Past Featured StorySummary: Updated! “Of course it was Willow. To really cause mayhem takes Willow’s special brand of magic."
When Cookies don’t appease everyone who was impacted by Willow’s “Will Be Done” spell she looks to find a way to fix it with results that she might not expect but we all should.
Story was written for the Elysian Fields  12 Years 12 Seasons Challenge. Prompt number 1, Banner  5: This beautiful banner was created by the amazingly talented artist, and my friend, Nmcil
Categories: Historical, Season 4
Characters: Angelus, Anya, Buffy, Darla, Drusilla, Ensemble, Faith Lehane, Giles, Hank Summers, Jenny Calendar, Joyce, Maggie Walsh, Other, Principal Snyder, Quentin Travers, Riley Finn, Sam Lawson, Spike, The Master, Wesley, Whistler, William, Willow, Xander
Genres: Drama, Historical, Humor, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: None
Completed: No Chapters: 76
Word count: 289,817 Hit Count: 109,977 ePub Downloads: 903
Published: October 04, 2018 Updated: May 06, 2021

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Story Notes: Unbeta’d so any and all errors are all mine.
Disclaimer: Original show characters and the town of Sunnydale rights remain with Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, the writers of the original episodes/books, and the TV and production companies responsible for the original television shows. BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER ©2002 TwentiethCentury Fox Film Corporation. All Rights Reserved. The Buffy the Vampire Slayer trademark is used without express permission from Fox. ANGEL ©2001 Twentieth Century Fox Film Corporation. All Rights Reserved. The ANGEL trademark is used without express permission from Fox. This is a work of fan fiction and no financial gain is made by this author.
In ancient Athens, Eleos was the personification of pity, mercy, clemency, and compassion.
There was an altar in Athens dedicated to Eleos, at which “children of Heracles sought refuge from Eurystheus' prosecution. Adrastus also came to this altar after the loss of the battle of Seven Against Thebes, praying that those who died in the battle be buried.
"There was in the midst of the city [of Athens] an altar belonging to no god of power; gentle Clementia (Clemency) [Eleos] had there her seat, and the wretched made it sacred".
Eleos was known as the goddess of empathy.

A/N:  Small bits of dialogue taken or modified from various Btvs and Angel episodes throughout. Credit will be given in effected chapter notes.

1. Chapter 1 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 55 Comments: 56 Word Count: 1,147 Hit Count: 13,031 Published: October 04, 2018

2. Chapter 2 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 51 Comments: 32 Word Count: 1,580 Hit Count: 2,282 Published: October 04, 2018

3. Chapter 3 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 48 Comments: 31 Word Count: 2,358 Hit Count: 2,089 Published: October 11, 2018

4. Chapter 4 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 42 Comments: 24 Word Count: 2,302 Hit Count: 1,945 Published: October 17, 2018

5. Chapter 5 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 45 Comments: 28 Word Count: 2,095 Hit Count: 1,638 Published: October 18, 2018

6. Chapter 6 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 47 Comments: 29 Word Count: 2,756 Hit Count: 1,723 Published: October 23, 2018

7. Chapter 7 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 40 Comments: 25 Word Count: 2,317 Hit Count: 1,558 Published: October 29, 2018

8. Chapter 8 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 46 Comments: 25 Word Count: 3,497 Hit Count: 1,564 Published: November 06, 2018

9. Chapter 9 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 40 Comments: 23 Word Count: 2,705 Hit Count: 1,615 Published: November 13, 2018

A/N Some dialogue from Destiny written by David Fury and Steven S. DeKnight. I have altered canon slightly and kept Darla there for this meeting. In canon she had flitted off to the Master and returned later. I had better use for her here.


