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Summary: Sequel to "Impossible," picking up three months later. The life of Spike and Buffy with the Holy One, their daughter Anna. While this story will follow the three through fourteen years, expect a lot of skipping around. This is more a series of short stories than an actual novel.
Series: The Triad Series
Categories: Baby/Kid Fic
Characters: Ensemble
Genres: Action/Adventure, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Character Death, Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Word count: 46,335 Hit Count: 9,988 ePub Downloads: 238
Published: March 01, 2008 Updated: December 06, 2008
onar commented on Chapter 11: Chapter Eleven on March 31, 2016

I know this is a lot of time later and that you'll probably won't even see this review, but I just discovered these series yesterday while looking through baby fics and I read through Impossible and Anna Begins in one day!! I'd usually say something like post soon but since it's probably not gonna happen after all these years, I'll just say that your stories were really good and that you have a great talent at writing them! I really enjoyed reading! 

Summary: Season 5. Begins with ‘Spiral’ in the abandoned gas station, and goes *far* off-canon almost immediately.
When Dawn makes the ultimate sacrifice to save her sister, friends, and the world, Buffy’s mind snaps. When Buffy's friends give up hope of her ever recovering, and become afraid that she’ll turn violent and uncontrollable, they call in the Council to help. Fearing what the Council will do, Spike, forgotten and ignored by her friends, steps in. Will he be able to reach the Slayer when no one else could? Will he be able to keep her out of the hands of the Council and away from her ‘helpful’ friends? How much heartbreak, guilt, and failure can one girl stand before her indestructible spirit finally resigns the fight and gives up hope?
WARNINGS: Threesome B/G/G action involving Spike, Buffy, and BuffyBot. Implied Rape. Main Character Death. Physical Torture. Plenty of angst.
onar commented on Chapter 54: Spirit Indestructible on April 11, 2016 Liked

Wow! What an amazing story!!! I just read through it in only a couple days!! I was crying so bad in the end that I run out of tissues!!! one of the very best Spuffy fics I've ever read!!! 



Author's Response on June 16, 2016 01:42am

Thank you so much! What an amazing compliment! flowers

Summary: Insert fake sister A into memory slot B.  When the monks form Dawn, the PTB take a helping hand in the creation of the fake memories.  How does the interactions with Dawn in the past change Buffy and Spike's relationship in the present and ultimately the future?  Begins in S5 but quickly downturns to S2.  Spike/Buffy with Spike and Dawn friendship. 
Many thanks to Pfeifferpack for the wonderful banner.
Categories: Season 2, Season 3, Season 4, Season 5, Award Winners
Characters: Buffy, Dawn, Ensemble, Spike
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Sexual Situations, Torture (Physical), Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 63 Table of Contents
Word count: 283,243 Hit Count: 160,016 ePub Downloads: 1,194
Published: September 19, 2013 Updated: November 08, 2019
onar commented on Chapter 51: Chapter 51 on June 24, 2016

Ugh! Enough with Riley already! Buffy thinking he's such a good guy, has me wishing he could be gone already! Anyway, I love your story!!! It's amazing! Just please please don't torture us for much longer, have them get together already! I'm also hopi.g Riley will somehow learn that the ring and the pedant are both Spike's gifts! Please update soon! Best story ever!


Summary: While Buffy is living in Rome, she meets the Immortal, a mysterious figure with a dark past who may or may not be evil. But Captain Jack Harkness isn’t some common vampire, and Buffy Summers isn’t just a girl. Each is haunted by grief, by memories and regrets that cannot be dismissed. Immortality is more than just not dying. It’s learning to live again. Not exactly an Angel season 5 rewrite, more a "What else is happening behind the scenes." Crossover with Torchwood. Should be enjoyable even to those who only know Buffy. Based on a challenge by Sunnydalesis.
Series: "After All"
Categories: Post-Series, Crossover (AtS), Crossover (Books or TV shows outside Buffyverse), Episode Rewrite, Challenge Response, Time Travel
Characters: Andrew Wells, Angel, Angelus, Buffy, Connor, Cordelia, Dawn, Doyle, Drusilla, Ensemble, Fred, Giles, Charles Gunn, Illyria, Lorne, Other, Spike, Tara, Wesley, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Drama, Dramedy, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Buffy/Other (Temp), Sexual Situations
Challenges: The Real Immortal (Author's Choice of Title)
Completed: Yes Chapters: 42 Table of Contents
Word count: 167,956 Hit Count: 67,685 ePub Downloads: 513
Published: November 12, 2015 Updated: May 10, 2016
onar commented on Chapter 30: Last Kiss on April 13, 2016 Liked

I don't get it. What happened to the letters? Did Spike know all this time and just played along? Cause a lot of his thoughts and actions don't make much sense to me if that's true. I mean he told Ilona "I'm not like her", meaning Buffy and how she moved on with the Immortal, plus when he thought about Dawn in the chapter where he wrote the poems he didn't seem to know that she had forgiven him. Did Angel got hold of the letters? Is Spike in for a late delivery? Dunno....

