Wow. Really wow. I should have left comments as I wwent along, but I was too busy inhaling the story.
I love the way you show so many different perspectives on the same story, giving us the voices of the characters as they interpret and misinterpret what is happening. And the way each of them has to confront their own mistakes and responsibility, both for what they did and did not do. The ending really feels earned.
Beautiful writing, too. This is the sort of sadness that can be consoling; there actually is a way out.
Can't imagine what willow is up to now... But I don't think Dawn's artifacts are the ones hurting Spike. Is he becoming human?? 🤔 So many questions...
I like the idea of giles and anya together, I never understood why xander was with her when he hated demons so much and didn't respect her in any aspect. Giles would be a much better match for her.[Report This]
But after she came back they had made love to each other all over town, sweet and soft, hard and violent and making each other hurt and bleed, and she hadn't even noticed that he wasn't wearing the polish. Hadn't looked at him long enough to see the hands that were touching her, even as she cried out from the pleasure they gave her.
OMG, this is one of the saddest things I've ever read, and I've read quite a few sad stories! But I don't know why, this little detail just broke my heart and make me feel for Spike 😭[Report This]
Damn. There’s a whole lot of fucked up going on here. How did nobody catch that NOT PAYING RENT and leaving all the damned bills to Buffy wasn’t ok at all? How was Buffy supposed to be chirpy, Xander? Sheesh. And Willow and her scheming, so not good. Eep[Report This]
This story is on my very select "best of" Spuffy list and I come back and read it repeatedly. One of the best "Spike returns with soul" stories, with beautiful characterisation of all the cast, giving them all their due and actually dealing with all their shit from the previous season. It's a struggle to pick one character you do best because they are all great. No, maybe I'll choose Spike and Xander as the ones that moved me most. Poor Xander... you rightly dig into all his pain to make it clear why he's been such an ass. Thanks so much for this. Stories such as this last and last.
I’m wondering what Anya’s five step plan consisted of?
“Billious yellow” is an excellent description of Cliff’s Notes.
Some 21 year old men make good marriages. My husband was 21.
So I gather that Giles got the flowers to calm the demon waters so to speak and she missed everything that he said.
Buffy certainly has foot in mouth disease…. So stubborn.
So Anya has the Magic Shop and Giles has a book store? Makes perfect sense.
I Giles had stayed previusly, that probably would have been another can of worms. His reasons are very valid even if Buffy cannot see them.
I absolutely love Anya’s logic here!! Xander is like a very stubborn overgrown child.
Now I want to know what Spike has figured out.[Report This]
Why would Spike think of Dawn as his and Buffy's child? Sounds like a plot from another fanfic.
Excellent delineation between "passion and fire" versus "dreams and silences"! That is such an accurate description of Bangel.
Oh no! Is Spike going to starve? That is a really dark spell there.[Report This]