Summary:

five things Buffy Summers pretends not to think about, 
and one thing she doesn't even try to hide anymore

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Followed by Insubstantial and Perception

Series: all the reasons why
Categories: Season 5, Season 6, Season 7, Post-Series, Missing Scene
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Character Death
Completed: Yes Chapters: 6
Word count: 5,328 Hit Count: 10,810 ePub Downloads: 87
Published: August 16, 2016 Updated: September 08, 2016


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Story Notes: ObDisc: Sadly, any characters or plots you recognise do not belong to me. I will, however, look after the characters, and make sure I put them back (almost) as good as new when I'm done ;)
 
Gratitude to DeepBlueJoy for beta-ing the whole thing early on and to medievalchic for invaluable input on the last few chapters. You are both wonderful 
 
The Spuffy relationship in all its messy glory, end of S5 thru post-Chosen. Canon compliant. Six chapters total.

1. emotions by flootzavut - Likes: 18 Comments: 12 Word Count: 1,100 Hit Count: 2,696 Published: August 16, 2016

2. comfort by flootzavut - Likes: 11 Comments: 8 Word Count: 720 Hit Count: 1,793 Published: August 20, 2016

3. friendship by flootzavut - Likes: 12 Comments: 9 Word Count: 717 Hit Count: 1,550 Published: August 23, 2016

4. tenderness by flootzavut - Likes: 11 Comments: 9 Word Count: 637 Hit Count: 1,546 Published: August 31, 2016

5. forgiveness by flootzavut - Likes: 10 Comments: 8 Word Count: 1,979 Hit Count: 1,623 Published: September 04, 2016

This was, by some considerable margin, the hardest chapter of this story to write, and I'm still not sure I hit every note I wanted to. Trying to get into the Spuffy relationship of late season seven and do it justice, and to also take into account all the other things happening that season, and do all this from inside Buffy's head, was hard. But I did my best, and I hope you'll enjoy the end result and forgive me for the remaining imperfections. Particular thank you to DeepBlueJoy for giving me feedback on an early version, and to medievalchic for beta-ing a version much closer to the one you're reading here 

CW for a reference to the assault in Seeing Red.

6. regret by flootzavut - Likes: 35 Comments: 20 Word Count: 175 Hit Count: 1,602 Published: September 08, 2016