Summary: “What is this to you?” Spike asked, long ago. “This thing we have?” Buffy didn’t have a real answer. “We have
this,” she said. “That’s all.” Through everything, they’d always had
this, whatever
this was. Now that Spike has returned from the dead, wasn’t
this resurrected with him? Or was
this left behind in Sunnydale?
Starts after the final episode of Angel, assuming no comic continuation. Contains many missing scenes from season 7. Complete at twelve chapters; 29,000 words.
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Artists: myrabeth
Series: "New Depths"
Categories: Season 7,
Post-Series,
Crossover (AtS)
Characters: Buffy,
Spike,
Giles,
Angel,
Illyria
Genres: Action/Adventure,
Angst,
Drama,
Fighting,
RomanceWarnings: Attempted Rape,
Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes
Chapters: 12
Word count: 29,009
Hit Count: 40,791
ePub Downloads: 428
Published: May 31, 2015
Updated: June 11, 2015
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Story Notes:
This novella came about because a bunch of my one offs had pretty much the same theme, and didn’t quite tell the whole story. On top of that, Spike’s behavior when shifted to the series Angel didn’t quite match his behavior in the Buffy series – becoming more comical, less intense, and losing a lot of the air of wisdom and insight he’d had. I could forgive some of it with the idea that Angel brought out the worst in him, but a lot of it just had me banging my head against the wall, and wishing they’d just let the poor character die nobly as he’d originally been written to. But I too am a hopeless romantic, and since it’s technically canon to think he did come back, I had to try and figure out what the hell was going on there, when the comic books, as far as I could follow, just went bat-mad and wandered everywhere, character consistency be damned. This novella is my attempt at making sense of it all.
Pretty Pretty Banner by myrabeth! Thankyouthankyouthankyou!
*new notation as of 2016: While I try to mostly keep my stories (save for a few exceptions) within my own version of what I view as canon, this story is a slight divergence. I wrote it expecting it to be my last story, and I have since come up with much better post Not-Fade-Away concepts (specifically Immortal). However, that doesn't diminish from what this story was when I wrote it, so I'm keeping it as it is, since my head-canon matters not a whit to anyone else. However, if you're trying to make a cohesive single-story out of my Spuffy writings, this story is an outlier, and I no longer include it personally.
1. This Is It by Sigyn - Likes: 36 Comments: 32 Word Count: 884 Hit Count: 6,960 Published: May 31, 2015
Story starts at the end of Not Fade Away, Angel, series 5.
2. This Is Terrible by Sigyn - Likes: 28 Comments: 14 Word Count: 1,517 Hit Count: 3,355 Published: June 02, 2015
3. I Can't Believe This by Sigyn - Likes: 31 Comments: 15 Word Count: 1,524 Hit Count: 3,078 Published: June 03, 2015
4. This Is Forever by Sigyn - Likes: 37 Comments: 27 Word Count: 2,668 Hit Count: 3,122 Published: June 03, 2015
This chapter was originally a one off, taking place on the plane home in The Girl in Question
5. This Could Be a Problem by Sigyn - Likes: 29 Comments: 15 Word Count: 1,658 Hit Count: 2,896 Published: June 04, 2015
Half of this chapter is a scene set at the end of Showtime.
6. This Is Madness by Sigyn - Likes: 33 Comments: 17 Word Count: 1,472 Hit Count: 2,895 Published: June 05, 2015
7. It Was Always This by Sigyn - Likes: 33 Comments: 19 Word Count: 2,282 Hit Count: 2,995 Published: June 05, 2015
This chapter was originally part of a one off, taking place the night Buffy killed the preacher in Chosen. If anyone has read my one-off, “Torn” it is referenced here (though, you don’t need to have read it.)
8. This Is Getting Out Of Hand by Sigyn - Likes: 32 Comments: 19 Word Count: 3,564 Hit Count: 2,980 Published: June 06, 2015
9. So This Is Over by Sigyn - Likes: 30 Comments: 23 Word Count: 2,491 Hit Count: 2,956 Published: June 07, 2015
10. Scary, This Is by Sigyn - Likes: 33 Comments: 18 Word Count: 3,022 Hit Count: 2,898 Published: June 08, 2015
This second half of chapter is the second part of the one-off set the night Buffy killed the preacher in Chosen.
11. All Of This by Sigyn - Likes: 44 Comments: 27 Word Count: 4,145 Hit Count: 3,092 Published: June 09, 2015
This chapter holds the third part of the one-off set the night Buffy killed the preacher, in Chosen. It always bothered me that we never knew what the First’s plan for Spike ultimately was meant to be.
Warning: the rape attempt from Seeing Red is vividly replayed.
12. Just This by Sigyn - Likes: 92 Comments: 54 Word Count: 3,782 Hit Count: 3,564 Published: June 11, 2015