Word origin of 'menemenetekelupharsin' Aramaic: numbered, numbered, weighed, divided.  Daniel 5:25

10. Chapter 10 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 44 Comments: 27 Word Count: 3,824 Hit Count: 1,570 Published: November 20, 2018

11. Chapter 11 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 26 Word Count: 3,682 Hit Count: 1,558 Published: November 27, 2018

A/N Longer than usual chapter. Some dialogue taken from and/or adapted from “Lies My Parents Told Me” Written by David Fury and Drew Goddard

12. Chapter 12 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 41 Comments: 19 Word Count: 2,311 Hit Count: 1,462 Published: December 05, 2018

A/N Some dialogue taken or adapted from Fool For Love written by Douglas Petrie

13. Chapter 13 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 49 Comments: 24 Word Count: 3,800 Hit Count: 1,511 Published: December 12, 2018

A/N with two exceptions in this chapter (and throughout the story) all the Slayers that get a mention are either from the comics or the Tales of the Slayer book series with alterations as needed for my story unless noted otherwise. The current (1880) Slayer is my own creation as there wasn’t one listed anywhere for that time period in canon. The same for 1890 in St. Petersburg.


Also a tiny bit of dialogue from Amends written by Joss Whedon

14. Chapter 14 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 42 Comments: 24 Word Count: 2,604 Hit Count: 1,490 Published: December 18, 2018

15. Chapter 15 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 41 Comments: 21 Word Count: 2,633 Hit Count: 1,447 Published: December 27, 2018

16. Chapter 16 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 41 Comments: 22 Word Count: 3,617 Hit Count: 1,532 Published: January 01, 2019

Bits of dialogue from Welcome To The Hellmouth written by Joss Whedon, Angel written by David Greenwalt and Darla written by Tim Minear

17. Chapter 17 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 39 Comments: 24 Word Count: 3,946 Hit Count: 1,563 Published: January 08, 2019

18. Chapter 18 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 40 Comments: 24 Word Count: 2,844 Hit Count: 1,646 Published: January 16, 2019

Chapter notes: Wherein some of your questions are answered, hints are given, and a new player joins the scene.


19. Chapter 19 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 38 Comments: 24 Word Count: 3,539 Hit Count: 1,613 Published: January 22, 2019

20. Chapter 20 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 20 Word Count: 3,646 Hit Count: 1,681 Published: January 29, 2019

21. Chapter 21 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 36 Comments: 16 Word Count: 3,355 Hit Count: 1,663 Published: February 07, 2019

22. Chapter 22 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 21 Word Count: 4,549 Hit Count: 1,502 Published: February 22, 2019

23. Chapter 23 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 44 Comments: 26 Word Count: 3,029 Hit Count: 1,588 Published: February 27, 2019

24. Chapter 24 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 19 Word Count: 3,899 Hit Count: 1,463 Published: March 07, 2019


Legend (this image is for the previous, and next chapter as well as this one):

The left side represents the “good” part of the times. Films like Bringing Up Baby and Carefree, music from Bing Crosby, Benny Goodman, Deanna Durbin and so on. The center pic is a 1938 radio of the type they would have had to hear music, entertainment, and news from elsewhere in the world.


The middle collage has scenes from the 1936 Olympics, the Hindenburg in proud flight (and lush interior) and as it exploded in 1937, also Chamberlain (of the UK) signing the Munich agreement that basically promised no one would stop Hitler from taking Czechoslovakia (or “parts” that he wished to lay claim to) in an effort to prevent war. It was seen as appeasement even in its day, also shown, the Nazi troops and planes on their way to invade Poland. Then there are 3 manips of Spike and Dru and their home in Berlin.


The right side contains representations of the evil of the times. Doubt I need to elaborate on them.

25. Chapter 25 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 39 Comments: 21 Word Count: 4,086 Hit Count: 1,728 Published: March 19, 2019

Sorry for the delay in posting this chapter. I imagine you can all understand the challenge of writing about this time period and the events happening in history with the current world events mirroring so much of the madness and evil. We should have learned from our dark history. Nothing is quite as depressing as seeing history trying to repeat itself. I dedicate these chapters to all who have suffered in any way from prejudice, racism, or the evils of mindless hatred in the past and present. It is my prayer that humanity will finally learn once and for all but it is my fear we won’t. No place and no one is immune from this sort of evil as the recent horrific act in New Zealand proves.


