Summary: Buffy can’t live without Spike, but she can’t seem to die, either. She’s going back to her first death, and this time she’ll make sure it sticks. She just needs to get rid of her new sidekick. He’s kind of a dummy.
1. Out of Touch by Girlytek - Likes: 70 Comments: 44 Word Count: 1,906 Hit Count: 4,999 Published: June 26, 2021
Please take the warning tags seriously. This isn’t a happy Buffy.
2. Plainsong by Girlytek - Likes: 53 Comments: 25 Word Count: 2,086 Hit Count: 2,088 Published: July 28, 2021
3. Shame by Girlytek - Likes: 62 Comments: 27 Word Count: 2,106 Hit Count: 1,913 Published: August 11, 2021
4. Every Time You Go Away by Girlytek - Likes: 52 Comments: 18 Word Count: 1,899 Hit Count: 1,748 Published: August 29, 2021
I’m grateful, and honestly a little terrified, that this story has been featured. Thank you 
5. Anthrax by Girlytek - Likes: 60 Comments: 25 Word Count: 2,326 Hit Count: 1,714 Published: September 02, 2021
6. Boys of Summer by Girlytek - Likes: 52 Comments: 23 Word Count: 2,172 Hit Count: 1,759 Published: September 09, 2021
A huge thank you to Enbybitch for customizing this amazeballs banner for me. I freaking love it.
7. Dance Hall Days by Girlytek - Likes: 54 Comments: 26 Word Count: 2,401 Hit Count: 1,663 Published: September 24, 2021
8. Closer by Girlytek - Likes: 55 Comments: 21 Word Count: 3,482 Hit Count: 1,585 Published: October 09, 2021
9. School by Girlytek - Likes: 45 Comments: 18 Word Count: 3,307 Hit Count: 1,538 Published: October 28, 2021
10. So Lonely by Girlytek - Likes: 41 Comments: 17 Word Count: 2,526 Hit Count: 1,453 Published: November 13, 2021
11. Mad World by Girlytek - Likes: 34 Comments: 8 Word Count: 2,468 Hit Count: 1,339 Published: January 13, 2022
**This is the first of two updates. Read this chapter first**
I want to apologize for not responding to the comments from the previous chapter yet. They are much loved and appreciated and it’s only my own social awkwardness that’s gotten in the way—please know that I’m grateful. Everyone on EF is the best <3
12. The Killing Moon/Levitate Me by Girlytek - Likes: 52 Comments: 26 Word Count: 2,758 Hit Count: 1,559 Published: January 13, 2022
**This is the second of two updates. Read this second**
13. Mr. Blue by Girlytek - Likes: 42 Comments: 16 Word Count: 3,751 Hit Count: 1,479 Published: January 31, 2022
14. Cruel Summer by Girlytek - Likes: 41 Comments: 15 Word Count: 3,839 Hit Count: 1,410 Published: March 18, 2022
Once again, all apologies for not replying to the previous comments yet. I can't thank you enough for reading
15. Santa Monica by Girlytek - Likes: 39 Comments: 16 Word Count: 3,552 Hit Count: 1,150 Published: June 17, 2022
16. Drive by Girlytek - Likes: 41 Comments: 8 Word Count: 2,251 Hit Count: 989 Published: July 30, 2022
If you're still with me, well, here you go.
17. Time After Time by Girlytek - Likes: 45 Comments: 16 Word Count: 4,009 Hit Count: 934 Published: January 15, 2023
18. You Can't Always Get What You Want by Girlytek - Likes: 39 Comments: 14 Word Count: 3,435 Hit Count: 894 Published: February 03, 2023
19. Pretty in Pink by Girlytek - Likes: 39 Comments: 13 Word Count: 4,687 Hit Count: 807 Published: March 06, 2023
20. Creep by Girlytek - Likes: 27 Comments: 14 Word Count: 5,090 Hit Count: 567 Published: August 30, 2023
Sometimes it takes five months to write a chapter 
21. West End Girls by Girlytek - Likes: 31 Comments: 12 Word Count: 3,906 Hit Count: 447 Published: September 22, 2023
22. Bela Lugosi's Dead by Girlytek - Likes: 32 Comments: 13 Word Count: 3,291 Hit Count: 480 Published: October 27, 2023
I got waylaid on comment responses for the previous chapter, but I promise I haven't forgotten <3<3<3
23. Cannonball by Girlytek - Likes: 31 Comments: 15 Word Count: 3,784 Hit Count: 426 Published: January 22, 2024
In the almost 3 months its taken me to update this, I’ve had unwavering enthusiasm from Rea. She even wrote me this while she was prodding me along, her own version of what might happen in this chapter. There are a lot of ways to show love, but I’m predisposed to hold a gift of words the closest to my heart. I can’t thank you enough, and I hope this version both delights and surprises you.
Thanks also to bookishy for giving me some very good general writerly advice: all else being equal, do the thing that speaks to you the most.
And thank you to everyone who is still sticking with this story, patiently or not :)