Past Featured StorySummary: Someone dies and has a regret. The regret requires fixing. That fixing involves Spike and Buffy. Of course, it all goes haywire. Or does it? Set in the future and in season 4 of BtVS.
Rating: R (for language and sexual situations)
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Joss owns all.
Dedication: This story is dedicated to all my Spuffy friends from long ago who read all the old fanfic just like me. And a very special thank you to eyesthatslay who is reading all the chapters as I write them and has been encouraging me to keep on going with the tale. *big squishy hugs* The banner you made for the story is absolutely gorgeous!! heart
Categories: Season 4, Post-Series, Alternate Reality, Time Travel
Characters: Angel, Anya, Buffy, Cordelia, D'Hoffryn, Giles, Harmony, Joyce, Lorne, Maggie Walsh, Original Characters, Riley Finn, Spike, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Drama, Fighting, Humor, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Sexual Situations, Torture (Physical), Violence
Challenges: Anything you want!
Completed: Yes Chapters: 41
Word count: 107,695 Hit Count: 55,059 ePub Downloads: 554
Published: May 29, 2017 Updated: September 19, 2017


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1. Prologue, A Death and A Regret by sandy_s - Likes: 25 Comments: 15 Word Count: 1,633 Hit Count: 7,890 Published: May 29, 2017

Author’s Note: This fic was inspired by several of the challenges in the challenge section of Elysian Fields, but it fits none of them perfectly. It actually fits DeamonQueen's; I had bookmarked a few different Angel fixes things challenges, and when I went back to look, I realized it fit this one! (Started this back in March 2017, but it’s been on the back burner to Seasonal Spuffy and Finding the Way Home.) As I tried to think of a title for this fic, all I could think about was taking chances and so I did a Google search and this song sung by Celine Dion popped up. I was unable to find a beta, so this fic is unbetaed. Sorry in advance for any mistakes.

2. Chapter One, An Unusual Wedding Day by sandy_s - Likes: 29 Comments: 17 Word Count: 2,934 Hit Count: 2,451 Published: May 30, 2017

3. Chapter Two, The Morning After by sandy_s - Likes: 27 Comments: 13 Word Count: 3,749 Hit Count: 2,104 Published: June 02, 2017

4. Chapter Three, New Dimensions by sandy_s - Likes: 19 Comments: 12 Word Count: 3,523 Hit Count: 1,862 Published: June 05, 2017

Okay, this plot fast forwards a lot of stuff in the BtVS series as you shall see...little bits here and there. I'm posting chapters as I write new ones, and I'm up through chapter nine with a few interludes, so new chapter here!

5. Interlude, An Unforeseen Consequence and An Admission by sandy_s - Likes: 22 Comments: 12 Word Count: 788 Hit Count: 1,482 Published: June 06, 2017

There will occasionally be a mini-interlude. biggrin I haven't written Angel and Cordy much, but I'm actually enjoying them. Cordelia is so freeing! 

6. Chapter Four, A Momentary Climb in the Right Direction by sandy_s - Likes: 20 Comments: 10 Word Count: 3,039 Hit Count: 1,569 Published: June 07, 2017

7. Chapter Five, An Unexpected Turn of Events by sandy_s - Likes: 23 Comments: 11 Word Count: 3,456 Hit Count: 1,454 Published: June 09, 2017

This is an important chapter... and so much fun to write. Hope you enjoy.

And y'all! Look at the beautiful banner that eyesthatslay made for this story. (You can see the big version in the first chapter...) 

8. Interlude, All Is Not Finished by sandy_s - Likes: 21 Comments: 11 Word Count: 734 Hit Count: 1,315 Published: June 09, 2017

9. Chapter Six, A Bit of Pillow Boat Talk by sandy_s - Likes: 23 Comments: 12 Word Count: 2,855 Hit Count: 1,357 Published: June 11, 2017

10. Chapter Seven, The Tangled Forest by sandy_s - Likes: 24 Comments: 11 Word Count: 2,987 Hit Count: 1,307 Published: June 14, 2017

11. Chapter Eight, An Escape and A Light in the Darkness by sandy_s - Likes: 21 Comments: 11 Word Count: 2,814 Hit Count: 1,539 Published: June 16, 2017

12. Interlude, In Which Confusion Reigns by sandy_s - Likes: 20 Comments: 9 Word Count: 1,124 Hit Count: 1,165 Published: June 17, 2017

13. Chapter Nine, The Discovery of an Unforeseen Similarity by sandy_s - Likes: 22 Comments: 10 Word Count: 2,455 Hit Count: 1,165 Published: June 19, 2017

14. Chapter Ten, The Reality of Going Home by sandy_s - Likes: 23 Comments: 11 Word Count: 3,647 Hit Count: 1,219 Published: June 21, 2017

15. Interlude, A What-the-Hell Moment by sandy_s - Likes: 21 Comments: 9 Word Count: 446 Hit Count: 1,091 Published: June 24, 2017

16. Chapter Eleven, A Taste of the Future by sandy_s - Likes: 24 Comments: 9 Word Count: 3,157 Hit Count: 1,085 Published: June 25, 2017

Thank you for the lovely reviews for the last Interlude...I'll reply soon, but I wanted to post because husband and baby and I are about to go run errands. 