26. Chapter 26 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 36 Comments: 18 Word Count: 3,630 Hit Count: 1,323 Published: March 30, 2019

27. Chapter 27 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 19 Word Count: 2,832 Hit Count: 1,343 Published: April 11, 2019

28. Chapter 28 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 42 Comments: 21 Word Count: 2,704 Hit Count: 1,298 Published: April 25, 2019

Bits of dialogue from Angel episode Why We Fight written by Drew Goddard & Steven S. DeKnight


29. Chapter 29 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 21 Word Count: 3,396 Hit Count: 1,294 Published: May 09, 2019

This chapter is heavy on canon but I hope I’ve managed to make it more than just a retelling of what was on screen.

Some dialogue, direct and adapted are from the Angel transcript of “Why We Fight” written by Drew Goddard and Steven S. DeKnight. The character of Sam Lawson was portrayed by Eyal Podell.

30. Chapter 30 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 44 Comments: 20 Word Count: 2,570 Hit Count: 1,311 Published: May 19, 2019

A couple of small bits of dialogue from Why We Fight by Drew Goddard and Steven DeKnight in the beginning of this chapter.


31. Chapter 31 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 51 Comments: 27 Word Count: 2,620 Hit Count: 1,310 Published: May 30, 2019

32. Chapter 32 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 39 Comments: 18 Word Count: 2,710 Hit Count: 1,239 Published: June 04, 2019

33. Chapter 33 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 45 Comments: 22 Word Count: 4,346 Hit Count: 1,166 Published: June 13, 2019

34. Chapter 34 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 49 Comments: 23 Word Count: 3,487 Hit Count: 1,171 Published: June 20, 2019

A/N I am not including the IDW comic storyline from “Spike: Old Wounds” where it had Spike in LA in 1947 encountering The Hermanos Número  (Numero Cinco). I am picking and choosing from the Comics as they are not necessarily canon and even Joss has said that if they ever were to do the show again, they would likely not use any of the comics as canon...just as with the “official” novels. Some I have used, some not and in one case twisted a bit.

One quote from Pangs written by Jane Espenson used.


35. Chapter 35 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 21 Word Count: 4,164 Hit Count: 1,191 Published: June 30, 2019



36. Chapter 36 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 46 Comments: 22 Word Count: 6,274 Hit Count: 1,244 Published: July 10, 2019

37. Chapter 37 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 49 Comments: 22 Word Count: 3,058 Hit Count: 1,238 Published: July 11, 2019


Just a sweet (I hope) interlude. This puts me back on schedule. I posted chapter 36 yesterday so make sure you read that one first. 

38. Chapter 38 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 36 Comments: 18 Word Count: 3,484 Hit Count: 1,105 Published: July 23, 2019


The Slayer in this chapter is my own creation.


Life is amazingly ironic. When you read this chapter you might think current events have shaped or heavily influenced some of the content. Sadly that is not so. This chapter takes place in the turbulent 1960s in the USA. The rhetoric and issues that seemed part of history have revealed themselves as once more being current events. I suppose the old adage that ‘those who ignore history are doomed to repeat it’ is more accurate than we might want to believe.

39. Chapter 39 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 45 Comments: 24 Word Count: 3,544 Hit Count: 1,160 Published: July 25, 2019

Couple of lines of dialogue from Lies My Parents Told Me written by David Fury and Dre Goddard

NO endorsement or encouragement of drug use intended or implied in the context of this chapter or the story notes at the end. Likewise any illegal substance. This chapter includes a look at Woodstock where such substances were part of the tapestry and it is included for that reason.

40. Chapter 40 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 52 Comments: 30 Word Count: 6,316 Hit Count: 1,240 Published: August 03, 2019


Nikki’s death is listed as July 13, 1977, on  Buffyverse wiki but the actual date wasn’t in the script or on-screen. I’m not sure where they sourced that date, likely from the novel Blackout. While a fine novel, it is not hard canon so I am keeping it in 1977 (that IS canon) but not holding it to the July date.


I’m out of my comfort zone with all the fight scenes. Hope I do them justice enough for what’s needed. 

41. Chapter 41 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 42 Comments: 19 Word Count: 3,396 Hit Count: 1,141 Published: August 13, 2019

Yes, I have “cast” John Cleese in the role of Bernard Crowley in this chapter illustration. 

