I really like this last one... even though it wasnt Spuffy. I think my favorite however is the one with Xan and Anya making bets about Spuffy. This is definitely going into my favorites list for future rereading!!! Wonderful job!!!
Thank you. The last one is actually my favorite. :) I think Anya is too shrewd not to figure out what's going on with Buffy and Spike, so I often have her making bets with Xander about them. :)
Well, this is very nice. I truly enjoy friendship between Spike and any of the gang stories. There aren't enough of them featuring Xander. Thank you.
Thanks for reading. I enjoy allowing Spike and Xander to be friends when I can. (I've also written more than a bit of Spander - but not posted on here, obviously)
Excellent story. I adore that Xander took care of Spike.
Thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it. Xander can be an ass, for sure, but he also has a heart and kind instincts.
Adore this. The feels are horrible and wonderful, the whole scenario of mistaking an unconscious vampire for a freshly dead human, the clued in mortician, brilliant. And the spander bonding is wonderfully done. It's all so heartbreaking :'(
Thank you 💙
Thank you! I'm so glad you liked it. It is far and away my favorite of the four fics, so it's always a boost when someone tells me they appreciated it.
Kinda bittersweet. I'm glad she looked after him. But she's still pretty thoughtless
She is. But at least in my fics she admits what she's done and is sorry. I just needed to fix it. :)
“Right now, I would say that the worst thing that’s wrong with you is that you’re still thinking about yourself when the man who loves you so much he allowed you to take out your anger on him is barely clinging to life.” ... Yes, it’s Spike. The vampire who protected your sister for you. Who was tortured and thrown off a tower for her. Who helped us all summer while you were…” YAY Tara for some home truths there. I love Buffy but she is so self absorbed so often. All that she said about Spike is true too. "The man who has been your refuge and comfort since we – your friends – mistakenly pulled you from Heaven…stop me when I get to anything even remotely evil!” His past was never something they would let go of no matter what he did in the time they have known him.
Not because you feel guilty about hurting him, or because you need him to help you feel better, but because he means something to you Yes an apology should be for the right reasons.
How do I justify having a relationship with Spike to the people who remember what Angelus was like? CAN I justify it? Angelus should have been the reason they were kinder to Spike. Nothing Spike ever did to them made him comparable to Angelus! Angel? Yes but that's Angel with a soul being the closest to compare with Spike without one. There was never a Spikulus.
“So, I have to pay because Angelus is a wanker?” Essentially that's what happened IMHO. Spike often "paid" for the sins of Angelus. He was also judged on human terms instead of as an unsouled vampire.
Loved this one.
Ah, thanks. It addressed a couple of issues the others didn't, although it had to be through Tara. I can see her doing that though. There was some steel under that sweet exterior and something like this would probably bring it out. To me, the most important thing that made Spike different from other vamps, and especially Angel/Angelus is that he was able to change without a soul (a canon requirement, not mine) and (until he got the soul) without wallowing in remorse over what he'd been before. He had been a very dangerous and evil vampire for a very long time. Unapologetically so. And Buffy and the Scoobies were there for some of that. It's reasonable for them to remember him when he was evil. It would probably take someone like Tara, who didn't have those memories, to notice and really see what he was like now. She doesn't seem to have the whole soul/no soul attitude that everybody with experience with Angel (and the Council's line of BS) has.
Having said that, TBH, in some ways I prefer the ones where Buffy's poor behavior is brought home to her through the obviously shocked reactions of others without anyone having to verbally point it out. As poorly written as the first one is in some ways (pov all over the place), it seems more believable to me in terms of slipping into canon. Seeing Clem's disappointment or Xander's shock allows her to absorb the same information about her behavior and can inspire the same self-realization without using another character's speeches to belabor the point. Her tentative invitation to her birthday party seems more in keeping with her confusion about him at that time than would a sudden reversal of attitude. We just have to assume that she will have those thoughts eventually, but will have to work her way up to therm a bit at a time now that the damn has broken. And if we assume the birthday ficlets were set in the same "verse" she gets to make the speech herself. Still a speech that can feel like an author-insert, but it allows her to make it and show that she does understand what he has done for her.
I dunno. That's just me, maybe. Much of my season six stuff is the same (popular, to be sure) trope of having Buffy suddenly grasp what Spike means to and has done for her, and much of it makes me cringe because it just doesn't fit into that grim canon. Which is the point of it, I guess, but I prefer the ones that don't tie the happy ending up in a nice package, but just make it look possible to the ones where a sudden revelation changes everything. Which most of them are, alas. LOL I was all about fixing that season, canon and characterizations be damned. :)
And that's a "dam" that burst. No idea where damn came from. :)
This is somewhat satisfying (not your fault...talking canon). Buffy just never really seemed to feel she had done a bloody thing wrong. You have her doing so here and that's great but if we go right back to canon she didn't learn a thing really. Now if it moves off from canon from this point and she really does learn and grow that's another thing altogether!
