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in_bloom commented on Finished on November 23, 2020 09:08pm

35 was such a beautiful, beautiful chapter.

and it was just so— precise, maybe? the precision of the fight scenes, the ebb and flow of high emotions, energy, the story and the writing (and the callbacks, always the callbacks: the railroad, the playground, buffy managing quips and tv references under duress, spike not managing to quip and getting flustered, fights as 'waltzes,' (and so many more callbacks that i for sure missed)... reading it through a second and third time, the fraught and high-stakes (no pun intended) narrative is still so clearly and incisively expressed and i'm rambling, but this was so great.

and the physicality! of their mental and corporeal exhaustion, injuries, bleeding-hearts emotional states, the waves of renewed momentum, second winds and walls... sigyn, ah! what a great chapter.  

 

also, 

Spike paused and picked up her fallen stake, setting it gingerly back in her bib pocket. “A slayer must always keep her weapon handy.” 

“I’ve got a few,” Buffy said, leaning against his shoulder. “Who would have thought you’d be defeated with words?”

"Words always had power."

just, augh, so tender.

but! tender in a visceral, 'the wounds are tender-to-touch' way as well as an 'aww, soft' sort of way. (and, more callbacks!)

brava!!! 

Author's Response on November 24, 2020 06:05am

I can't respond adequately to this comment, it's beautiful in itself, giving the chapter back to me so perfectly. I love that imagery, tender as in "tender to the touch" as well as "soft" way. Thank you so much! 

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Nollsuns commented on Finished on November 21, 2020 10:38am Liked

A chapter full of twists, love, thrills, hardship, romance and me squeaking because of it. You're an awesome writer 

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:30pm

Squeak! I love squeaks! thank you so much! It means the world, it really does. 

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Behind Blue Eyes commented on Finished on November 20, 2020 07:16am Liked

Brilliant, as always. 

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:30pm

Thank you! I try! 

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EllieRose101 commented on Finished on November 19, 2020 01:29pm Liked

I *love* this chapter!

It has everything heart

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:30pm

Aww! Thank you! 

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magnus374 commented on Finished on November 19, 2020 12:36pm

This was so very intense, the build up, the actual fighting and their thoughts, good job with all of it. We can see that Spike's thoughts are that Buffy wants to be killed and he is the one who has to do that. This is also mixed in with his own death wish and not wanting to give up what they have. 

Words are important, suddenly they are talking, Buffy admitting to love him was a shock but let out his own feelings. It is a strange situation so I'm not sure how to feel about this. Buffy asking him to behave was another very intense moment. 

They are actively trying to work this out and of course another complication comes.

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:31pm

Thanks! It took them until they couldn't do anything else before they started talking, but they did GET there. 

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daria22 commented on Finished on November 19, 2020 11:42am Liked

At least Buffy and Spike have made their peace! And that was brilliant ♥

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:31pm

Thank you! Yes, the Spuffy is largely resolved. The story... I still have a few tricks up my sleeve. 

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All4Spike commented on Finished on November 19, 2020 08:07am Liked

Perfect Spuffy. Fighting to a totally exhausted standstill, and then declaring their mutual love. applause

“You’re a fantastic slayer. You can make a vampire not want to kill.” A masterful encapsulation of the entire Spuffy relationship.

Oh, bugger. Travers. vamp

 

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:29pm

Yep! Fight until they can't anymore, and then there they are, together at the end. 

And... yeah. Travers. 

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pfeifferpack commented on Finished on November 19, 2020 06:59am Liked

Oh thank GOD (and well-timed trains), they finally had a breather and began to think. Even better they started to talk.

Now Spike knows she does NOT want to have him kill her and no doubt he's vastly relieved. Gravy on top is that she's admitted she loves him!

She is accepting his vow of love too instead of stupidly thinking he isn't capable. She knows better.

I love the trust that she has in knowing that his promise not to kill for the love of her is something he can and will do (and how sweet that he offered to have them put another geas on him if she needed that assurance).

They are both in bad condition physically and instead of getting the chance to rest and heal they get invaded by the absolute worst ...

Travers and his team of thugs. I really hope that Giles and Wes stand up for the two of them and that they run the bastards out of Sunnydale and out of their lives. 

Great update (sorry for the short comment... just plain exhausted. One of our senior dogs has developed dementia and this past week has started sundowning so neither Jim nor I are getting much sleep. He's healthy every other way but... anyway my brain is fried).

Wonderful chapter fast-paced and very vivid fight scenes.

Love the raw emotion of their confessions. Just perfect for this pair in this world.

Excellent update.

Kathleen

Author's Response on November 23, 2020 05:14am

Yes, they so needed to talk! Really, Spike should have talked before... but he didn't dare, I think, more because he didn't trust himself than because he was scared of what Buffy would say/do. And what they did was admit they're in love! Poor bastards. 