17. Chapter Twelve, Role Reversal by sandy_s - Likes: 22 Comments: 9 Word Count: 3,495 Hit Count: 1,103 Published: June 27, 2017

There's the tiniest little homage to Gort and Sunalso's "Where Have All the Wings Gone?" in this chapter with permission from Sunalso. And it's fitting that it's in this chapter. biggrin

18. Chapter Thirteen, Shifting Dynamics by sandy_s - Likes: 22 Comments: 12 Word Count: 3,721 Hit Count: 1,142 Published: July 04, 2017

Huge thank you to Ceruleansoul who will now be beta-reading this fic! She is so sweet to take it on, and I really appreciate the help! heart She's already caught typos and had me enhance a couple of things. 

19. Interlude, Time to Refocus by sandy_s - Likes: 18 Comments: 10 Word Count: 517 Hit Count: 1,064 Published: July 05, 2017

20. Chapter Fourteen, Demon Therapy by sandy_s - Likes: 17 Comments: 10 Word Count: 2,929 Hit Count: 1,146 Published: July 06, 2017

Just as a preface, I very, very rarely dislike a client. In general, I consider human beings as people who have good intentions and I can usually find a redeeming quality in anyone I work with. This does not mean, that on occasion, I don't have a strong aversion to wanting to do therapy with someone. So, for this chapter, I channeled my annoyance...and hahah...a lot of Spike's reactions are my own (in Spike speak, of course). Buffy is easier to make therapist-like, and Anya is an easier client. (Sorry for the long intro note...but I couldn't resist.)

21. Chapter Fifteen, An Essential Conversation and An Arrival by sandy_s - Likes: 20 Comments: 13 Word Count: 3,308 Hit Count: 1,118 Published: July 12, 2017

Thank you so much to Ceruleansoul for the lovely beta job and constructive criticism. hug

22. Interlude, The Thing About First Loves by sandy_s - Likes: 18 Comments: 12 Word Count: 1,173 Hit Count: 1,046 Published: July 17, 2017

23. Chapter Sixteen, Those Damn Army Guys by sandy_s - Likes: 16 Comments: 11 Word Count: 3,651 Hit Count: 1,061 Published: July 19, 2017

Thank you so much for the beta help, Ceruleansoul! *hugs* :D Apologies in advance for the wrench in the peace...

24. Chapter Seventeen, The Red Inside by sandy_s - Likes: 18 Comments: 14 Word Count: 3,483 Hit Count: 1,021 Published: July 26, 2017

Lots of thanks to Ceruleansoul for the beta help! hughearts

25. Interlude, Trusting the Process by sandy_s - Likes: 11 Comments: 9 Word Count: 727 Hit Count: 822 Published: July 29, 2017

An interlude and chapter today...

26. Chapter Eighteen, An Unexpected Turn of Events, Part Two by sandy_s - Likes: 21 Comments: 15 Word Count: 4,180 Hit Count: 1,001 Published: July 29, 2017

An interlude and chapter today...

AUTHOR'S WARNING: Torture implied in this chapter. I originally tried to write Maggie Walsh and Spike's scene and got about one page in and couldn't stomach it, so only implication, no showing. 

HUGE THANK YOU to Ceruleansoul for her beta help and discussion of the events coming...I was so nervous about this section of the fic. 

