I really liked the description of Spike experiencing the sunlight, that was beautiful. Also Lorne’s experience of that particular cover song. Actually he and Spike are a really fun odd couple that I’d never thought about before. I like it. These poor guys! I want to hug them both. I love the images, thank you for including them![Report This]
"because she knew by now that her brain worked best when the hair over it was perfect"
valid! :D I like that she knows how to help her brain work
"they’d found forgiveness was more of a process than a box to be ticked"
sounds right :)
"and she wasn’t the only one crying now that adrenaline was fading"
!!! I LOVE the idea that pretty much everyone was in shock in the last scene of "Chosen"!! And that's why they seem so calm, even flippant. OMG. It all makes sense now!!!
"You’re the one who came and talked to me. You told me I had to watch out for him, that you needed him for the fight, but once a ra-- once a bad guy, always a bad guy.”
Eeeeee, so good!!!! Of COURSE the FE interfered!
"It was quickly clear that the First Evil had been subtly undermining the relationships within the house for some time, using Buffy’s face and voice."
"Yes, aggressive-aggressive is more my style"
"the deep conviction that Spike had died a hero and Anya had, too -- and the selfish realization underlying it, that she wished they hadn’t, that they’d had more time, that she’d been brave enough to take the time earlier to actually love instead of putting it off for after the battle"
SUCH a great flashback to have at this point in the story! ^^
“And, um, are you sure it was Angel?”
Ooh, fair question! I mean, *we* know it was.
"He’d acquired some vintage-looking leather eyepatches and was wearing one today, something handmade with brass rivets."
Making the absolute best of it, I see
"He said it was ‘quite urgent, really.’ Which we all know is Giles-speak for ‘apocalypse incoming.’”
I love Giles so much. Especially when you write him. ^^ (This is a tiny line, but now I'm thinking of "Prisoners of Love" Giles and "Ritual Confessions" Giles, and he's just so fabulous so often in your stories. <3)
"“It’s only, like, a minute after eight.”
“Which is later than eight o’clock,” Giles said briskly."
Oh, to have his punctuality
"Andrew wasn’t looking at her, Buffy realized suddenly; he was poking his straw around his Frappuccino with suspiciously-deep concentration."
the little sneak!!!
"He cleared his throat. “It seems there may have been, er, a small apocalypse.”"
“I, uh, was worried about my, um, vintage Commodore computer. You remember the Amiga, right? I, um, had one in storage in Los Angeles, waiting for it to, you know, get cool again, be all retro.…”
NICE SAVE! I'd buy it... but Buffy is not me.
"Andrew shrank into his chair, holding up his Frappuccino as a shield. He took a huge sip through the straw and mumbled something unintelligible."
So Andrew-ish it hurts :D I can just see him.
Friends don't let friends murder Andrew <3
“Willow? You up for a cross-Atlantic flight on zero notice?”
Awwwww :) How nice that Buffy will have a road trip companion too! This is going to be fun!
Oh, the First was evil. Racist evil. And I'm so glad Buffy finally greeted Angel with a nose-punch.
but clearly Andrew saw her intent because he spun his chair away, curling protectively around the plastic cup.
Andrew has consistent problems with priorities.
“But do think of the paperwork.”
OH MY GOD, that conversation on the bus. It's means so much--it EXPLAINS so much. This is the most valuable addition to my headcanon since Sigyn pointed out that Buffy being in an asylum could be an artifact of Dawn's monks' imagination. This is the penicillin of headcanon, never mind the cathartic and poignant moment that brought it about.
Thank you for being out there and writing these things.[Report This]
Andrew is so very lucky she didn't kill him. I would have. Temporary fugue state would be my defense.
I love the explanation of why they all turned on her. The First could impersonate her. She died 3 times (If I remember right she flat-lined on the operating table before Willow fixed her). The First managed to shove a very large wedge in between them.[Report This]
A good little background piece, manipulation by the First does make the "throw out Buffy from her house" scene actually make a bit more sense. This was a healing moment.
I get that Andrew did promise but with the news here, he should have said something instead of having it dragged out. The things he said in Rome to Angel was also out of line.
