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Stef commented on The World Continues on May 08, 2022 06:50pm

Oh yeah, I'm Sorry!

I was Just thinking that each time I thought there could be nothing different about spuffy, I read some your new (for me) story :)

Tank you so much, ILove your  stories <3

Author's Response on May 25, 2022 03:21am

Oh, you're fantastic! I'm very, very glad you enjoyed! I always hope to please, and try to be original while maintaining true to character, etc. Thank you so much! 

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Stef commented on Aftereffects on May 08, 2022 06:29pm Liked



Author's Response on May 08, 2022 06:31pm

Looks like something sort of ate your comment, but thank you so much for reading! 

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Laila Sunder commented on Epilogue on May 02, 2022 06:27pm

This is my new favorite fanfic of all time — bravo! Everything about it was fabulous — the character’s voices rang true to themselves and their altered circumstances, the plot was novel and interesting and the pacing was excellent, the action (and sex) scenes were epic, and the wholesome messaging made me feel like it could have been part of the actual show. It also touched on organizational evil in a satisfying way, and I feel like I understand BDSM a little better now. Thank you so much for writing this and sharing it with the community!

Author's Response on May 25, 2022 03:19am

Really? Oh, wow, that is just... so flattering! I dove whole-heartedly into this particular story, and I'm glad all of it came together into something so pleasing. I tried to have everyone operating at maximum capacity all the time, doing the most damage, or at least preparing to do, the most damage they could do. I'm glad the BDSM elements opened the world for a you a little -- I have to make sure I do my research and get that accurate. Thank you so much for reading and letting me know what it meant to you! 

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Cindy5601 commented on Epilogue on November 22, 2021 03:50am Liked

Wow, what a ride u took us in thar other dimension, very believable and well written. Spuffy deserve to be happy. Thank you, lovely story.

Author's Response on November 26, 2021 03:02am

Thank you! They had to go through a lot to get there, but they found each other, and happy — or happy enough — is what they are. Thank you! 

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TmBelka commented on Here We Go on September 18, 2021 02:08pm Liked


Author's Response on September 18, 2021 01:52pm

Thanks for reading!

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popculturedeference commented on Epilogue on May 24, 2021 11:12pm Liked

I just finished reading this and it was so, so good! The backstory for Buffy was heartbreaking but added so much to the story/universe. I wanted to throttle Angel repeatedly. Towards the end I was pretty worried for our heroes but I love the way it ended!

Author's Response on June 01, 2021 04:10am

I'm so glad you enjoyed! Buffy's backstory was hard to write, it was an ugly background for our heroine, but the Watcher thing is just so ripe for exploitation. Angel was very throttleable, and I didn't even have to change his character. Glad you liked how it ended! Thanks! 

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chemeli commented on Epilogue on May 18, 2021 05:47pm Liked

one of the best fanfic i have EVER read, it was fantastic! you made me laugh and cry, i just have no words for how happy i am right now. i live for stories like yours thank you

Author's Response on May 18, 2021 09:41pm

Thank you so much! This was quite the deep dive into a bunch of stuff, and I'm very glad it worked out. Just... just thank you! 

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chemeli commented on Guilty on May 18, 2021 03:04pm Liked

wow....i never read a fanfiction like yours. it’s astonishing how good it is 

Author's Response on May 18, 2021 09:40pm

Oh... blush well, I'm all embarrassed now. Thank you so much. 

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chemeli commented on Town Hall on May 18, 2021 01:05am Liked

that so fucking hot. i adore your store. the character development is phenomenal 

Author's Response on May 18, 2021 09:39pm

Yeah, once they start, they really start hot. I'm glad you're enjoying! 

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Enbybitch commented on The World Continues on May 04, 2021 04:18pm Liked

Read it, loved it. With the title and having read your other stories I was honestly expecting it to be even darker. Like the middle parts with the unlikely roommates thing were quite lighthearted and fun compared to what I've come to expect from your writing. Thematically it's so well done. You set up the themes really well and resolve them satisfyingly. Love that the watchers council was the villain. Love how you wrote spike and Buffy. Love that no one has any time for angel. The plot is so well constructed. This is the fic that I recommend to people if I want to get them into your writing but don't want to scare them off with like "pet" or "the edge" which are my other favorites. 