Yeah, I actually think another geas would be good for Spike, but... you know. You do what you do. And this Buffy does what she does. He is capable of making that decision, I'm just not sure he's not going to try and push the envelope. 

And now another cliffhanger as Travers breaks into their idyll. 

First off, this wasn't a short comment, it was excellent, and secondly, you never have to apologize. We're all under tremendous strain right now. Even a "still reading, looks great!" is enough to make a wriggle of happiness, so... hug

You get sleep. You deserve it. 

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Coldhandswarmheart commented on Finished on November 19, 2020 06:44am Liked

Wow. Where to start?

You seem to always push the envelope in your fics (I admire your ambition!) This has got to be the most extreme Spuffy death-match I have read,  and all fuelled by love on Spike's side. It's really consistent with your ideas about love and death being inexplicably linked for vampires, as well as packing an emotional punch. Thank goodness they finally started communicating  - although not until they were incapable of doing anything else!  And then to finish with yet another twist ratcheting up the tension. More please!

Author's Response on November 23, 2020 02:25am

I do keep trying to stretch myself. I think for fear I'll get bored more than anything else, really. As for the Spuffy death match, YES I really wanted them a hair's breadth from killing each other, and just worn down to the point of not being able to do anything other than talk. They are creatures of action, not communication (curse them!) and I didn't think either of them would listen until they had no choice in the matter. 

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LibraryNinja commented on Finished on November 19, 2020 12:17am Liked

That was a beautiful not-quite-death match. hug

I don't suppose the douche council is going to let Spike get a word in?

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:32pm

I think expecting the council to do anything reasonable with Spike is a bit beyond their abilities. 

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Oasis123 commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 11:51pm Liked

What a great fight sequence and emotional reveal. And now Quentin oh Quentin...

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:32pm

Thank you! They made it! And now... more complications. 

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SeaPea commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 11:38pm

Yes!!!!!!!!

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:33pm

About time, right? 

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kittyfajitas commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 10:07pm Liked

... and then somehow Spike and Buffy slaughtered Quentin and his goons!

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:33pm

Wouldn't that be good? Would I have set the story up for that? Well... 

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gill commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 09:58pm Liked

Aww man. With the cliff hangers in this one! Although it was a great way to confess their love now I am scared they will be torn apart again! Love this story so much I'm already dreading that it'll likely be over soon.  

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:28pm

I... I did, I left a lot of cliffhangers. Like a lot of them toward the end here. I did. 

And if it helps, I discovered I'd double-labeled chapter 36, so there are actually 38 chapters instead of 37. So one extra chapter for you! 

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in_bloom commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 08:59pm

oh god, sigyn. don't do us like that!! until next week...

(hope your ear infection is healed.) 

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:27pm

I did it. I'm quietly evil. (And yes, I'm almost all better. Still fluid in my right ear, but that only bugs me when I chew a lot, like if I eat jerky.) 

in_bloom Replied on November 23, 2020 09:11pm

you are evil but yay for mostly-healed ear!

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bmerb commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 08:05pm Liked

Oh DAMN!! Whew that was a helluva ride there, and ending in the utter FILTH that is Travers. Thinky thoughts aren’t working but again, DAMN. Thank you! Perfect bridge

Author's Response on November 23, 2020 02:41am

Another cliffhanger, I know. I'm so evil. 

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k1ngohats commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 07:46pm Liked

Sigyn you had me crying at how beautiful the spuffy confession was after all that build up, because they were finally on the same page and happy and ready to go rest and cuddle aND THEN YOU SHOOT ME IN THE HEART WITH TRAVERS

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:26pm

Aren't they adorable? Fight, fight, I'm too tired to fight, damn, I can't do it, I love you, and there they are! But nope, life isn't done with them yet. 

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bmerb commented on Hunted on November 18, 2020 07:40pm

I feel for both of them. Both so desperately injured, the pain of this next step so intense for both (Buffy assuming straight up betrayal, Spike assuming he MUST fulfill this as a duty to her). My heart breaks most for Spike though...

“He couldn’t not do it. And he couldn’t wait, either. The idea of waiting and then turning on her turned his own stomach”

“Vampire and slayer. Vampire kills slayer, sucks her dry, and breaks her bones to lick out the marrow. That was what was supposed to happen. He could do that. He must do that. Or he wouldn’t be what Buffy wanted him to be. And he would become whatever Buffy wanted him to be. 

Stop thinking so hard, he reminded himself. If you think too much you’ll just start to cry again, and then what use would you be to her?”

You’re killing me with this Spike, so distressed and burdened with his responsibility to her. Aaaah! And of course the tension drawn out is awesome. Be FREE Spike! I can see this ending with her death, or perhaps a brief death like in canon season 1, that allows for a new slayer to take over and leaves Buffy free as well. Or not! Onward to the next chapter, I’ve still got too many complex feels to sort this one out entirely! Brilliant!