Small bit of dialogue from Fool For Love by Doug Petrie

42. Chapter 42 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 47 Comments: 22 Word Count: 3,096 Hit Count: 1,300 Published: August 20, 2019

43. Chapter 43 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 51 Comments: 32 Word Count: 3,017 Hit Count: 1,338 Published: August 29, 2019

44. Chapter 44 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 54 Comments: 31 Word Count: 3,189 Hit Count: 1,323 Published: September 05, 2019

45. Chapter 45 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 25 Word Count: 5,131 Hit Count: 1,297 Published: September 12, 2019


Posting from work so I hope there are no typos, Will correct later if there are.

46. Chapter 46 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 23 Word Count: 3,801 Hit Count: 1,257 Published: September 19, 2019

47. Chapter 47 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 33 Comments: 18 Word Count: 4,162 Hit Count: 1,175 Published: September 29, 2019

I want to thank everyone who has been reading, commenting, liking this story. I have a bad habit of reading them while on work breaks and intending to reply only to have them build up until it’s a very long time since the comment was originally given. Please do know that I have read and treasured every one of them and one day you will find a reply to a comment you no longer remember. At the same time, I imagine that I will remember your comments for my lifetime, they warm my heart.  In the meantime, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

48. Chapter 48 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 39 Comments: 20 Word Count: 3,790 Hit Count: 1,155 Published: October 04, 2019

So much is happening in this time period that the intended single chapter became two separate ones. What Buffy sees is in this one and the same time period as viewed by Spike will be in Chapter 49 to post next week.

49. Chapter 49 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 42 Comments: 18 Word Count: 3,841 Hit Count: 1,143 Published: October 16, 2019

Mental and emotional disorders are not as infrequent as most would think nor should they be a source of shame. There is a vast variety of them, some treatable, some not. I do not claim expertise in the field by any means and the only real claims to an understanding I might have are from any personal experience and that of family members as well as a course in abnormal psychology many years ago. All the rest is just from research. Anyone with issues should never hesitate to get help for their own sake and those surrounding you. No one lives in a vacuum.

I found many of Buffy's character traits fit nicely with children of narcissists thus my portrayal of Hank in this story. What we did see of him also indicates that possibility as well.

Dedicating this to everyone who has shown such love for this story and support for me and my family, human and furry. You are all my "happy place" and often my sanity.

50. Chapter 50 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 44 Comments: 22 Word Count: 4,904 Hit Count: 1,172 Published: October 30, 2019


I was going to try to have all of Season 1 covered in this chapter but it really got away from me. So this chapter goes through “The Pack”. Next week’s chapter (that will be on time) will go from “Angel” through “Prophecy Girl”. We’ll also get a slight glimpse of what Spike and Dru are up to at this time in the next chapter. Please forgive typos and the like... I'm half asleep but already nearly a week late on this. 

51. Chapter 51 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 44 Comments: 21 Word Count: 6,010 Hit Count: 1,229 Published: November 07, 2019


Completing season 1 of the series in this chapter and also looking in on Spike and Dru as they try to find a way to cure her after the poisoning in Prague.  We begin with the episode “Angel” which means there is some Bangel but no more than in canon.

52. Chapter 52 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 45 Comments: 22 Word Count: 4,218 Hit Count: 1,091 Published: November 25, 2019

53. Chapter 53 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 50 Comments: 27 Word Count: 2,588 Hit Count: 1,204 Published: November 28, 2019

54. Chapter 54 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 45 Comments: 26 Word Count: 3,792 Hit Count: 1,321 Published: December 13, 2019

55. Chapter 55 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 44 Comments: 24 Word Count: 4,939 Hit Count: 1,039 Published: January 18, 2020


Apologies for the delay in getting this chapter out here. Nasty flu demon won the battle just as the New Year rang in and I’m only now feeling like a survivor. This chapter is running pretty long so I will split it into two chapters covering the time of the episode ‘Halloween’ from S2. The second chapter or second part, if you choose to think of it that way, will post on Sunday to make sure this first part doesn’t get lost in a double post. It is written though. Regular weekly updates should be on track once more.