Author's Response on May 12, 2021 10:13pm

Ah, this one got me through quite a good chunk of Covid, and I deeply needed to write it. I'm starting to think I might even get to a sequel someday, if I can come up with a good scheme for my loose-ends to pick up. I was taught to write to theme, back when I was studying writing thinking I'd do it "for a living" (ha! if only) and so I love being able to use that learning. The Watchers' Council was ALWAYS a villain -- look what they did to Faith, by neglecting her? Angel is so useless if you have no patience with his destiny bullshit. Five climaxes -- it's hard to top this one. 

Pet and The Edge are pretty edgy, so this is a much better introduction, and I'm very glad to hear that you recommend me to anyone! Whee! 

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Lakitalover commented on Aftereffects on May 03, 2021 12:36am Liked

This is the most creative and through solution I've read to the problem of the watchers council. Also, the action scenes were great.

Author's Response on May 04, 2021 10:04pm

Thank you! The watcher's council is inherently problematic, and it's always bugged me it was never properly solved. I mean, they blew everyone up, but that's kind of a blunt instrument. 

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Lakitalover commented on Well, Golly on April 09, 2021 12:51am Liked

How do you manage to make death threats sound so damn sweet?

Author's Response on April 09, 2021 09:53pm

They’re fond of each other under those death threats. Whispered bedtime stories of how it all ends.... 

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SuckerForSpike commented on Epilogue on April 08, 2021 05:51am Liked

It was such a pleasure to read a fic where circumstances caused Buffy to be more open minded and in sync with Spike and it was refreshing to visit a world where Buffy doesn’t spend 90% of the story resisting her feelings for him. I also loved the role that you gave Anya in this story and the relationship she built with Buffy.

Author's Response on April 08, 2021 04:50am

It was important to me to write a story where Buffy fell first for once, and since I was already in an alternate universe... Buffy deserves to claim what she wants. And she's ALWAYS wanted Spike whether she admitted it or not. Anyanka was a real gift for this story. Thank you for reading, and I'm glad you enjoyed! 

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Lakitalover commented on Town Hall on April 08, 2021 03:53am Liked

*giggles* This scene is adorably ridiculous and ridiculously adorable.

Author's Response on April 08, 2021 01:05am

And poor Spike, caught on the back foot here, and lost so quickly. 

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Lakitalover commented on Happy Birthday on April 08, 2021 02:50am Liked

These last few chapters have been a perfect blend of angst and bitter sweet fluff. Thanks for that. Also, you gotta love good ol' Oz.

Author's Response on April 08, 2021 01:04am

Yeah, this is where the slowburn really starts to smolder and smoke. And Oz was a lifeline here. 

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Lakitalover commented on Racked on April 08, 2021 01:29am Liked

If readers took a shot every time Buffy said Spike's name in this chapter...they'd be more drunk than Spike. Lol. 

Author's Response on April 08, 2021 01:04am

Buffy was very irritated by Spike in this one. 

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Lakitalover commented on Change Partners on April 07, 2021 07:44pm Liked


Author's Response on April 08, 2021 01:03am

Yeah, poor Spike. 

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Lakitalover commented on Vampire Nature on April 07, 2021 02:46am Liked

I like everything about this chapter. Spike getting a much deserved beat down by a victim was especially satisfying (probably because it's so rare to see fiction in which humans get revenge on vampires that feed from them).

Author's Response on April 08, 2021 01:03am

Usually the victims don't get a chance to retaliate. I'm a big believer in victim retaliation. 

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Lakitalover commented on And More on April 07, 2021 12:59am Liked

Thank you for your thoughtful end of chapter post.


p.s. Happy Spike is adorable.

Author's Response on April 08, 2021 01:03am

Isn't happy Spike so much fun! Salad! 

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Lakitalover commented on That Was Weird on April 06, 2021 04:46am Liked

Spike using poetry night as a threat is absolutely delightful.

Author's Response on April 06, 2021 02:49am

Poor Spike, smacking his former-self in the head while using it for his own purposes... Sweet William. 

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Lakitalover commented on Moving In on April 06, 2021 04:08am Liked

Sassy wishverse Buffy is greatly amusing.

Author's Response on April 06, 2021 02:48am

Isn't she so much fun? 

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Lakitalover commented on New Plan on April 06, 2021 03:30am Liked

I'm really enjoying all the depth you've added to the wishverse.

Author's Response on April 05, 2021 11:33pm

The biggest thing I did was change out the big bad. I had already had the Master as a big bad in my story Otherwise, and I didn't want to retread old ground. 

