Summary: When Harmony ends up pissing off the wrong pair of witches, she goes to Spike for help. This leads to the both of them suffering the same fate of revenge. Nothing is ever same for them again and when Buffy becomes involved, she finds out that things aren't always black and white. And that maybe, just maybe, Spike wasnt always "bad."
Beta and Sensitivity Readers: None
Artists: None
Categories: Season 5
Characters: Anya, Buffy, Clem, Dawn, Drusilla, Ensemble, Giles, Glory, Harmony, Jonathan Levinson, Joyce, Kennedy, Original Characters, Quentin Travers, Riley Finn, Spike, Tara, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Drama, Dramedy, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Buffy/Other (Temp), Character Death, Spike/Other (Temp), Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 15
Word count: 21,587 Hit Count: 9,041 ePub Downloads: 53
Published: September 02, 2017 Updated: June 16, 2019


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Story Notes: I do not own any of the Buffy and Angel characters. They're all owned by Joss and Mutant Enemy. 
 

1. Chapter 1: Don't Call Me "Blondie Bear". by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 15 Comments: 6 Word Count: 1,464 Hit Count: 1,497 Published: September 02, 2017

Here's my first fic posted to the site. This is dedicated to my late father, who always supported me in my story and fan-fiction endeavors. 

2. Chapter 2 by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 14 Comments: 5 Word Count: 1,106 Hit Count: 680 Published: September 03, 2017

Wow, already got my second chapter in? I'm feeling a lot less lazy today. 

3. Chapter 3: The Scoobies are Souled on the idea by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 11 Comments: 3 Word Count: 1,755 Hit Count: 664 Published: September 04, 2017

I know I said last time that Buffy, Riley and Dawn would appear, but it would've made the chapter run on to long for my taste. Sorry. weep

4. Chapter 4 by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 13 Comments: 7 Word Count: 1,194 Hit Count: 647 Published: September 05, 2017

Was almost worried I wouldn't get this out. But I got there. Also, we FINALLY get Buffy. 

Oh, and to avoid some confusion, since Spike was never caught sniffing Buffy clothes by Riley and thus never told Riley about Joyce, that means we also FINALLY get a bit of canon divergence. Which is good for me because I do NOT want to do a full rehash. 

5. Chapter 5: You hate Bunnies? by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 14 Comments: 6 Word Count: 988 Hit Count: 614 Published: September 06, 2017

Wow, I did not mean to post this at 11:30. That's messed up. 

6. Chapter 6 by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 16 Comments: 8 Word Count: 1,224 Hit Count: 612 Published: September 07, 2017

Finally, a new chapter. Also, unamed witch couple are given names.

7. Chapter 7 by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 11 Comments: 5 Word Count: 975 Hit Count: 564 Published: December 08, 2017

So, I'd like to start off by thanking everyone on this site for the massive amount of support you've given me. I never really became an "official member" of this site in my eyes until the last couple of months. The only reason I even posted this story in the first place was just as a way to stop thinking about my father's death. Literally, the first chapter was posted the day he died and it hurt. I felt that this didn't make the story "real" because I was only using it to get away from my reality, which is why I stopped posting after the 6th of September.

But the love this story has gotten and the fact that everyone here has touched me with all of their kindness has made me want to keep continuing this story. Granted, I still technically would have to continued it, but not in a clean and consistent manner. So here we go, new chapter, plus a new banner ala the awesome Myrabeth.

For the record, this will still be a short chapter because I'm going through writer's block and will still likely need a couple of more weeks to get a handle on posting new chapters for this story. With all of that out of the way, here is the long awaited chapter seven.

And yes you guys, I will get myself a beta soon. biggrin

8. Chapter 8 - Know Your Place by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 7 Comments: 6 Word Count: 1,380 Hit Count: 563 Published: March 02, 2019

Whelp. I'm baaaack. biggrin

9. Chapter 9 - You've got a Friend in me. by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 6 Comments: 2 Word Count: 1,600 Hit Count: 532 Published: March 03, 2019

Get ready for them feels, y'all.weep

10. Chapter 10 by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 7 Comments: 4 Word Count: 731 Hit Count: 377 Published: March 03, 2019

In this chapter, I bring in two characters I get you didn't think would be important to the story.

11. Chapter 11 Or How I Learned to Ride a Giant Snake by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 9 Comments: 6 Word Count: 2,029 Hit Count: 482 Published: March 05, 2019

Whelp, almost done with Shadows. Just more chapter after this to wrap that episode up and then I can finally get to "Listening to Fear."

Also, another new player is added to the game this chapter.

12. Chapter 12 by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 10 Comments: 6 Word Count: 2,031 Hit Count: 490 Published: March 06, 2019

Well, I said this would be the last "Shadow" chapter, but I had to cut it short, so next chapter is when it finally be wrapped up. Just enjoy what you got now, though, cause I think you'll like it! :) 

(UPDATE: I just added the stuff I didn't add last night to this chapter, so Shadow does finally end here. Thank god.)

13. Chapter 13 - Reunions by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 9 Comments: 4 Word Count: 1,014 Hit Count: 430 Published: March 10, 2019

Well, I went and rewrote this chapter from scratch because it was much shorter than I wanted it to be. But, I hope you all like it.

Also, we get some more major characters introduced (This fic is racking them up like pokemon, I better be careful, I don't want this story to get crowed.)

Anyway, I think once I'm done with next chapter is when I'll get to move one to Listening to Fear. 

14. Chapter 14 - Mallory's Dilemma by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 7 Comments: 3 Word Count: 1,559 Hit Count: 393 Published: June 15, 2019

Yet even more characters are introduced. What a shocker.facepalm

On the bright side, someone gets a job!applause

15. Chapter 15 - Numb by ChexRancher3 - Likes: 7 Comments: 3 Word Count: 2,537 Hit Count: 496 Published: June 16, 2019

Okay, so if we're being pedantic, this isn't technically part of "Listening to Fear" but a lot of original content to help set up what I have planned for my version of that episode along with element that happen even after that. But, anyway, here's what we got.

Also, someone grab a box of tissues. You might need them. It gets sad and dark in this one. Like, really sad and dark. weep