I loved what Jack told Giles about Spike and how he had made himself into what Buffy needed. I also love that Willow knew about Fred and actually searched for a way to help, cause in canon it kinda pissed me off that neither Giles nor Willow tried to help. Anyway, great chapter! Can't wait for more, so please post soon!!! 


Author's Response on April 14, 2016 02:58am

You'll find out what happened to the letters, I swear. Story questions! Ain't they a kicker?

Yeah, Fred and Lorne and Giles and Willow are all redeemed for their slightly douchey moves in this story. Wes, Angel, most of the others... well, they're up the creek.

onar commented on Chapter 19: Waltz on March 15, 2016 Liked

This story is frustrating as hell!!! In a way that makes me really really love it!! Captain Jack is equal amounts of wise and annoyingly know it all to be awesome! Buffy is bashing on Angel - which is awesome- and everybody else's views are done exceedingly well. But I want them to meet already!!! So there goes my very first review on your stories even though I ve read all of them like a gazillion times!! Please update soon and please continue writing these awesome stories!! Did I say you're awesome???


Author's Response on March 15, 2016 11:15am

This was an adorable review! It's great that it was only sheer frustration that made you finally wave at me. I feel evil. My work here is done! Thank you for telling me I'm awesome. That you for reading my stories, (a gazillion times or otherwise.) Thank you for being awesome in turn. Thanks in general.

onar commented on Chapter 23: The Tower on March 27, 2016

How about you freaking figure out that he's not dead?!?!?! Argh!!! Come on already!! This story is killing me!!! 

Okay, I'm calm, I'm calm....

But seriously come on!! For a moment there I really thought they were going to change something, alter the timeline and as Dawn said that wouldn't have been fair to Spike. I'm kinda surprised that Giles went along with it for a moment there...anyway....Buffy really needs to know that he's more soon and please have mercy and stop torturing us!!! 

Author's Response on March 27, 2016 03:44am

Next chapter is already written, I'm just waiting for people to catch up. Buffy needs to know he's alive, does she... Hmm.

As for Giles... he's feeling the murdered hubris around now.

onar commented on Chapter 24: Scrubbing Bubbles on March 28, 2016

Ohhhhhh.....ok, I get it now....though, that kind of takes a lot of choices away from Spike and that's kinda sad, but then he probably won't care if he gets Buffy out of Xander is going to be Buffy's anchor through her memories of Spike? I so want him to make somekind of a comment like "please keep the kinky stuff to a minimum" or something like that....hehe...anyway, so glad you updated so soon! It's a great story and you have us all at the edge of our seats so...more, please! 

Author's Response on March 27, 2016 09:46pm

Well, yeah, I suppose, but he could still choose to kill himself ultimately, so... he chose not to.

onar commented on Chapter 25: A Nice Plate of Crow on April 01, 2016

Dru yay!!! I like the stories where Drusilla is involved more than just to by a reminder of Spike's evil past or just to pose as a threat, but where in all her madness and evilness she actually wants to help Spike. Not sure that's what's gonna happen here, but still...

Anyway, I came late to the party, since I only discovered the series a couple of years ago - it never aired in my country, while I was growing up - but I got to see all seven seasons in about two weeks, so it's not like I could forget something that happened in the earlier seasons, when I was watching the last and yet my opinion of Xander always changed time and time again as the series progressed.

I really liked him during the first two seasons, even after the whole "lie" deal, only to get irritated by him in the third season when he just wouldn't let it go and just kept throwing the whole Angelus thing in Buffy's face - in retrospect he probably was right, but still he was just so cruel. Then came season four and I was back on liking him and then in season five he insisted that Buffy should go after Riley, when everyone - I think Buffy included -  was sick of the guy. Then he left Anya and was pretty much horrible to Spike and I was right back at not really liking him and borderline hating him. And then I cried with the whole yellow crayon speech and I forgave him. I was devasted when Caleb took out his eye and to be fair he did say that he only wanted Buffy to take a breather, he didn't mean for them to throw her out. My point is that Xander made a lot of mistakes and had a lot of bad moments, but so had everyone else - hell, Giles wanted Buffy to kill Dawn and Willow tried to end the world. In any case I definitely think that if Dawn and Giles are to be forgiven, then Xander definitely should be too. Sure, Buffy shouldn't in any way let her friends dictate her life anymore, but she was always stronger and happier with them by her side. So, in conclusion I think Xander has to be forgiven, though only if he promises to be pro Spuffy from now on.