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bmerb commented on The World Continues on April 04, 2021 05:48am

YAY! This came up as the random generated story! Not quite ready to reread it, it’s too good for a rushed binge and it was insanely delicious, eagerly anticipating each new weekly installment. I’ll reread soon though and feel it with a different, smoother narrative flow. I am working through your fic, started with the early warnings and on up. Not sure where to put this one. It’s AU but also...not? Since the wishverse IS canon! 
Anyway, just excited to see it listed and reminding me to reread!

Author's Response on April 04, 2021 04:02am

I love you. I totally love you, you are like a little gem of happiness and validation that just came from out of the ether to make my life better. I just wanted to let you know that. I don’t know how to express how nice it is that you enjoy my stories, and they mean something to you, and you GET IT, and then you LET ME KNOW and it’s just... thank you. It means so much. 

bmerb Replied on April 04, 2021 11:37am

heartheartheart Happy to be here!

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Storm27 commented on Guilty on April 03, 2021 01:59am Liked

My God. This is such a lovely, heart breaking read, that I am about to have finished in an entire day! Wow. Thank you. 

Author's Response on April 03, 2021 05:24am

Oh, wow! I'm so glad to have caught you! Hope the last few chapters don't disappoint! Thanks for reading. 

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Sharvie commented on Epilogue on March 01, 2021 05:58am Liked

I absolutely adore your work! It's always so descriptive and puts me right there. Like I'm watching a show, not reading words. I can still "see" little details you put in your work, like when Buffy was beating Spike up, he wrecked the cage and the bird was running away from the debris. I know it sounds silly but tiny details like that really bring a weight to the world building.

Your fight scenes are always top notch. From their first fight in the school hallway to the train tracks. I'm usually reading on the seat of my pants in excitement. I think I actually gasped when Buffy was running to hug Spike after the fight and she realizes he's going to try and kill her!

Also, you have such great twists and turns. This story in particular must have given a special challenge as it was in a different dimension with a Buffy we weren't given more than one episode with. I really enjoying how you flushed her character out and explored her new backstory and motivations. It gave a new twist to the relationship with Spike I've never seen before. Could you say if it gave you more challenges or more freedom to create almost "new" characters?

Lastly, I was wondering if you were going to do a "reset" with the universe and I think it was really clever to make the character's realize they were in an alternate world, but not give them any way to reset it. And after awhile, there wasn't the point for the characters. With the Master dead, it seemed like the world for them could go back to some semblance of normal. So there was no reason to keep looking at themselves as alternates. I was happily surprised you went in that direction.

Your stories are to die for and I'm so thrilled you are writing in the fandom today! Thank you for continuing to share your work with us!

Author's Response on March 05, 2021 03:07am

Oh, thank you so much! I try to put in descriptive details without bogging the reader down with description, and I'm so glad they stand out to you. 

The fight scenes were BIG in this one. I added so many climaxes, and tried to raise the stakes with each fight. In particular that last one with Spike, where you can barely remember that it's coming, but it's so set up with the way Spike had been thinking about how the geas would come off. And the stakes are so high there, not just with Buffy's life, but Buffy's LOVE of life on the line. Glad to see I could cause a gasp! 

Oh, yes, basing this Buffy off of the three scenes we have with her -- once with Giles, once with Angel, and once in a fight where she loses... it was a trick to come up with a backstory that explains her hardness without diminishing her heart. I don't know if the freedom was more challenging or not. I was very inspired for this one, and really dove right into it, so it was pretty easy to write those early chapters. Buffy's backstory of abuse kind of wrote itself and framed the whole rest of the story. 

I love me my canon, so I understand resets, yet at the same time find them narratively limiting, so I like to subvert the expectation a little. 

I'm so glad you enjoy my work! You may be thrilled I'm writing, but I'm thrilled to have a fandom I can create content for and someplace to hang all my headcanons and creativity. Thank you so much for reading and letting me know what it means to you! 

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thenewbuzwuzz commented on Vampire Nature on February 17, 2021 12:55pm Liked

Oh, hello there, Rack's strawberry nicknames. That's so in character it hurts. :D

Enjoying the magic worldbuilding and the details on how Rack works. He is making me uncomfortable, as he should, but it's also interesting. ^^

Oh dear, of course Willow thinks more power is the solution to her problems. Well, in this case maybe it really is? This is going to be fun.

"the area around Sunnydale was overhunted"
I bet it is. :) Love Spike's perspective.

“Get your own back. Trust me, he’s earned it a hundred times over. How did he make you feel? Scared, vulnerable, hurt? Make him feel it. Go on. He gets to be the victim now.”
Buffy had a cool idea. I hope it made Christine feel better.

