Winners, Award Runners-Up
Characters: Angelus, Buffy, Darla, Drusilla, Giles, Jenny Calendar, Joyce, Oz, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Character Death, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Torture, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 35 Table of Contents
Word count: 138,624 Hit Count: 91,419 ePub Downloads: 1,167
Published: October 30, 2006 Updated: October 30, 2006
Summary: A brokenhearted vampire discovers that the truly important things in life often come from surprising places, and even more surprising people. Suddenly, Spike finds himself in a crisis of faith—the better angels of his conscience battling the restraint of his demon, all for the love of a girl he shouldn’t want. A girl he’s drawn to, even beyond his own reckoning.
Winner for Best Spike Characterization (Readers' Choice), Best General Romance (Readers' Choice), Best General UST (Judges' Choice) at the Spuffy Awards Round 10.
Categories: Season 2, Alternate Reality, Claim, Award Winners
Characters: Angelus, Buffy, Darla, Drusilla, Spike
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Blood Play, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 17 Table of Contents
Word count: 83,991 Hit Count: 50,686 ePub Downloads: 817
Published: October 28, 2006 Updated: October 28, 2006
Summary: Spike had this perfect memory of them together—her holding his hand, looking at him with tears in her eyes, telling him she loved him. If a man had to die, that was the way to do it. But in their world, the dead don’t stay dead.
A completely canon-compliant retelling of AtS Season 5, beginning with Harm’s Way.
Categories: Post-Series, Crossover (AtS), Missing Scene
Characters: Andrew Wells, Angel, Buffy, Spike
Genres: Drama, POV, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: No Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 16,496 Hit Count: 2,230 ePub Downloads: 22
Published: July 20, 2020 Updated: August 03, 2020
Summary: Torn and numb after her fall from Heaven, Buffy is haunted by ghosts of her past, and confronted with the truth of her future.
Edited in 2019
Categories: Season 6, Alternate Reality, Time Travel, Holiday Fic
Characters: Anya, Buffy, Dawn, Doyle, Glory, Jenny Calendar, Spike, Tara, Willow, Xander
Genres: Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Blood Play, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 9 Table of Contents
Word count: 37,206 Hit Count: 21,094 ePub Downloads: 458
Published: December 05, 2006 Updated: January 01, 2007
Summary: Spike makes a deal to go back in time to stop Buffy from taking the dive off the Tower. Things don't go as planned.
Categories: Season 5, Season 6, Time Travel
Characters: Buffy, Ensemble, Spike
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Character Death, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 35 Table of Contents
Word count: 136,238 Hit Count: 49,147 ePub Downloads: 455
Published: October 30, 2017 Updated: March 25, 2020
Summary: Graduation Day nears. Spike learns that some things are not better left unsaid, no matter how perfect the unlife is. - Originally written in 2004; revised/edited in 2019
Series: Yellow Brick Road
Categories: Season 3, Episode Rewrite
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Cordelia, Faith Lehane, Giles, Oz, Spike, Wesley, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Drama, Established Relationship, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Sexual Situations, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 18 Table of Contents
Word count: 64,910 Hit Count: 26,564 ePub Downloads: 662
Published: August 21, 2008 Updated: April 12, 2017
Summary: Buffy finds herself growing closer to Spike as the world around her falls to chaos. 
Categories: Season 5, Episode Rewrite, Claim, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Drama, Porn w/ Plot, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Word count: 27,211 Hit Count: 14,230 ePub Downloads: 450
Published: October 28, 2006 Updated: October 28, 2006
Summary: She doesn’t fit the profile, but Spike can’t be sure Buffy Anne Summers isn’t the woman he’s supposed to take out without getting a closer look.
Categories: All Human/Fantasy
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Action/Adventure, Dramedy, Porn w/ Plot, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 4 Table of Contents
Word count: 15,344 Hit Count: 3,929 ePub Downloads: 139
Published: March 27, 2017 Updated: March 27, 2017
Summary: Dracula did a bit more than bite. Vamped and with nowhere to go, Buffy turns to her former enemy for help and finds a whole lot more.
Originally written 2004-2005 (best guess); heavily rewritten/revised in 2019
Winner of BtVS Rewritten Award, runner up for Best General 'We Missed the Bed, Again' at the Spuffy Awards Round 8.
Categories: Season 5, Episode Rewrite, Claim, Award Runners-Up
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Charles Gunn, Giles, Riley Finn, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Sexual Situations, Vampire!Buffy, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 20 Table of Contents
Word count: 64,427 Hit Count: 48,701 ePub Downloads: 642
Published: October 28, 2006 Updated: October 28, 2006
Summary: Book II of the Yellow Brick Road series. While trying to cope with mixed feelings and brewing resentment over the fact that Spike screwed her and vanished, Buffy finds herself increasingly suspicious about Faith's close relationship with Angel. Just as things can't get any more confusing, a blond vampire she was sure she would never see again decides that it's time. -- Originally published in 2003/2004; heavily edited and revised in 2019.
Winner for BtVS Rewritten (Judges' Choice) at the Spuffy Awards Round 5.
Series: Yellow Brick Road
Categories: Season 3, Award Winners
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Faith Lehane, Giles, Oz, Spike, Wesley, Willow, Xander
Genres: Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 21 Table of Contents
Word count: 75,886 Hit Count: 52,878 ePub Downloads: 892
Published: October 28, 2006 Updated: August 13, 2008