So, please forgive me my rant, but as I said I only recently became engrossed in the Buffyverse and I haven't much expressed or discussed my opinions on various characters yet - it's the reason I haven't written anything yet or why until recently I didn't review...I had to have had watched the series a couple dozen times and to have read various guides and analysis on it to be certain I had a grasp on the caracters before I could express an opinion, since as someone who grew up with Harry Potter, I'd always hate it when I'd read some fic or some review and it would be clear that whoever wrote it had no idea what the story was about or who the character they were talking about was.  

Anyway, please post more soon!

I can't wait to see where the story takes us next. 


Author's Response on April 02, 2016 03:54am

Rant away! I love to hear it! Can't always respond in kind -- wish I could, but some of these reviews are so beautiful and so detailed.

Xander is a deeply flawed, and thus very real kind of character. I try not to judge HIM, but the things he does. This thing he does is cool, this other thing not so much, and so on, and so on. Unlike Angel, who gets my blood up and some of his actions REALLY color all the others, each of Xander's actions seem to stand on their own within his humanity. I kinda like that flawed and fluid nature about him, in my way. He can be very good or very bad, sometimes within the same episode, or even from one moment to the next.

onar commented on Chapter 26: Slayer's Pet on April 01, 2016 Liked

Dru is fun...though probably not if she wants you to be her dolly! So Willow is going to be in this story too? I'm so excited with this story and with reading about everyone's thoughts and feelings, though I desperately want them all to get it over with so Buffy can meet with Spike. Speaking of we haven't had a Spike chapter in a while, are we getting one about his thoughts for what went down in TGIC? I hope we are, you write an amazing Spike. Anyhow, please post more soon!!


Author's Response on April 02, 2016 03:55am

NO! I would NEVER want to be Dru's dolly, or her dinner, or anything she wants to "play" with. *shudder* More Spike chapters will happen, I swear. There's a lot of roads to go down, first.

onar commented on Chapter 27: Smoke and Mirrors on April 02, 2016 Liked

Spike's a pig. But she always loved pigs. Such a sweet chapter! Why did you have to end in a cliffie? Please please post more soon!!! I really want to know what happens next!! 


Author's Response on April 02, 2016 10:57pm

She was always calling him a pig, you know.

onar commented on Chapter 28: Fight, Fight, Fight on April 03, 2016 Liked

Go Cordy, go Cordy, go Cordy!!! And please no space sex. Just no. 


Author's Response on April 02, 2016 10:53pm

Go-go, go Cordy! (Yeah. Gotta hate the space sex concept.)

onar commented on Chapter 29: Common Vampires on April 05, 2016 Liked

Spike, you eat those cookies!! I almost missed this update and it was the Spike chapter I wanted!!! Are there really any Bangel shippers left?? I never really checked for a Bangel fanfiction site because well...ew....but I just cant see a site like EF for Bangel shippers existing, but hey Spuffy sites are still going strong! I wish Spike would have invited some of us on the Buffyverse conference that was taking place in his head though! I love how you has Spike swooning in his head over Angel's praise and then getting pissed off for it!! Anyway, great chapter do know that when Spike FINALLY meets with Buffy there have to be like twenty or so chapters of them getting back together, just to appease us for this emotional turmoil this fic has caused us, right?? 


P.S. I'm writing from my phone on a bus, so my grammar must suck, so sorry for that!

Author's Response on April 06, 2016 01:46am

I think there are Bangel shippers left, but I think they're mostly casual watchers, or people not very good at analysis who go with "Angel was HAWT to me!" and let it go at that.