I wonder if Buffy has been talking to Anya about justice.

I relate to Angel and his bucket list of novels to finish. :)

I love that this story is getting into the issues of hunting without killing. Just because people don't die, doesn't mean nobody gets hurt. But also, vampires need more than just blood. It's complicated, yay!

“For fuck’s sake, you make one salad"

Wheee! The darlings are about to reach the relationship milestone of killing things together!!

"and found themselves outnumbered four to one, but that barely mattered, because Buffy had Spike at her back"
Good times!

"And it was safe, really, because he was taken"
Right. :)

"and she relaxed, glad to have gotten that out of the way"
That sounds very right for Wishverse!Buffy. Little does she know the whole thing is not out of the way for long...

Author's Response on February 20, 2021 02:41am

Rack is so beautifully creepy. 

Willow definitely going to regret this. 

The idea of letting the victim get her own back is something I wish could happen to more women/people who have been assaulted in their lives, physically or otherwise. But that's not how the world works, unfortunately. 

I do make vampires complicated. I based on off what we see, and the vampires who seem the most adjusted are those who still fight. 

Glad to see you! 

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hannahlivi commented on Epilogue on February 14, 2021 01:12pm Liked

You are such a good writer. Thanks for putting this into the world. I loved reading it

Author's Response on February 16, 2021 05:10am

Thank you so much for reading! I’m glad to see you enjoyed it. biggrin

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Rebcake commented on Aftereffects on February 14, 2021 05:55am Liked

I came back to reread this, because Buffy’s vengeance is so satisfying and so EARNED that I was thirsty to revisit it. Thirsty for vengeance against evil men taking advantage of well-intentioned women? It is terribly au courant. Practically this year’s greatest hit. Thank you so much for this story and for the kind of closure we never seem to get in *skoff* real life. It’s a treasure. 

Author's Response on February 16, 2021 05:10am

Ah, yes. May all those who were abusers know what it is to be the abused. So mote it be. *sigh* I wish there would be more justice like this in the actual real world. 


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Dynamite commented on Epilogue on February 05, 2021 07:11pm Liked

This story has everything I love in Buffy fanfic: angst, happy ending, engaging fight scenes, and plenty of sexual tension. I really enjoyed it, thank you. I often cringe when I hear Buffy called a feminist icon or role model because of her relationship with Angel and his "destiny" often overshadowing hers in the first few seasons (especially S3), plus her lack of sexual positivity and her allowing her friends to dictate her life/relationships 😩. Thank you for consistently fixing the many issues I have with canon, you do such a great job without finger wagging or bashing. I just wanted to let you know how much I truly appreciate that. It was also nice to see Buffy as not a privileged upper middle class sheltered valley girl that she is in canon, she is very Faith like in this story but I think she would of been if her background had been different. I loved seeing Buffy having the confidence and presence of mind to go after what she wanted. I also love Anya in this so much, and the idea of her running the council as a vengeance wish was brilliant. Anyway I'll stop gushing. 

Author's Response on February 09, 2021 08:44pm

I'm so glad you liked it! Poured a lot of energy into this one, in of course a difficult time. 

Buffy can be a feminist icon -- she feels no shame of her gender, and uses the power of seduction leading to violence as part of her arsenal. But there there are problematic elements, too. She's never allowed a positive sexual experience, there are hang-ups about her agency, and of course the whole Angel scenario. Peeling off these layers and finding the different dynamics makes for good storytelling, and thus great fic! Deconstructing the problematic elements and reforming them into positive concepts, or dismantling them, was one of the things I was trying to do in this story, to make everyone (except maybe Angel) work at maximum capacity. Which of course meant five climaxes and a lot of action. 

This Buffy was a little Faithlike, but I think Buffy always was. There's some fundamental Slayerhood which I think would stick with all slayers. I mean, we only see three, really, but... *shrug* 

Anyanka was a real gift to this fic. I didn't expect her to be so interesting, but she found her place and kept herself there. 

Anyway, thanks so much for reading! 

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Ajmilone commented on Epilogue on February 04, 2021 07:09pm Liked

This was wonderful! I loved how you made am angsty Buffy with a detailed back story and slowly brought her warmth and a happy ending. Such a satisfying fic!

Author's Response on February 06, 2021 03:41am

Thank you! I tried to keep everything at maximum capacity, with Buffy and Spike changing and growing substantially. I'm so glad you liked it! 

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