Nooooooo the doctor was Eve this whole time! Oh my goodness! They have him trapped now that he's shanshued!! I'm so glad you didn't leave it at that oh my goodness. That's crazy, how it was just William at first, and as he remembered more he was like evil Spike, and then crazy ensouled Spike. But he wouldn't go with his Buffy. My poor heart.[Report This]
Eek! So much in so few pages! Baby!Angel made me laugh and say “ewww”. That’s one seriously weird dynamic; bummer there aren’t parenting books for that. Good thing Buffy has support. And she’ll need it to get Spike back, too. I love stories where someone loses their memories and they have to fall in love again. I would love to read a sequel to this fic because I am captivated![Report This]
Oh dear, that would be a sad place to leave William Pratt. I’m looking forward to reading the next chapter and I do hope you get a chance to continue with a sequel someday. I love the unique premise and how you switched and blended the different William / Spike voices. As a reader, it was so engaging to try to piece together all the clues you sprinkled throughout the chapter.[Report This]
I re-read this wonderful fic for the second time and I can't say how much I love it. I really hope you’ll come back to this.
Thanks so much for reading and commenting! And yes, I’ll come back to it someday. Gotta bring the happily Spuffy ever after!
Thanks to you! I'm happy to know that you plan to continue this beautiful story! Can’t wait
Ooh the addendum is lovely (and hilarious! Angel the baby! 🤣). Is this going to be continued?
Hee! Maybe Angel as an infant will keep out of trouble, haha. And yes, I am definitely going to continue this. I've already written the first chapter! But I have no idea when it's going to really take off, because I got myself into a bit of pickle with starting too many other fics. Thank you so much for reading this oldie and for another sweet wake-up comment
Just loved this. You said so much in so few words. The use of the journal was very clever as was the slowly evolving language. William was well written and adoreable you just wanted to rescue him. I too would love a sequel. Thank you.
AWWW, thank you so very much! This was my first and only time writing William so I was nervous when I did it, but I loved the idea of Spike going back to who he had been, before he had been turned, only to not be able to accept that because of all he had gone through since then. Not only the choices he made to fight beside Buffy and get his soul, but loving her altered him irrevocably and forever. I will definitely revisit this in a sequel! Thanks so much for reading and I appreciate your comments so much!
Argh I need more! But at the same time, my brain's already visioning up the rest because of course she'll succeed and he'll remember himself with her and guh, this was excellent, thoroughly enjoyed, the feels are so good and the second part is just enough to turn them around to hope.
Thanks so much 💙
Hee! I will definitely return to this, don't worry, and yes, it will have all of that and more! Our William has to make peace with himself as Spike and know that he could be loved even with his past. It will be a fun and happily ever after ending journey and I'm so excited that you're already thinking about it! You're the best. Thank you for reading and for gifting me with such lovely comments!
like wanting you is the only thing I really do know - Oh the feels 😭
I'm so glad you've added to this...
Ah, sweet Twinkles, I was in such a bad place when I wrote this and then I found EF and ta-da! I got the instant motivation for a way to make this into something hopeful and bright. You're one of the authors whose amazing words helped me do that, so thank you for sharing and thank you so much for reading and commenting!
Wow, this story is quite a ride! I love the first chapter. Very VERY clever. The second chapter wasn’t what I was expecting tbh, but whoa! Quite the ride!
This works well as an ending, but I hope you come back to this verse one of these days!
Hahaha, the second chapter was added on years later - right when I joined EF as a matter of fact - and what's really funny is that about a month ago, I HAD to write the first chapter of the sequel, just to get it out of my head. So yes, I have a whole story planned to tie this little 'verse up. Thanks for finding it and for taking the time to comment!
This has been sitting on my bookshelf for a while...Oh man, so good! Excellent voices, and I freaking love the detail of William thinking he’ll have an artistic breakthrough since he’s had a mental breakdown.
Thank you for this wonderful little story. :)
Aww, thank you so much! I'm so glad that you liked it and HEE! - I have such a soft spot for dramatic William and his hopes for an artist's type of neurosis. I truly appreciate you reading and for taking the time to comment!
Um... not to be a complainer.... but I followed the link here and got all involved in this amazing story - and WTF???? You are going to finish this, yes? That is not a suggestion. Just so you know... I know where you live... (sorta)
Good Lord, woman, I gave it a happy epilogue after 15 years, what more do you want?! HEE - totally joking Seriously, though, I can't wait to get Buffy in a place where she can both Save Spike and Raise Angel, 'cause nothing screams "sequel!" more than our Slayer trying to get a former vampire current amnesiac human back to himself while wrangling diapers and formula with your recently-infantilized ex-boyfriend, LOL. Thanks so much for reading and reviewing, sweetie!
Gosh this is exciting and heart wrenching, I need more! Hope the sequel comes soon!
SQUEE! So happy that you liked and I totally understand needing more of a story, I'm just thrilled to pieces that it's one of mine I hope to return to it this year after I finish my two WIPs. Thank you so very much for reading and for taking the time to leave a comment!