As for how many Spuffy chapters there will be... um. I don't know yet. I haven't gotten there.

onar commented on Chapter 31: Sea Breeze on April 15, 2016 Liked

This chapter got me thinking. You know what i'd really want? I want a chapter with Jack and Spike. All we know is what Jack has told Buffy and what we saw in TGIQ. How did Jack came to know and appreciate Spike, enough that he'd know that he always changed for who he loved and ect?? I really want to read a chapter with them flirting or reminishing about their time together! Anyway....I love Lorne! Say, if the Powers had decided not to let Buffy escape with her Spike pig, then Jack wouldnt go back and then there will be no crystal to close the they'd just let the First win? Or all these slayers die?? Damn....the Higher Powers sure are gits in this story! More soon!! I just need to know what those letters say and why Spike never got them!!! 

Author's Response on April 16, 2016 01:20am

Hm. Jack and Spike. *Considers this.* I had a fanged four/Jack chapter all planned out once, and it just wouldn't come. Maybe some of it can be cannibalized for later. There's quite a number of chapters still very fluid in this story.

The Higher Powers ARE gits in this story, but... if you look at Angel, it doesn't seem to make any sense what they were after, anyway. That's why I made such a big deal about Spike just NOT being part of their plan, because it is only if you're NOT part of their plans that anything makes sense, and things just... happen.

I mean... okay, Spike's resurrection made the shanshu all floouy, so that the crazy bleeding eye bit happens in Destiny. But what was the plan to deal with the First Evil? Jasmine was apparently part of their plan, but she wasn't, but she was, but she wasn't. Buffy is supposed to be with Angel, but being with Angel is clearly not what is destined for either of them. Angel was supposed to be given Doyle's visions, but he gave them to Cordy instead, but Cordy was going to become a higher being, and... NONE OF IT FOLLOWS! I doesn't make ANY SENSE AT ALL! That's part of what I'm trying to get at with this. There is a path of destiny, a higher purpose, created by these Powers, but it's not set, it's not solid, it isn't Good vs. Evil, it's just a bunch of alien creatures with influence, making human beings play someone else's game.

onar commented on Chapter 32: Ace of Diamonds on April 16, 2016 Liked

Oh, I simply cannot imagine Wes going "what you wearing?" without laughing. I dont know why, by the end of Angel, he was pretty hot, but every time I just flash to Buffy season 3 Wesley and it's just so hilarious!!! He trully was one of the most developed characters, along with Willow and of course Spike. Anyway, don't really know much about Lilah since the only season of Angel I've actually rewatched a couple of times is the fifth, but I love how you had her interact with Jack. 

So now that he's given the crystal to her, he has to go back -forward?- to after the Hellmouth was destructed, somehow find it and then infuse it with what's left of Spike? I gathered from previous chapters that there's probably more that he has to do in order to get the crystal, but I havent figured our's all pretty confusing...poor Jack, he really is a true Spuffy shipper!! 

There was going to be a Jack/Scourge chapter?!?! That would have been amazing!! Maybe when the story is done you can post it as an one shot! 

So anyway...I'll ask again...what happens to the freaking letters? Was it Angel? It was Angel, wasn't it? Probably not, but I'm gonna use this as an excuse to hate him, just cause...

Ok, rant over. Post more soon, I kinda have an addiction to this story!! 

Author's Response on April 16, 2016 04:59pm

Oh, GOD yes, I'm basically reprising a very steamy phone-sex segment from season four in this, and I'd seen that episode out of order because I was doing Lorne research (House Always Wins) and suddenly here's Wesley telling Lilah to take her panties off in a board meeting, and I'm like... What? WHAT? WHERE THE HELL DID THIS COME FROM! WHAT HAPPENED TO WESLEY? It makes sense as you watch the character progress, but my GOD it was shocking out of the blue like that!

There was going to be a Jack/Whirlwind chapter. I kinda miss it, but it never found a decent spot to be. Maybe it will get used/finished later in the book. I still have it floating around in a file.

The letters question will be answered! Angel can be an ass about this without being THAT much of an ass, you know. You don't need an excuse to hate him. He's awful. Go ahead and hate Angel.

onar commented on Chapter 33: Flavors of Death on April 18, 2016 Liked

Yay!!! We got a whirlwind flashback!!! I'm so happy!!! I also love how you mash the Buffyverse with Torchwood and the doppelgänger bit had me laughing. Thanks for posting the scenes, I really enjoyed them!!! Now on to see what happens next.....

So, not only someone took hold of the letters, but also of the box? Since Jack was planning on bringing Spike back a day after he came out of the crystal, something obviously goes wrong...the Senior Partners? Lindsey? Harm? the freaking Powers?? I'm guessing it's going to either be a shock as to who messed things up or it will make perfect now I'm guessing both. Hmm.....