Well, now Buffy knows and will be looking for Spike, maybe she can find Harmony to get information from? When she calm down she will also realise that her own actions was one reason for Spike to not say anything. It was still wrong but there were issues.[Report This]
Well, Buffy is up to speed now except for the post-apocalypse issue of Spike's current location.
I do hope she puts some blame on Angel for also keeping Spike's return quiet (and remembers that she had done her share to make Spike insecure before he burned). Good that her anger seems directed at Andrew at this point and that seems correct especially since he didn't offer info except after he slipped! The things he said to Spike in Rome really put a period to Spike contacting Buffy at that point and Buffy knows it.
I love the perfectly rational idea that the FE had used Buffy's image to create lots of the discord in the Summers house as the battle drew near.
I'm hoping they can actually get info in LA about the stuff Angel was up to (no good really) and how Spike COULDN'T contact her until shortly before Andrew arrived for Dana. That makes it a bit better because it wasn't him choosing for quite a while.
I'm glad everyone is being supportive of her and her need to find Spike. Bodes well for them accepting Spike in her life when she does find the lost boy.
Excellent update. I really love this story.
Your updates are always sooo worth waiting on! Such an interesting angle on the First impersonation of Buffy in sewing seeds of discontent and misinformation. You'd think they would have learned to reach out and touch whomever they talked with, just to verify. But, Scoobies were always the react first, leave brain on the altar for deNile! It is good to have a reason that they all turned against Buffy, for the one provided in canon was flimsy, at best, and downright absent, at worst. Our beloved characters were certainly thrown under the bus of ratings over true representation - many times! Think that damn bathroom scene. While your portrayals are certainly closer to the core. This one screams "delayed gratification." But, I'm sure with your handling, there is going to be major gratification in the end. Good show! Carry on.[Report This]
It never occurred to me before, but the FE could easily have taken Buffy's form to appear to literally anyone, to undermine her authority during late S7. In fact, it would have been stupid not to. Frankly, it's the only thing that could make the mutiny make sense. That is now my head-canon.
Good honest discussion between the Scoobies.
And I can't wait to see what Buffy & Willow discover in LA.
"forgiveness was more of a process than a box to be ticked"
Sometimes I read your stories and you blindside me with some piece of wisdom. This is one of the best examples of it, and I wanted to thank you for it.
On a different note, paperwork saving Andrew's treacherous and omitting ass is one of the best things of this story, and I want to hug Buffy too, tight and long. She's adorable and fierce and I can't wait to see the two of them reunited. Which makes me kinda bummed that she's going to LA first, but I'll be glad to see her learn anything more about Spike before they meet up. Will make that moment even sweeter! (And more heartbreaking and heartwarming, knowing your writing style.)
Also, Scoobies bonding is the best... I'm glad we got a recollection of what happened between them right after the bus left the crater, and the idea of the First using Buffy's form to help divide them was very interesting.
Thanks so much for the update![Report This]
Ah, i am so wildly in love with this! You manage to write in a way that’s both heart wrenching and genuinely funny at the same time, so I still have tears in my eyes while i’m laughing. Thank you so much for sharing this, it’s absolutely wonderful
Jesus, you're good.
Watching them both sitting in their little islands of pain near each other, not touching, sending out little feelers that just miss each other. Spike in the bathroom. Jesus. Spike and SNOOPY'S BROTHER. I literally put my head in my hands as my heart seized up.
"tidepools of Buffy-thoughts"
"Was this how “ordinary coffee” worked? A constant Russian roulette of sweetness levels?"
Also, "ye gods and little fishes" is one of my favorite phrases and I use it in conversation an actual lot.
Thank you.[Report This]
Angel is not a part of your world any more, he doesn’t deserve any real estate in your brain.
Go, Lorne! That's a hard lesson to learn.
“Bloody hell, don’t you read? Bloody Snoopy’s bloody brother Spike lived here. In a bloody hollowed out cactus.”
This is soooo funny, first that Spike chose that as his reason to go there, and then that he's willing to admit it. And to castigate Lorne for his lack of Snoopy lore!! Oh Spike, you Snoopy-of-a-vampire, you.
