Summary: Buffy's pretty sure she doesn't know. Spike hopes she'll figure it out. (Completed January 2002)
Penname: Shaalwyd
Real Name: Becca
Real Name: Becca
Member Since: July 17, 2017
Last Active: November 30, 2019
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Series: Bittersweets
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 8,261 Hit Count: 1,730 ePub Downloads: 141
Published: September 20, 2013 Updated: September 20, 2013
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 8,261 Hit Count: 1,730 ePub Downloads: 141
Published: September 20, 2013 Updated: September 20, 2013
Shaalwyd commented on Chapter 1: Chapter 1
on August 20, 2017 
This is quite possibly the best exploration I've ever seen of Buffy's mental processes during her affair with Spike. Just beautiful.
Summary: While Buffy is living in Rome, she meets the Immortal, a mysterious figure with a dark past who may or may not be evil. But Captain Jack Harkness isn’t some common vampire, and Buffy Summers isn’t just a girl. Each is haunted by grief, by memories and regrets that cannot be dismissed. Immortality is more than just not dying. It’s learning to live again. Not exactly an Angel season 5 rewrite, more a "What else is happening behind the scenes." Crossover with Torchwood. Should be enjoyable even to those who only know Buffy. Based on a challenge by Sunnydalesis.
Series: "After All"
Categories: Post-Series, Crossover (AtS), Crossover (Books or TV shows outside Buffyverse), Episode Rewrite, Challenge Response, Time Travel
Characters: Andrew Wells, Angel, Angelus, Buffy, Connor, Cordelia, Dawn, Doyle, Drusilla, Ensemble, Fred, Giles, Charles Gunn, Illyria, Lorne, Other, Spike, Tara, Wesley, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Drama, Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Buffy/Other (Temp), Sexual Situations
Challenges: The Real Immortal (Author's Choice of Title)
Completed: Yes Chapters: 42 Table of Contents
Word count: 167,956 Hit Count: 68,072 ePub Downloads: 517
Published: November 12, 2015 Updated: May 10, 2016
Categories: Post-Series, Crossover (AtS), Crossover (Books or TV shows outside Buffyverse), Episode Rewrite, Challenge Response, Time Travel
Characters: Andrew Wells, Angel, Angelus, Buffy, Connor, Cordelia, Dawn, Doyle, Drusilla, Ensemble, Fred, Giles, Charles Gunn, Illyria, Lorne, Other, Spike, Tara, Wesley, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Drama, Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Buffy/Other (Temp), Sexual Situations
Challenges: The Real Immortal (Author's Choice of Title)
Completed: Yes Chapters: 42 Table of Contents
Word count: 167,956 Hit Count: 68,072 ePub Downloads: 517
Published: November 12, 2015 Updated: May 10, 2016
Shaalwyd commented on Chapter 42: Mortal
on September 04, 2018
This story was... epic. Amazing. Every single POV is perfectly in-character, all the little details fit with canon and then re-explain it in a way that makes it better and more logical... it's just extraordinary. You're an extraordinary writer.
This is now my headcanon for what really happened.
Author's Response on September 06, 2018 07:55pm
Thank you so much! This was quite the wild ride with all the different voices and genres I was trying to squeeze in. I'm really glad you liked it!
Summary: Spike had returned to Sunnydale to kill the slayer, and here she was. But that wasn’t the right scent. And that golden skin was pale. And those green eyes were no longer vibrant and alive, they were dead and cold in Buffy’s hard, humorless face. “Oh, bloody hell!” Spike snapped. “Some berk got here before me?”
Approximately 60,000 words, complete at 18 chapters. Written for the Elysian Fields 'Artistic Anniversary Challenge'. Banner 4 by javajunkie247.
Approximately 60,000 words, complete at 18 chapters. Written for the Elysian Fields 'Artistic Anniversary Challenge'. Banner 4 by javajunkie247.
Categories: Season 4, Alternate Reality, Challenge Response
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Harmony, Riley Finn, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Drama, Fighting, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Dubious Consent, Sexual Situations, Torture (Physical), Vampire!Buffy, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 18 Table of Contents
Word count: 60,557 Hit Count: 46,153 ePub Downloads: 492
Published: October 01, 2016 Updated: October 17, 2016
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Harmony, Riley Finn, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Drama, Fighting, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Dubious Consent, Sexual Situations, Torture (Physical), Vampire!Buffy, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 18 Table of Contents
Word count: 60,557 Hit Count: 46,153 ePub Downloads: 492
Published: October 01, 2016 Updated: October 17, 2016
Shaalwyd commented on Chapter 11: Chapter 11
on September 09, 2018
Eeee! Madcoil! You're an Elfquest fan!
Also, I love the way you deal with consent. I've seen you do it a dozen different ways now, but it's always organic and natural and there. So much love for you!
Author's Response on September 10, 2018 06:00am
I... am an ElfQuest fan. Though to be fair, the challenge requested a crossover, so I pulled in bits from a lot of different stories. ElfQuest was just one of them.
I address consent a lot, because Spuffy requires it with the way their relationship formed in canon. I'm glad it comes off well! Thank you.
Summary: “I only show the truth,” the creature said. “The truth of the future. How you feel about it is all your own.”
“What future?” Buffy demanded. “What are you talking about?”
The demon smiled. “You’ll see soon enough.”
“What future?” Buffy demanded. “What are you talking about?”
The demon smiled. “You’ll see soon enough.”
Series: "After All"
Categories: Post-Series
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Dark, Drama, Established Relationship
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Cheating/Infidelity, Human!Spike, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Vampire!Buffy
Completed: Yes Chapters: 7 Table of Contents
Word count: 34,897 Hit Count: 12,958 ePub Downloads: 238
Published: November 21, 2017 Updated: December 18, 2017
Categories: Post-Series
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Dark, Drama, Established Relationship
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Cheating/Infidelity, Human!Spike, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Vampire!Buffy
Completed: Yes Chapters: 7 Table of Contents
Word count: 34,897 Hit Count: 12,958 ePub Downloads: 238
Published: November 21, 2017 Updated: December 18, 2017
Shaalwyd commented on Chapter 7: Future Continuous
on September 06, 2018
This made me cry, and cry, and cry, and go and hug my suicidal husband (who is staying alive only because it would wreck me for him to leave me) and tell him I love him a hundred more times and cry some more. Beautifully written, as always, but each scenario is so vivid and real.
And god I love old people love stories. Love that stands the test of time and outlasts bodies and desire, as in Buffy's vision, is more powerful and beautiful to me than any 'Buffy is somehow ageless so they just keep on living together indefinitely' could ever be. Love that faces reality and embraces it rather than turning away from it.
I'm still crying. This was beautiful. I hope you're feeling more hopeful now than when you wrote it.
Author's Response on September 06, 2018 08:53pm
*offers up tissue* Yeah, I was in a pretty bad space when I wrote this, but I was actually coming out of it. Too bad a space, and I couldn't have written at all. This story often makes people cry.
I'm glad you liked the Buffy Aging scenario. That's how I like it, too, with Buffy real and human and ephemeral, not magically eternal, or brought back by the Powers That Be, or anything so flighty. Real, solid, warts-and-all love, which means growing old together, even if Spike grows old differently without outward changes. It's just not real love if you need magic to make it last forever. At least that's how I feel about it. And as I showed, the stories where it was supposed to last forever, by Buffy or Spike changing things to make it "different," well. Those endings weren't happy ever after, either. They couldn't be.
I'm so glad this story touched you. Thank you for telling me, it means a lot to hear.