Summary:  Nearly four years post ‘Chosen’. Buffy has escaped her pain by cutting herself off and travelling the world. Spike is moping about in LA fighting demons and has conveniently forgotten to tell her that he is, in fact, alive. She’s hurt, he’s an idiot. Forgiveness is hard. 
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Artists: None
Categories: Post-Series
Characters: Buffy, Dawn, Giles, Original Characters, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Spike/Other (Temp)
Completed: No Chapters: 29
Word count: 55,857 Hit Count: 22,240 ePub Downloads: 158
Published: May 08, 2018 Updated: July 04, 2018


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Story Notes: My take on what the fallout might have been post ‘Chosen’. The Buffy characters are a few years older, a bit battered and bruised around the edges, but hopefully still recognisable as the characters we know and love. It will become Spuffy (of course!) but both characters will also have had relationships with other people in the interim. It has, after all, been four years.  At the start of the story Spike has a partner who is not Buffy. As per posting guidelines - you have been warned!
 
No Beta so apologies for typos / Britishisms. I’ve tried to keep these to a minimum.
 
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.
 

1. Chapter 1 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 11 Comments: 9 Word Count: 1,092 Hit Count: 2,389 Published: May 08, 2018

2. Chapter 2 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 10 Comments: 4 Word Count: 990 Hit Count: 758 Published: May 08, 2018

3. Chapter 3 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 8 Comments: 4 Word Count: 842 Hit Count: 742 Published: May 08, 2018

4. Chapter 4 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 7 Comments: 5 Word Count: 1,216 Hit Count: 730 Published: May 08, 2018

5. Chapter 5 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 7 Comments: 3 Word Count: 1,141 Hit Count: 731 Published: May 08, 2018

6. Chapter 6 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 7 Comments: 3 Word Count: 1,399 Hit Count: 733 Published: May 08, 2018

7. Chapter 7 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 8 Comments: 4 Word Count: 1,091 Hit Count: 729 Published: May 08, 2018

8. Chapter 8 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 8 Comments: 4 Word Count: 1,013 Hit Count: 692 Published: May 08, 2018

9. Chapter 9 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 8 Comments: 3 Word Count: 2,289 Hit Count: 705 Published: May 08, 2018

10. Chapter 10 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 19 Comments: 12 Word Count: 1,614 Hit Count: 791 Published: May 08, 2018

11. Chapter 11 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 13 Comments: 7 Word Count: 2,072 Hit Count: 825 Published: May 11, 2018

Thank you so much for the reviews! I hope you enjoy this one :) 

12. Chapter 12 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 9 Comments: 5 Word Count: 1,696 Hit Count: 701 Published: May 14, 2018

I'm adding a couple of chapters this time because they are both pretty short. I know the trend here is for fewer really long chapters but with the constant scene switching it doesn't work as well for me with this fic. Enjoy!

13. Chapter 13 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 16 Comments: 9 Word Count: 1,546 Hit Count: 792 Published: May 14, 2018

This has been added the same time as chpt. 12, so make sure to read that one before this!

 

14. Chapter 14 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 11 Comments: 5 Word Count: 1,197 Hit Count: 656 Published: May 18, 2018

Thank you so much for all the review love!! I'm glad so many of you are enjoying my take on this twisty relationship. Two chapters again this time around - I'm spoiling you! 

15. Chapter 15 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 16 Comments: 9 Word Count: 3,583 Hit Count: 758 Published: May 18, 2018

Added at the same time as 14, check that one out first! 

16. Chapter 16 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 16 Comments: 9 Word Count: 2,199 Hit Count: 751 Published: May 26, 2018

Thank you all for the reviews! This is a shorter one, but another chapter will becoming in the next day or two. 

17. Chapter 17 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 19 Comments: 11 Word Count: 2,512 Hit Count: 761 Published: May 28, 2018

So many reviews! Thank you so much to all of you. It is incredibly flattering to know people are reading.

 

As promised another chapter. I know this is angsty and dialogue heavy, but we are at something of a turning point, please bear with me!

 

As always sorry about any typos I've missed. I'm cracking through this fic while inspiration strikes and don't have a beta. 

18. Chapter 18 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 17 Comments: 7 Word Count: 2,626 Hit Count: 672 Published: May 30, 2018

Thank you all for the reviews, they make me giddy with happiness. I promise to go through a reply to everyone soon - I'm currently spending all my spare time frantically writing!

I'm really enjoying writing for you all. This fic was a kind of personal challenge to myself - when i write original fiction I am s-l-o-w and revise everything a million times, and also avoid relationship driven plots and dialogue 'cos they're my weak parts. So I wanted to write something super quickly that was focused on all the things I try to avoid... and this is the result. 

In this chapter Spike and Buffy just happen to talk about some of my favorite places ;). I hope you enjoy.

19. Chapter 19 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 21 Comments: 11 Word Count: 2,136 Hit Count: 668 Published: June 04, 2018

Another one!

20. Chapter 20 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 24 Comments: 9 Word Count: 2,195 Hit Count: 664 Published: June 05, 2018

Thank you for all the review love! it really does make me write faster.

 

And thank you for sticking with me through all the angsty stuff. This chapter is a bit more positive, I hope you enjoy. 

21. Chapter 21 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 26 Comments: 9 Word Count: 2,761 Hit Count: 750 Published: June 07, 2018

I'm on a roll at the moment! You have all been so patient with my angsty stuff that i wanted to post something a bit more, well, spuffy :) I hope you enjoy it. 

Chapter 19 and 20 were added within the last week so if you haven't read those check them out first.

22. Chapter 22 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 21 Comments: 10 Word Count: 2,406 Hit Count: 659 Published: June 08, 2018

Enjoy! 

23. Chapter 23 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 22 Comments: 6 Word Count: 2,367 Hit Count: 724 Published: June 10, 2018

For everyone reading, liking, reviewing and just sticking with me. Thank you!

24. Chapter 24 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 17 Comments: 6 Word Count: 2,673 Hit Count: 786 Published: June 11, 2018

25. Chapter 25 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 24 Comments: 5 Word Count: 2,563 Hit Count: 581 Published: June 13, 2018

And on to Xander's place!

26. Chapter 26 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 23 Comments: 8 Word Count: 2,339 Hit Count: 624 Published: June 18, 2018

Not too many chapters left to go (I think!), thanks for sticking with me :)

27. Chapter 27 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 20 Comments: 6 Word Count: 1,732 Hit Count: 512 Published: June 21, 2018

This one is short and sweet, but important I think. A little bit of romance for you all :)

28. Chapter 28 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 18 Comments: 5 Word Count: 1,708 Hit Count: 634 Published: June 24, 2018

Two more chapters to go after this one!It's a littley but hopefully a goody. 

29. Chapter 29 by Cockney Cecilia - Likes: 22 Comments: 9 Word Count: 2,859 Hit Count: 711 Published: July 04, 2018

Sorry for the delay on this one - I got a bit caught up in my new fic ‘She vows to endure’ and wrote 20,000 words of that before I could drag myself back to finish this one. There is only one more chapter to go after this one, and I aim to get it up next week.

 

Thank you so much to everyone reading, liking and reviewing this, my first fanfic. Your support has been wonderful.