Author's Response on November 23, 2020 02:41am

Spike is really out of his depth. I think someone else commented that he'd both over and under thought this situation, and yeah... he's totally confused. It occurred to me as I was posting (story already finished, of course) that Buffy should have used her safeword somewhere in this middle of this battle, but I don't think the thought would have occurred to her. She only got it that afternoon, of course, and it's never been tested. And it would have sucked if it then got violated because after all, Battle to the Death is not the same as scene. I love your comments Be FREE Spike! Yes! Fly! Break the demon! You don't need to kill her! <3

 

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Less12 commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 07:10pm Liked

some resolution finally! i was so stressed these last few chapters 

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:25pm

I may have left so many cliff-hangers for these climaxes... 

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The Danish Bird commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 07:00pm Liked

Such a sweet way for them to finally get it. Loved the love confessions ending the fight.

Now please, don’t let Travers kill either of them. Just put him out of his misery...Spike is hungry, there’s an easy, if unpleasant, meal right there.

Can’t wait to see what happens now read

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:25pm

You may have a very clear vision, my friend. Shh!!! 

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Spikelover88 commented on Finished on November 18, 2020 07:00pm Liked

Great chapter can't wait till the next one 

Author's Response on November 21, 2020 10:24pm

Thanks!

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yellowb commented on Hunted on November 17, 2020 07:18pm Liked

Why’d she have to be so ingenious and clever and beautiful and brilliant and perfect and fucking hard to kill?

That is a perfect Spike line.  I am so, so curious about how they will resolve this fight.

 

Author's Response on November 17, 2020 11:56pm

I may have been evil, letting it linger for yet another chapter... 

yellowb Replied on November 18, 2020 06:47am

If you're evil, it's a very Spike-ish, lovable evil.

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yellowb commented on Firefight on November 17, 2020 06:02pm Liked

Oh, what a wonderful chapter.  So grim and so hard, and what a humdinger of an ending.  Though I don't believe for a second Spike's gonna kill her (though that would also be a humdinger...)

Author's Response on November 17, 2020 11:55pm

Yeah, this was me going full out military tactics. Still small scale, but you know... gotta have Buffy be on point. 

Spike has thinky thoughts going on. 

 

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Micrindle23 commented on The World Continues on November 14, 2020 05:02am

*sigh*

Author's Response on November 14, 2020 05:05am

lol

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Micrindle23 commented on The World Continues on November 14, 2020 04:59am

Ugh, get a clue, doofus

Author's Response on November 14, 2020 05:00am

It's Spike. He has trouble with that sometimes. 

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Micrindle23 commented on Hunted on November 13, 2020 06:07am Liked

Is Spike doing this because he thinks he has to? Or because in making himself Buffy’s he is compelled to follow her wishes? 

Author's Response on November 14, 2020 04:56am

He's not compelled in any magical, slave-bound, non-consensual sense. He just thinks this is the best way to do what has to be done.

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Nollsuns commented on Hunted on November 13, 2020 04:23am Liked

 They're so deep in their fantasy, it's hard to know if that's what they want in reality.

Great.

Author's Response on November 14, 2020 04:42am

They are totally lost in this. They really need to slow down. 

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sue commented on Hunted on November 12, 2020 12:34pm Liked

Oh, bloody hell.  Spike! Don’t you see? Don’t you get it? It’s lifted, yeah, but was it really an unbearable restraint? Had Buffy been hellishly wrapped around you like a strait-jacket, or had her singularly, impassioned  embrace of you in fact been the key to a better unlife? It’s not kill, it’s kiss!
The fight is won - and immediately another fight begins: Spike versus Buffy. The immediacy of this physical brutality towards each other even as they are both already wounded, reveals a relentlessly cold and stupefying counter to their recent closeness in bed and in mutual support against the others. Together in the fight, just now  in opposite corners of the ring. Even now, though, Buffy lures Spike  away from the potential,  dangerous intervention .......Brilliant!

Author's Response on November 14, 2020 05:09am

Yeah, Spike's not thinking very clearly. To be fair, he's pretty injured. And Buffy should be thinking more clearly, too, and she's not. 

I'm not responding to this adequately. This is such a great comment, I could just cuddle it. 

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magnus374 commented on Hunted on November 12, 2020 11:20am

Spike is operating on a somewhat twisted logic. All the issues and complications combined do make it a fitting scenario. So many different things at play, like Spike having no hope for the relationship and want it to end with a bang for example. They also always "played " at killing each other. 

The fighting and the thoughts of both our characters are done really well, both of their minds us a complicated mess.

A good scene with Buffy getting help by some "good " people, but of course she had to leave in order to defend them.

Author's Response on November 14, 2020 04:45am

Spike’s a little lost. He needs to slow down and think, but no. Not right now. 

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Behind Blue Eyes commented on Hunted on November 12, 2020 02:56am Liked

Ahhhhhh!!!!! 

Author's Response on November 14, 2020 04:43am

*laughs wickedly* 

 

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