Author's Response on April 20, 2016 01:57pm

I had to address the Captain John Hart issue. Couldn't just dismiss it.

onar commented on Chapter 34: The Box on April 19, 2016 Liked

Okay, so now that you've actually covered everyone's POV and you proven that you are so amazing that you can even make us feel sorry for a box, how does it feel??? lol! 

Freaking Lindsey! And stupid Eve! Uh, now Spike won't know to meet Buffy! Those two suck! Buffy is gonna think that it didn't work or that Spike got the letter and didn't care about her anymorre! Pffft....

Well, I'm frustrated with the story again, though mostly because I really want to know what comes next and because I want Spike and Buffy to meet already! I'm really glad you posted so soon though!! Would it be ungrateful of me if I pleaded with you to post more soon? 


Author's Response on April 20, 2016 01:55pm

So you are impressed by box POV, are you? I loved the first line of your review. I keep petting it.


onar commented on Chapter 36: No, You Don't on April 21, 2016 Liked

Do not dare to leave it at that! Have mercy and give the people what they want! I really need for Eve and her sleeze bag of a lover to be exposed though. So are Buffy and Jack going to help with the apocalypse or are they gonna stop Angel's silly plan anyway? More importanly is there going to be a sequel to this story? Or not a sequel, just keep on going from here on and I promise I'll read even if ypu reach to 100 chapters! Anyway, please post more soon!!!


Author's Response on April 21, 2016 05:05pm

Exposing the villains, righting the righteous, fighting the good fight. Don't worry, there's more. Honest.

onar commented on Chapter 37: Hold On, Let Go on April 22, 2016 Liked

You just can't resist torturing us till the very end, can you? But to be fair you are kinda amazing for updating right away. It trully was an interesting chapter. I hate Angel. I really do, but in some stories I've read the author, obviously sharing the same hatred, makes him out to always be in the wrong and always be the bad guy and I've realized that I don't like that either. He's not exactly the bad guy, not always, he's the wrong guy. The main reason I couldn't stand him was that in cannon he always gets excused for everything (even Twilight and killing Giles in the stupid comics) while Spike never got the same treatment. But if you turn it completely around, not acknowledging any of his good attributes, limited as they be, then it just isn't believable. Buffy wouldn't have fallen for just a pretty face, not that hard and for so long, he had to have had something more and in those stories I just end up feeling sorry for him and I don't want that. All in all I love your version of Angel, because it's so close to how I think of him. He's a jerk, an egomaniac with illusions of destiny and self importance, that we love to hate, but he's not two dimensional and he really did care for Buffy, in his own twisted perv way, I think he cared for Spike too. He's just not such a great guy, doesn't mean he always has to be an awful guy. Anyway, can't wait for more on the Spuffy front! More soon, please?


Author's Response on April 22, 2016 02:37pm

Torture? Moi? Well, yeah, this isn't the instant Spuffy everyone wants to see. But interesting things DO happen here!

I'm not a big fan of character bashing, and yeah, I hate Angel too. I agree he gets way too many free passes for awful behavior, when Spike gets none at all. I agree that if you like Buffy at all (and I kinda do) it's only fair to try and see what she SAW in him. There's got to be something. But even then, I blame the Powers for lots of it. He's a useful puppet for them, and... well. Annoying that.

onar commented on Chapter 40: Dangerous Decisions on May 04, 2016 Liked

Sorry for not leaving a review for the previous chapters. I was out of town and had no internet service, because my grandfather's village is somewhere between the Vermuda triangle and Neverland. Well, not really but you get the point. 

Anyway, in three chapters you've managed to move the story forward so much and still none of it feels rushed. I love the moments between Buffy and Spike and how she's so angry that he'd risk his life for Angel. I also love how you kept close to cannon with having Spike stay. I do believe that Spike loved and cared for Angel, even if he's just a gormless tit. I'm fairly certain that Jack won't able to help himself and he's going to join the fight. The bit about Spike and Buffy gettin over the monogamy quirk had me laughing and apparently Jack did get some. My only complain is that after Misperceptions I really wanted to read about Spike's reconciliation with Dawn, I mean we didn't even get to read her letter! Please have a Dawn and Spike chapter, pretty please?? Mostly I don't want this story to end as you've probably gathered and I'm all torn because I want you to post more soon!! 


Author's Response on May 04, 2016 12:19pm

I COULD NOT find a spot for a Dawn-Spike chapter! I just couldn't, it didn't match what the story needed to say! As for Dawn's letter, she REALLY didn't want to share it. It was private. It was Spike's. We weren't supposed to hear it, and yeah, okay, maybe he didn't get to hear it, either, but I'm sure they've spoken since. There's only two chapters more to go after this one (I know, right?!).