27. Interlude, Holy Toledo, Batman by sandy_s - Likes: 21 Comments: 11 Word Count: 865 Hit Count: 1,007 Published: July 31, 2017

28. Chapter Nineteen, Wish Granted by sandy_s - Likes: 20 Comments: 11 Word Count: 3,696 Hit Count: 1,004 Published: August 02, 2017

Thank you to Ceruleansoul for the beta help and for tweaking that one paragraph in particular and making it so much better! hug

29. Chapter Twenty, The Walls Come Tumbling Down by sandy_s - Likes: 15 Comments: 6 Word Count: 4,032 Hit Count: 989 Published: August 08, 2017

This is a long chapter... Thanks to Ceruleansoul for the beta and for making me think about the way I word things! hug

30. Interlude, How Does This Vengeance Thing Work? by sandy_s - Likes: 22 Comments: 9 Word Count: 816 Hit Count: 885 Published: August 09, 2017

Just an interlude to go with yesterday's chapter... hearts

31. Chapter Twenty-One, New Employee Evaluation by sandy_s - Likes: 14 Comments: 8 Word Count: 3,315 Hit Count: 992 Published: August 13, 2017

New chapter and short short interlude today! Thank you, Ceruleansoul for your help! flowers

32. Interlude, Told You So by sandy_s - Likes: 21 Comments: 10 Word Count: 181 Hit Count: 996 Published: August 13, 2017

Thank you so much to Ceruleansoul for the lovely beta on the chapter and interlude I posted today (8/13)! hugSuper huge thank you to Synefred for this wonderful song suggestion! (I totally downloaded it and have been dancing around to it any chance I get!)

33. Chapter Twenty-Two, Home Sweet Home by sandy_s - Likes: 24 Comments: 12 Word Count: 3,084 Hit Count: 1,080 Published: August 17, 2017

Lots of thanks to Ceruleansoul for the beta help! hughearts You are amazing!

And Sunalso, please let me know if I need to tweak something from a nursing perspective...it's just a little part. *hopes it's not too mucked up* flowers

34. Chapter Twenty-Three, Confessions by sandy_s - Likes: 26 Comments: 14 Word Count: 4,292 Hit Count: 1,057 Published: August 23, 2017

Special thank you to Ceruleansoul for betaing! heartshug

Nervous about this chapter...

35. Interlude, What Next? by sandy_s - Likes: 19 Comments: 9 Word Count: 811 Hit Count: 870 Published: August 28, 2017

Thanks to Ceruleansoul for the beta help!

And I owe replies to your generous reviews for the last chapter, but my focus has been all over the place with the storm. I promise I'll get to them soon... hughearts

36. Chapter Twenty-Four, Times, They Are A Changin’ in a Good Way by sandy_s - Likes: 22 Comments: 12 Word Count: 4,286 Hit Count: 924 Published: September 04, 2017

Unbetaed so sorry for any mistakes... heart Again, sorry for the delay...this has been written for a while, but my brain has been distracted with the weather and I haven't read over it until today. Two more chapters and a couple of more parts after this and it's done. It's already written. It'll just be a matter of getting it looked over!

And again in this chapter, a little homage to Sunalso and Gort's chicken wing fic. :D 

37. Interlude, Hell Yeah by sandy_s - Likes: 14 Comments: 11 Word Count: 585 Hit Count: 820 Published: September 10, 2017

Unbetaed...errors may abound... I'll try to polish up the last few chapters soon! 

38. Chapter Twenty-Five, Mayhem Managed by sandy_s - Likes: 21 Comments: 11 Word Count: 4,050 Hit Count: 847 Published: September 11, 2017

Unbetaed again... but I did set it aside for a while and then read over it. Sorry for any typos. heart

39. Chapter Twenty-Six, A Sign of Things to Come by sandy_s - Likes: 20 Comments: 14 Word Count: 4,809 Hit Count: 990 Published: September 15, 2017

Last chapter before epilogue-y stuff... Unbetaed so errors are all me. Thanks for all the reviews from last chapter! I will reply soon... chasing baby today because I took a sick day but it will be soon. Promise! hughearts

40. Epilogue, A Very Merry Christmas by sandy_s - Likes: 25 Comments: 13 Word Count: 3,542 Hit Count: 950 Published: September 18, 2017

Unbetaed so errors are all me... Hope you enjoy this epilogue! hug I'm sorta feeling sad that this is the end, but there is one more interlude following this chapter... Thank you so much for all the kind words and for reading my little tale that I thought would be four or five chapters and ended up being the longest fic I've ever written. 

41. Postlude, A Death and a Thank You by sandy_s - Likes: 43 Comments: 28 Word Count: 2,806 Hit Count: 1,069 Published: September 19, 2017

This is it...the last chapter. I'm so sad! But I'm also happy...I love this little fic.

And thank you so much to all of you who read it and liked chapters and/or left reviews. I truly appreciate all the love you gave the story! It was fun to write...and a challenge. 

(And I never ever thought I'd write a re-write of the season four Initiative arc...always thought it would be too hard. Ah well, that went out the window...) biggrin

Thanks to Ceruleansoul for betaing a good chunk of the middle of this fic! And a huge thanks to eyesthatslay for encouraging me to keep writing it in the first place (and for the beautiful banner)!

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