56. Chapter 56 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 45 Comments: 23 Word Count: 2,945 Hit Count: 1,083 Published: January 19, 2020

This chapter is really a continuation of the “Halloween” episode events begun in chapter 55 that I posted very early on Saturday. Please be sure to read that update first. Again, some dialogue from “Halloween” written by Carl Ellsworth

57. Chapter 57 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 15 Word Count: 3,877 Hit Count: 1,166 Published: January 31, 2020

Episode “Lie To Me” written by Joss Whedon, bits of dialogue used or twisted in this chapter and the next. Also a brief reference to a scene from “What’s My Line, Part 2” written by Joss Whedon and Marti Noxon in this chapter.

This is another “episode” that wound up needing a couple of chapters. There will be a few of those in this season of the show that can’t be condensed into one chapter as Buffy and Spike see the past from the other’s eyes and gain new insights and confirmations of their new feelings. What happened in S2 was the foundation for their view of each other initially after all so it is quite pivotal. Some understanding and re-evaluation is needed for the new place where they find themselves.

58. Chapter 58 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 41 Comments: 16 Word Count: 4,594 Hit Count: 1,105 Published: February 08, 2020

Continuation of ‘Lie to Me’ episode events from the previous chapter, please be sure you read that first. The end scene relies heavily on the script because that moment was so very revealing where Buffy’s mind and heart were for so very long. Script was written by Joss Whedon.

59. Chapter 59 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 35 Comments: 19 Word Count: 4,540 Hit Count: 1,062 Published: February 15, 2020

Bits of canon referenced from The Dark Age written by Dean Batali and Rob DesHotel and What’s My Line, Part one written by Howard Gordon and Marti Noxon.

Just a note: (inspired by a comment on the last chapter … not on EF)... please remember the premise of the story. Buffy and Spike from S4 are “seeing” the other’s life in order to gain insight and empathy. This is the purpose of the spell. That means that as we find ourselves in the time period covered in canon certain bits from the episodes will have to show up. If you feel that “if you wanted to re-do the series you would just re-watch” then this story is not for you because to tell it I have to cover events from the episodes as Buffy and Spike (in essence) re-watch them. I try not to just do a transcript of any episode and also add to them as needed but they cannot be ignored. SO you will see bits from canon from now on until the spell is broken in S4 when they first touched the Eleos icon. 

60. Chapter 60 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 41 Comments: 14 Word Count: 3,759 Hit Count: 1,086 Published: February 21, 2020


Bits taken from What’s my Line, Part Two written by Joss Whedon and Marti Noxon

61. Chapter 61 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 34 Comments: 13 Word Count: 3,282 Hit Count: 1,081 Published: March 06, 2020

Okay, I’ve tinkered and revised and decided to stop being obsessive and post this chapter LOL. Sorry for the delay. 

Episodes touched on and/or dialogue borrowed or twisted from: Ted,  written by David Greenwalt and Joss Whedon, and Bad Eggs written by Marti Noxon

62. Chapter 62 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 50 Comments: 24 Word Count: 4,915 Hit Count: 1,079 Published: March 19, 2020

Episode ‘Surprise’ was written by Joss Whedon and Marti Noxon bits of dialogue borrowed from the script.

63. Chapter 63 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 39 Comments: 19 Word Count: 5,684 Hit Count: 1,120 Published: April 02, 2020

‘Innocence’ written by Joss Whedon and bits of dialogue from the script are used, twisted or touched on in the chapter

Sorry I'm late again. Like everyone else in this brave new world I've had a lot on my mind and I just couldn't get in the groove. Long chapter this time and hope to be back to a weekly schedule soon. No later than every other week though... PROMISE (unless this really IS the end of the world of course LOL).

64. Chapter 64 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 42 Comments: 17 Word Count: 4,831 Hit Count: 1,025 Published: April 21, 2020

Bits of canon and dialogue actual and twisted from episodes “Phases” (Rob DesHotel and Dean Batali), and “Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered” (Marti Noxon) 

65. Chapter 65 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 39 Comments: 12 Word Count: 5,745 Hit Count: 1,008 Published: May 04, 2020

Episode Passion was written by Ty King. Bits and pieces of dialogue appear in this chapter both verbatim and paraphrased, at times even twisted.  