Jack got some... something. What he got I have no idea. I hadn't planed on him getting anything, but Buffy informed me that something happened, and Spike had kinda agreed to it in the last chapter, and... okay, characters! You know what you're doing better than I do!

onar commented on Chapter 42: Mortal on May 10, 2016 Liked

I knew, I knew Jack would join the fight! I love the bit about Buffy resurecting him too and how he loves all of them! He and Lorne really do make a great couple! Somehow everyone got a second chance...well, I'm still sad over Wes and Gunn, but at least everyone else got a reprieve. So....on to the next Sigyn fanfiction of awesomeness?? What do you have coming to us next?? 


Author's Response on May 10, 2016 04:05am

Not sure. Maybe some oneshots. My next few big projects are stalled. Something will come along someday, though.

I couldn't save Wes or Gunn, they were very doomed in canon, but as for Jack... yeah. He's back. He's back, dammit. And he deserves a little caritas at home.

Summary: S2 AU.  Following the vampire attack on Sunnydale High in 'School Hard,' Buffy and Drusilla find themselves switching bodies every night between sunset and sunrise. Who do you become when you walk far more than a mile in your enemy's shoes?
Categories: Season 2, Alternate Reality, Challenge Response
Characters: Buffy, Drusilla, Ensemble, Spike
Genres: POV, Romance
Warnings: Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp)
Challenges: Cursed
Completed: Yes Chapters: 32 Table of Contents
Word count: 177,421 Hit Count: 139,726 ePub Downloads: 1,245
Published: December 01, 2015 Updated: August 03, 2016
onar commented on Chapter 18: Ritual on March 19, 2016

I really love your stories. I love how you have all the characters down and how original your ideas are. Buffy switching with Dru was an amazing idea, though I'm gradually getting more and more worried and confused. I'm worried about Buffy losing herself and also because I really don't want Dru to sleep with Angel in Buffy's body and I just really want Buffy's first time to be with Spike. Also I'm kinda getting confused everytime Spike and Buffy have a moment because then I'm reminded that she's in Dru's body and I'm like ugh! So really need more "Homefront" moments here, though as I said loving the switching bodies idea. Anyway, can't wait to see where this story goes next and really looking forward to Buffy fussing over Spike some more. Update soon!!


Author's Response on March 19, 2016 12:06pm

Thank you for your kind words! 

I'm gradually getting more and more worried and confused- So are Buffy and Dru! Who is who when? 

I'm getting super nervous about the major plot point on the way- I'm hoping that how I'm handling it will make sense to my readers- it might not be entirely how everyone expects. 

Spike's going to need some Slayer blood to help him get better, so ... ;-)

onar commented on Chapter 21: Happy Birthday, Buffy on April 20, 2016 Liked

I'll admit, I'm much more upset at Dru that I am with Angel. Yes I know I'm the minority and I do hate Angel, but come on. He had no idea, he didn't know about the switching and even if she hesitated, he probably thought it was normal what with her being a virgin and all. Yes, hes a git and a wanker and he probably pushed, but he thought that he was with the girl that loved him (plus everything we know, we know from him as Angelus, perhaps Angel would have worded it differently). Dru knew it wasn't her body, she knew that Buffy was a virgin and in love with Spike and she didn't even have the demon as an excuse. Sure, she's had sex a gazillion times, so it didn't seem like a big deal, but still when she's in Buffy's body she doesn't have the excuse of her demon or the Sire bond or whatever, because she's supposed to be human and also sane I might add and it wasn't her freaking body!! The fact that she felt bad afterwards only shows that she knew how wrong she was! Also even if Buffy has done stuff in Dru's body, Dru wasn't a virgin and she's been sharing a bed with Spike for almost a century. All in all, much as I'd love to blame Angel for this, I adamantly believe it's Dru's fault. They were supposed to be sisters for crying out loud! I had grown really fond of Dru in this fic, but now I really hope someone dusts the bitch or at least banish her from Buffy's body asap. Sorry! I probably would have felt much better if I could pin it solely on Angel, but the way it happened really angered me, even if I knew it was coming. Also why isn't Buffy more upset? I thought her reaction was mild, considering. She's even hoping that Spike won't give Dru a hard time. Really?? She's the one that got her raped, not Angel - he didn't know and he thought she loved him, how is his behavior different than cannon? So he kinda talked her into it and ok she loved him, but just the fact that he didn't even know it wasn't Buffy he was sleeping with and how -Angelus aside- he came out as the bad guy in this (when he thought he was with the girl he loved and loved him) makes me kinda feel bad for Angel and I freaking hate the git! 