Pow! Punched in the gut! I'm salivating for more! Aww poor Spike, doesn't remember Buffy...And poor Buffy!!
EEE! So happy you liked, my dear, and yes - our kids are in such a tough spot. I can't wait to write the happy ending that gets them together where they belong. Thanks so much for reading and commenting!
The first chapter is incredibly dark and very well-balanced with how William nearly became Spike then snapped right back. I like the epilogue and imagining Buffy rescuing him
Oooh, I am SO GLAD that I wrote the epilogue and I am definitely planning the big finish with the official rescue. It's hard to believe that my happily-ever-after obsessed little heart would've let the story stay in such a dark place, but there's no chance of THAT ever happening again. Thank you so much for finding this story and for reading and commenting!
Great story and happy you gave it a happier ending. I especially enjoyed baby Angel.
Aww, yay! Thank you so much! Yes, I am much happier with the happier ending, too. And no need to worry about Angel interrupting the lovebirds except for maybe needing to get his diaper changed, hee Thanks so much for reading and for taking the time to leave a comment!
Can't wait to read the sequel! It'll be so emotionally satisfying to have Spike really back. Great work here. Enjoying your current WIP very much, though, and will just have to wait patiently for more of this particular series!
Aww, I am so excited that you can't wait to read the sequel! I have so many ideas on how to get William (and then our Spike) back into his Slayer's arms where he belongs, I can't wait to get this sequel going. And, yay! So glad that you are enjoying the current WIP so much, too, that is so wonderful of you to say. I appreciate you reading so very much and thank you so much for taking the time to leave a comment
I love the way you changed things at the end of Angel; It is very interesting for Buffy to have to raise baby Angel. How is she going to steal Spike? Would love to read a sequel.
Thanks so much for reading and commenting! Raising Angel and Stealing Spike will definitely be in the sequel - and I'm not sure when that's going to happen but it will definitely have a happy ending.
Two shansued vampires. One a baby, the other with manipulated memorys. I thiks thats 2 : 0 for Wolfram and hart. I hope Buffy can get Spike back to himself.
The end is so open it screams sequel
Thank you so much for reading and commenting! Don't worry, this will get a sequel and yes, nearly wiping out Wolfram & Hart had some serious repercussions. Getting Spike first back and then back to himself will be an uphill battle and Buffy will have her work cut out for her! But I'm looking forward to making it happen
Wow. Fascinating tale. Love the detail and imagination. Giggling over baby Angel! Cannot wait for the sequel - need to know how Buffy gets her Spike back!
Yay, thank you so much for reading and commenting! I will definitely return to this when I can. I loved getting into William's head but I'm really going to enjoy having him come back to Spike with Buffy's help. And LOL, yes, I couldn't resist doing that to Angel
I would give you my left something for you to continue this story to a happy conclusion. Truly.
Awww, thank you - you're so sweet! Please save all your appendages - I will definitely create a joyful Spuffy ending when I get a few other WIPs wrapped up
Oh yes, most definitely this screams sequel! Practically demands it! It's a very juicy story plot, original ideas, and I am really looking forward to reading it soon (hopefully).
So glad that you enjoyed the tease ;) Yes, I will return to this little world and it WILL have a happy Spuffy ending (well, if you count raising Angel happy )
LOL - that's just what I was going to write in the review, that it's too bad she is saddled with raising Angel (yuck). But then I thought, well, maybe with a "do-over" with a decent upbringing, he won't be such an arse this time. But you can only hope. LOL
Definitely need more. Interesting ploy to have William under Wolfram and Hart's thumb. Great story in the making.
Yay! Thank you so much! I'm looking forward to diving back in here at some point ;)
So apparently the Shanshu can have different effects, that's interesting.
Here We got to see Buffy's pain over the failed rescue. That won't stop her. I loved the feeling of power that came from her, she is determined to take back what is her's.
Haha, yes, I couldn't resist twisting the Shanshu a little. That's the one thing I knew I wanted to do to Angel! Having Buffy get so close to Spike and then failing was a very humbling experience. Now that she's gotten so close to him, she knows the next rescue must be permanent. Thanks again for reading and commenting!
This is both interesting and written very well. Everything points towards that Spike got the Shanshue and became human. The fact that he only remembers William could be a side effect of that or could be something that was done to him. The later part of the chapter makes that possibility stronger, but still unclear.
The voice of William looks right, this is the way he would act and think when he tries to make sense of his situation. His despair and disbelieve is done so perfectly right.
His reaction at seeing Buffy (and her reaction) was also great. This seems to have awoken some memories from Spike which the doctors didn't like. New medication semis to supress them and he is now under control from Wolfram and hart. Buffy's desperate try to free him felt painful, since he didn't belive her anymore.
It will be interesting to sed how this will be solved.
Ahh, thank you so much for reading and for your thoughtful comments. I have never been a fan of diary fic but it seemed to fit here and helped me really get into Spike/William's head. I think Wolfram & Hart hoped they could snag the Slayer, too, and I can't wait until she puts a real wrench into their works!