There is so much melancholy here. It lies like a blanket all over the chapter, just as it should, both of our "heroes" is very down right now. For now they are just moving forward, trying to get away from the pain of the past. The thoughts they are having, the way they interact all of that is done in a fitting way.
Lorne must seem very out of place at a truck stop and not because he's green. He is so extremely much a city person, I have no trouble believing that he never had just coffee. One of the charms of regular coffee( in my opinion) is when you manage to make it exactly right, when you get the perfect balance between coffee, milk and sugar, the perfect balance of taste and temperature. Most of the times you can't really recreate it but the times when it gets perfect is enough.
I can perfectly see Spike choosing to go to a place because of a fictional character with his name.[Report This]
You certainly know how to pick road trip buddies, Be. Spike, in his own way, is as much of an empath as Lorne. He just uses different sources. Interestingly, Spike's ability are working better at understanding and reading Lorne. But then, poor Lorne, who trusted Angel and like everyone who trust Angel, discovered he shouldn't have.
I just love it when you write a diddy. The characterizations are so spot on with the extras that you always pull in, which usually includes, at least somewhere in the tale, those moments where you want to break down and laugh, or cry, and you are never really sure when the scene starts which way your emotions are gonna go, cause your musings are very unpredictable even though they are so true to the characters.
Dru giving Buffy information because Ms. Edith insist caused me to wonder just how many times Dru has been pushed by Ms. Edith to share and actually made sure to deliberately muddy the waters while complying.
Spike's motivation for choice of destination is why he can, when he so choices, simply drop off the radar. No one, absolutely no one, can follow his mental gymnastics or know what tidbit of knowledge sparked a new fork.
Here I was thinking HOW COULD I HAVE MISSED CHAPTER 2? But I didn't -- I think I must have read it elsewhere, and ridiculously assumed my porous mind would hang on to that fact.
Buffy has regrettable sex with non-Punky-non-English-someone-or-other. Buffy regrets regrettable sex and comes back to England.
It's good of Buffy to stick to her plan, if only because Buffy gives up sex altogether and spends her time in obsessive and maudlin sulking would be so much less fun to read about.[Report This]
This is beginning to seem like the road trip from hell... for both of them. And Spike's plans are going the way of most others. In that they're not working.
They're as lost as each other. Nothing to do and nowhere to go.
Perhaps if Spike were to start singing, Lorne might come up with a bright idea. Or not.
I also love Google maps. Packed with thousands of snippets of potentially useful information for fanfic writers.[Report This]
Oh, Be! I adored this chapter!
Spike and Lorne on a road trip is something I never knew I needed in my life but it so is!
They are both in their own world of hellish memories and regrets. I love the reason Spike chose Needles. Yes! Snoopy's brother Spike would be something that might catch his fancy and let him pick the destination. He's also contrary enough to be drawn to the desert even though he's a vampire.
I kind of hope he slips and sings so that Lorne can really get to know him and his issues quickly. I think they will be good for one another. Spike can certainly help Lorne deal with his pain that Angel left him with. Spike's used to cleaning up after Angel gets through with destroying others.
The Cowperson's creed is a hoot (and LOVE, love, love, the links! ... except now I'm hungry having read the menu. Truck stops usually have great food.)
Lorne and his quest for perfect coffee made me smile. Spike and his slight jealousy that the waitress favored Lorne was cute.
Amid all the cute and bonding was the aching pain they are feeling. Spike breaking down in the bathroom was so sad and e=to be expected. He's had a few years of misery and it looks like it just keeps coming.
Lorne has tasted betrayal and now has to live with the results of trusting the wrong person. For someone like Lorne this will be murderous on his psyche.
There is so much sadness at the foundation of this trip yet there is potential for a real, healing, friendship too so there is that dash of hope. Beautifully written!
Excellent update. I love this story so very much!
I love Spike from Peanuts! Ok, so maybe I misinterpreted Dru and the windy city was a fakeout and they are not going to Chicago (maybe). I love the details and the friendship acceptance between Spike and Lorne.