66. Chapter 66 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 47 Comments: 21 Word Count: 3,235 Hit Count: 968 Published: May 19, 2020


There is mention of events in episodes: ‘Killed by Death’ written by Rob Des Hotel and Dean Batali (Der Kindestod), ‘I Only Have Eyes for You’’ by Marti Noxon, ‘Go Fish’ by Elin Hampton and David Fury, and ‘Becoming’ parts 1 and 2 written by Joss Whedon


67. Chapter 67 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 43 Comments: 18 Word Count: 6,020 Hit Count: 996 Published: May 31, 2020

This chapter covers the summer after S2 to the beginning of S3 up to Buffy return to Sunnydale.

Anne was written by Joss Whedon and Dead Man’s Party by Marti Noxon.


68. Chapter 68 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 47 Comments: 16 Word Count: 5,971 Hit Count: 974 Published: June 23, 2020

I have made up all the “backstory” for Mr. Trick. Canon has nothing on him so I took the opportunity to give him one. 

Episodes: Faith, Hope, and Trick written by David Greenwalt, Beauty and the Beasts written by Marti Noxon, Homecoming written by David Greenwalt, Band Candy written by Jane Espenson, and Revelations written by Douglas Petrie

69. Chapter 69 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 42 Comments: 14 Word Count: 6,949 Hit Count: 1,159 Published: July 10, 2020

Bits of dialogue used or twisted from “Lovers Walk” written by Dan Vebber. Also bits from “Fool For Love” written by Douglas Petrie

I want to thank everyone who has read, encouraged, liked, and commented on this fic. I haven't replied to many due to RL issues with time BUT have read and cherished each comment and appreciated every kind word. 


70. Chapter 70 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 49 Comments: 23 Word Count: 5,254 Hit Count: 1,070 Published: September 19, 2020

Dedicating this chapter to the late Ruth Bader Ginsburg who stood for her beliefs, adjudicated fairly, and never let anyone down especially in matters of equality under the law. Zikhronah Livrakha (May her memory be a blessing).

My genuine appreciation to all reading and commenting (or just reading for that matter). This chapter is also for YOU who also do not let me down.

71. Chapter 71 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 48 Comments: 20 Word Count: 5,345 Hit Count: 1,057 Published: November 03, 2020

Episode The Zeppo (written by Dan Vebber) also some events from FFL (written by Douglas Petrie) are eluded to. Keep in mind that ghostly Spike can only see things that Buffy would be able to see or going on close to her physically because he’s attached to her. Many events in the episode The Zeppo that happened to Xander took place out of Buffy’s sight so Spike wouldn’t have seen them. This includes Xander’s tryst with Faith.


72. Chapter 72 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 37 Comments: 13 Word Count: 4,901 Hit Count: 931 Published: December 08, 2020

Excerpts and summarizations from the book Spike is reading are in italics.

73. Chapter 73 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 42 Comments: 19 Word Count: 3,926 Hit Count: 947 Published: January 28, 2021

References to events in episodes Bad Girls (written by Douglas Petrie), Consequences (written by Marti Noxon), and Dopplegangland (written by Joss Whedon). Keep in mind that Spike’s insights and commentary are his own POV and not always correct. He calls them as he sees them but he’s fallible too.

74. Chapter 74 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 44 Comments: 20 Word Count: 3,514 Hit Count: 763 Published: February 27, 2021

Episode events touched on in this chapter: Enemies, written by Douglas Petrie, Earshot by Jane Espenson, and Choices by David Fury.

75. Chapter 75 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 46 Comments: 23 Word Count: 3,353 Hit Count: 592 Published: April 16, 2021

Events of The Prom written by Marti Noxon and Graduation Day Pt 1and 2 written by Joss Whedon are referenced.

Apologies for the length of time between chapters. RL and personal issues have prevented me from writing in a timely manner. I am in hopes that the circumstances have changed enough that I can return to more frequent updates.

I read and cherish all comments and assure you that your kindness and thoughts are deeply appreciated.

76. Chapter 76 by pfeifferpack - Likes: 32 Comments: 11 Word Count: 6,047 Hit Count: 419 Published: May 06, 2021

Events from the first two episodes of S4 are referred to. The Freshman, written by Joss Whedon, and Living Conditions, written by Marti Noxon