Whew thank you Spike for offering Slayer the chance to experience FEEDING. So much wrapped up in feeding, especially in vampire/vampire feeding. Not exactly like but reminds me of an oxytocin hit, that feeling of aNDA desire for closeness and intimacy, bondedness. Sires feed fledges and vampires exchange blood/bites during sex, both seriously laden, bonding situations.
I may have started writing Spuffy when I was pregnant with my third, meaning a LOT of my feeding and bite-hit scenes are based on the sensation of nursing. The oxytocin hit, the sleepiness, kind of weaponizing or turning the sensation of nursing into a more powerful type drug. So that's the feeling the vampire saliva gives off that keeps people i.e. Riley coming for more in my fics. Most drugs follow patterns our brains already have -- cocaine feels like being in love, for instance. I have less of a handle on what the feeding itself feels like to the vampire, but probably similar.
NUCE - wonderful description and exploration of her feeding - loved the section of Buffy's being forced to reconsider Angel's taking her life and her transformation into her worst nightmare. Buffy knows now, even if she rather not, that Angel's "it's Angelus not Angel" is not so clean and simple as he would like her to think.
She's had a very vivid image into what a soul will do to a vampire, and Angel is not standing well in her judgement these days. It doesn't happen that Spike's all generous and hot.
You are such a good writer - each of your works that I've read has been excellent and have created a strong emotional connection with the characters. This one is what I describe as "quiet, like a lovely violet in contrast to a rose" it let's me think on Buffy's pain and misery especially regarding Angel.
It really focuses on the Angel betrayal there, and the troubles of what it was like being his offspring -- someone who loved him, and was ultimately ruined by him. It's a harsh place to be in.
You know what really gets my goat after reading this? All the things Buffy doesn't know and all the ways she hasn't been taken care of as a fledge that she SHOULD have been. Freaking Angel did the exact same thing to her that he did to Lawson (well, minus the threaten to kill if see again).Thank god Spike is here to pick up the pieces and take care of our emotionally fragile fledge. Beautiful and hot scene with our pair. Their growing companionship is just delightful
Angel is a self-centered jerk. He's evil even when he tries to avoid it. (Sometimes especially when he tries to avoid it.) Buffy really really did need Spike. Fortunately... there he is! Picking up the pieces after Angel yet again. What do you want to bet he did the same with Lawson? Since they both got kicked off the Sub at the same time.
It's nice to see them find (what is probably confusing) comfort in one another. And I'm glad Buffy shared with Spike- she really could have run away as much as she could have in the small space. I was glad she unbent just a little bit. Not that she's probably entirely ready for that connection between them, but it's a start :-)
She needed to connect with someone. She's all too isolated, and Spike is really a good person to reach out to. And they are sort of trapped together at this point....
Very good job conveying Buffy's hunger, and what a delightful solution. At least Spike gets to be one kind of "first" for Buffy. Time for her hand and her shoulder to heal up so they can get out of there!
Yes, yes, Spike was so her first... and welcome to snuggle town!
LOL Spike's intelligence shines through (and hey...what about Xavier? I'd let her have the Xander one though.)
Love your call back to the problem demons have with fluorescent lighting.
Awwww neither ready to admit they have concern for the other. Good game but it won't last as long as the word ones they've been playing.
You know, even if you do lose it, after those first few months or so... impulses are a little easier to control. Once you’re no longer such a fledge, you shouldn’t have to worry much about it. Bet that's more information than Angel gave her, more comfort too. Obviously she got Angel's crap about how all vampires behave, all based on HIS choices of course! What a first class dick.
Love how he is taking care of her. He really is a caregiver by instinct both as a human and vampire. She needed the blood and Spike is more than enjoying her taking it, especially from his neck. The touching tenderness of them cuddling was lovely.
Spike will be the first Master vampire she's been around since her turning. Now with the blinders somewhat off she'll have someone to honestly compare Angel to and he's not going to look so good or reliable a source of information. She'll soon realize that Spike is going to be her best resource both for survival (and escape) but also survival in the longer sense. He can help her to become the sort of vampire she needs to be to live with herself and thrive. She can also point him to how to be a vampire she can let herself love and be with.
Yes she is warring within herself. The Slayer part is the natural enemy to the part of her that is now demon. Poor thing really needed Spike to turn up when he did if only to actually help her be who she can be and find peace.
Part of the trick with a game like that, and like Questions (Foul, no rhetoric, three love and game) is calling the other on foul balls and out of bounds concepts and then getting into enjoyable arguments about who's right. So Barbra would count, but Betsy wouldn't, since Betsy is short for Elizabeth, and... yeah. The argument about that is half the fun. It was just that Buffy wasn't capable of playing that deep right then.
Buffy badly, badly, BADLY needed Spike. If they hadn't been thrust into this situation, she might not have realized HOW badly. And that would have been a real shame.
Ahhhh - nicely done. Using Buffy's hunger to feed to give them a chance to learn more about each other. Believably demonish, and yet with a little touch of human emotions.
Indeed! Trying to play the difference between human and demon here is... yeah. It's been a trip!
This chapter was all about getting closer. Being together like this makes them really get to know each other. There was some really good talking here. Slayer was worried of losing control if she lost the soul, since the only knowledge about this came from Angel, that worry make sense. Spike was able to explain things to her. As a fledgling the need to feed is much higher and they are not used to the demonic part yet. All of this makes them act like they don't have control. A grown vampire will have control, if they don't want to kill someone, they don't. Angelus was in perfect control, he wanted to kill and harm. It was good for Buffy to hear this, it will make her a bit calmer and she now understand that a soul doesn't really mean much, she can function well without it.
The feeding from Spike will also help them get closer. Since Spike is related to her sire, his blood is probably somewhere between sire-blood and regular vampire blood. The feeding also was erotic.
I assume that Walsh is recording everything from their cell. I wonder what she make out of this?
Yeah, they're lots, lots closer now.
Excellent chapter. I loved the relationship development between Spike and Buffy in this chapter, they're certainly in a better place now than they were a little while ago. I have to wonder what the initiative is making of their current behaviour...
Funnily enough, the beginning of the next chapter answers that perfectly! They are so snuggly in this story...
Spike WOULD ace word games! :D But I think Buffy would be good at some kinds, too. All that quipping and punning must take skill.
Yeah, but not when she's stressed out and low on blood.
I really enjoyed this chapter. The bite scene was very well written. That moment between them was so intimate, erotic. I loved it. And the ending was very sweet.
Thanks! I love getting them together, in all the different ways...
This chapter made my heart flutter. You can see the connection right there. Thanks for writing this, I am really enjoying reading this story.
Oh, yeah, they're already hooked on each other. The question is... how far will this go?