Anyway, sorry for the rant. I really do love this story and my above rant and indignation at Dru really depicts how close with this version of the characters I've grown. I want to read more and I want Angelus to have the nasty and bitter ending he should have had in cannon, but please please make Dru pay for this as well! I'm just so mad at her! I want her out of Buffy's body now! 

Again, sorry for the rant. Post more soon!


Author's Response on April 20, 2016 03:21pm

Hopefully going forward Dru's choices and actions will make more sense to you. I wanted to sort of contrast Spike's actions when Buffy when she's asking him to "go all the way" with her and he says that the timings not right and he wants to make sure it's special for her with Angel who, when Dru (as Buffy) says no, pressures her into doing it anyway. It took Dru, who's been programmed by Angel to be "his" through mental and physical violence, a great deal to try and stand up to him, but as soon as he became manipulative ("Don't you love me?") she was unable to say no. Angelus is going to have a field day when he realizes what really went down that night. 

Anyway- Willow's going to be getting an earful from Buffy, the Scoobies are going to be dealing with Angelus and The Judge, and Buffy's two worlds are about to collide!

Thank you for the read and review!

Summary: Buffy has fallen into darkness and been forced to become a ghost in her own past.  Only she didn't come back alone. What will it take to overcome depression, obsession, and death so that she can learn to live, love, and laugh again. 
Categories: Season 2, Post-Series, Alternate Reality, Time Travel, Claim
Characters: Buffy, Ensemble
Genres: Drama, Porn w/ Plot
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Blood Play, Character Death, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp)
Completed: Yes Chapters: 34 Table of Contents
Word count: 135,683 Hit Count: 148,457 ePub Downloads: 1,299
Published: January 23, 2016 Updated: May 19, 2016
onar commented on Chapter 17: Chapter 17: Good Intentions on March 15, 2016 Liked

So....this is my first ever review on EF. I just really wanted to tell you how much I love this story! I check everyday for an update. Hope it's soon! Oh and if I haven't said it already great story! 


Author's Response on March 15, 2016 03:02am

Yay! I'm so excited that I got you to post a review!! I'm all warm and fuzzy now- even more so because you're enjoying my little bit of craziness! I have once scene left to write for chapter 18 before I can post it- so hopefully soon!

onar commented on Chapter 18: Chapter 18: Wounds on March 19, 2016 Liked

Yay an update!! Angel totally would have gone for it if there hadn't been anyone else much for Buffy being his "forever" love...every moment with Buffy and Spike is so amazingly sweet and Willow's confusion was so much fun to read....great chapter! Hope Spike's soon applies to you too because I really need more of this story!!! Wonder if Spike is going to meet Joyce? 


Author's Response on March 19, 2016 01:46pm

Poor Willow- she was expecting Macbeth and got Buffy's bloody shoulder instead (out out, damn spot!). Oh dear- Spike and Joyce- Joyce hasn't really met Spike at all (except to hit him with an ax)- without the history between them she's a bit more of a mother bear protecting her underage daughter...

onar commented on Chapter 19: Chapter 19: Truth and Consequences on March 22, 2016 Liked

I can't believe Gilles was so dismissive of Buffy's feelings. Okay so I get that it's pretty early in their relationship, but still...

I want the Scoobies and Joyce to meet Spike...that'll be fun. Also more please and soon!! 


Author's Response on March 23, 2016 10:57am

Giles couldn't handle what Buffy was telling him- so he did what she accused him of- he ran away (only it was into his own head instead of off to England). Hopefully the fact that she almost died because of it will serve as a wake up call.  

onar commented on Chapter 21: Chapter 21: Jelly Donuts on March 26, 2016

Yay! I got my wish and Spike got to meet both Joyce and one of the Scoobies! And Buffy came clean to Xander and there's only Angel and her mom that don't know. I wonder what Giles would have to say on the whole soul theory and whether or not Buffy is going to realize at any point that since his sould followed her back from where she came from, it meant that he was alive back where she came's probably gonna happen when the thing on your warning box is going to happen, huh? Anyway, can't wait for more!! Please post more soon!! 

Author's Response on March 26, 2016 10:10am

It's so nice to be able to write fun, non-judgmental, Willow and Xander. Even Buffy was bracing for that conversation and was happy when it went well. Tackling her mom is going to be another problem and Giles is hopefully spending the night with a crowbar to get his head out his behind so he can support his Slayer :-) I'm glad you're enjoying it! More soon, I promise :-) 

onar commented on Chapter 22: Chapter 22: Home Again on March 28, 2016

I love how Joyce is freaking out, is so fun to read, though it's probably not fun for Buffy! Spike took the whole soul new really well, wonder if he's going to be freaking out about it later on...after all it wouldn't be Spike without a bit of over complaining. Oh, Angel's gonna be so angry when he learns that Spike probably has a soul and he's not the only one anymore!! Anyway, I'm kind of addicted to this story, so please post more soon!! 

Author's Response on March 28, 2016 11:04pm

It's fun to let Joyce be momma bear instead of just Spike's cheerleader. Spike may freak out a little more when he's by himself- but he's integrating parts of future!spike into himself so not all that much. 

More soon! 

onar commented on Chapter 23: Chapter 23: Dinner on April 02, 2016 Liked

Just a question: is this going to end soon? Because you said that's going to be around 100.000 words and you're already at 80.000 something, so that means five to six more chapters...and I kinda don't want this story to end...seriously, I think you should write through all seven years of Buffy, cause I just love your Spike and Buffy and all the depression and how everyone is so understanding and now Joyce gets to be more sympathetic and Spike gets his marshmallows....seriously, 1.000.000 words wouldn't be enough....

Ok, rant over. Please post more soon! It's a great story!  

Author's Response on April 02, 2016 10:11am

I have 10 chapters left- some of my rewrites got a little wordy- so I'll be a little over my mark by the end. I have in my head most of what happens to this universe's Spike and Buffy up until 2005 so maybe at some point I'll have to do some one-shots or a Christmas story or something. (or what happens in Paris...) 

Anyway, I'm glad you're enjoying the story and thank you for your very kind words :-)

onar commented on Chapter 24: Chapter 24: Patrol on April 03, 2016 Liked

I love Xander's observation that they act like they've known each other for years; it really shows how much Spike has intergrated with the spark. I also love Giles and how he's decided that there's no keeping Buffy from Spike. More please! 

Author's Response on April 02, 2016 10:56pm

Giles is trying- even if he's not thrilled :-) More soon!

Summary: Set after "Dead Things".
Dawn finds Spike right after Buffy beats him up in the alley. The younger Summers woman nurses him back to health but then tells Spike that needs more help than just getting his physical injuries healed, and so she forces him to see a demon psychiatrist for his problems.
Read and find out how Dr. Miranda Grey helps our favorite vampire deal with his countless issues, and how her help can also help Spike get through to the Love of His Unlife, and possibly get the girl. 
Series: Therapy Series
Categories: Season 6, Challenge Response
Characters: Buffy, Dawn, Ensemble, Original Characters, Spike
Genres: None
Warnings: Mental Health Issues, Rape (Implied), Suicidal Ideation
Challenges: Therapy with the Undead
Completed: No Chapters: 4 Table of Contents
Word count: 29,940 Hit Count: 3,584 ePub Downloads: 19
Published: March 11, 2016 Updated: June 10, 2016
onar commented on Chapter 3: 3rd Session on March 31, 2016

I so want Spike to end up falling in love with the Doctor...!! Oh wait this is a Spuffy story and I'm supposed to be a Spuffy fan...mmmm, now you have me all confused...I'll just settle with anything that makes Spike happy and maybe just maybe Buffy could get hers just a little bit? Cause I read the accompanied story and it just got me so mad at her! Anyway, please post more soon!! Great story so far! 


Author's Response on March 31, 2016 06:29am

Hehehe, Spike and his doctor? Sorry even, if his wasn't a Spuffy fic, I wouldn't pair them up. I'm a psych student and though I haven't gotten far in my Counselling course, I know that it is unethical to have romantic relationships with ones clients or patients. I am a firm believer of that and so hence I won't be writting such a thing that would happen. But I will write these tw as really close friends as the ending of thi fic comes.

Yes, Spike will be happy, or what would consitute as happy in the circumstance I am thinking. Buffy too, in the end of all of it, that is. But she still has a long way to go and many realizations to achieve before she can finalky be happy Buffy again.

Author's Response on March 31, 2016 06:31am

Anyway, thank you for the review and hope to see yoy again in the next chapters of this fic/series.