I'm with Clem; this episode made me have a real problem with Buffy. I cut her a LOT of slack because of her depression up till this situation but after (with her not having any remorse or indication she even saw she was going wrong by him) my patience was over.
I liked how you used Clem in this story, first with the phone call and later at the crypt. It makes his turning up at the party make even more sense.
I appreciate that Buffy seems aware that she was self-absorbed (and boy howdy wasn't she).
I kind of wish that Spike hadn't let her off that easy. If there are no consequences there is little chance for change.
Thanks for this
*nods* It was not a pleasant thing to watch her do to him - although he seemed to feel she needed it and didn't fight back or run away. To me, the fact that she just wandered off and left him there (granted, in canon, he was conscious and talking to her, but just barely) was worse than the beating which was sort of par for the course with them) My intent with the first one, was simply to offer a between-the-lines look at a possible explanation for why he and Clem could show up at the party and be expected and (sort of) welcome. Something had to have happened in between to make them all right with each other. So that was my impetus for that story. The other two were just more attempts to make it better, with more chance for there being a permanent change of some sort. The writing gets better (pov is all over the place in the first two!) but, the ability to slip into canon obviously does not. TBH, in spite of my many, many short season six fics that are meant to make it better for them (some more believably than others) most of those were written very early on when I was determined to FIX IT! and I'm not as enamored of the fixes now. I feel that too much remorse on Buffy's part, too big a change in the way that season went, (unless the fic is goes totally AU like "One, Two, Three, You're Invisible...") becomes too much of an author insert to be good writing. Ditto for the couple of fics I set during the birthday party in which Xander is an ass and Buffy stands up for Spike in a way she probably wouldn't have quite so eloquently in canon (even given the events of the first Dead Things fic). They are well-received by readers who want to hear her say those things, but I keep wanting to say "Shut up, Patti, and let the character speak!" LOL
I don't really like truly dark fics, but I can admire some of them that are closer to canon characterizations and that acknowledge everyone's faults. It was a dark, grim season and no one was perfect in it. I like a happy ending, but I also like a believable reason for it, one that doesn't make everyone suddenly start behaving in wildly OOC ways. Tricky to do. Still working on it. LOL Much easier to just go totally AU with a story than to set it fully within canon and yet somehow make it come out in a better place.
Thanks for reading and commenting. :)
This one seems like it could have been a piece of the second story if Buffy returned before he left. I do like seeing a nice and good Xander and Sunnydale residents that knows about the dark side.
I hadn't thought about that - they were written at different times for different reasons - but you are right. It certainly could have. :) I like some Xander-Spike friendship from time to time. :)
Another one were a lot of Buffy's issues are seen. Tara's and Dawn's reactions really pointed out how horrible Buffy had treated Spike and it made her willing to change. The reactions from Willow and Xander showed that klättring people know isn't the end of the world. We could see some good talking between Buffy and Spike, there's still a lot of issues but now things looks hopeful.
Hopeful is about the most to look for in that awful season... Thanks for reading.
We could see some of Buffy's issues here. I liked that Xander helped Spike home and that he understood that Buffy had done this. That was an extra wake up call for Buffy and knowing that the secret is out allowed Buffy to open up to Spike.
*nods* just knowing others know, and nobody is going to judge her would have made all the difference.
Well there should be some missing scenes between those episodes. Buffy is a lot nicer here, but of course that is the guilt talking. Clem being a good friend is always a good thing.
I thought so. It just didn't make sense that they could go right back to what they were before that without having hashed it out somehow.
I really wish she had come to her epiphany in S6. Nice fic and a believable time for it to have happened.
It would have been nice - but then Joss would have found some other way to make things go to hell in a handbasket. :)
I really wish Xander HAD been the one to discover him and help. I think it would have been a turning point in their relationship.
Loved the coroner and the vampire that Xander staked while there (that Spike held back so Xander could). I'll bet that job was interesting in Sunnydale!
Like the story a lot.
Thanks. I'm really quite proud of this one, and I really enjoyed writing it. Sometimes you can have entirely too much Spuffy....
I only wish Xander would have taken it like this. I think Buffy would have had the courage to tell Willow and Tara was already in the know. Dawn was always in their corner (till S7). Xander and Giles were the big stumbling blocks and Giles was gone by this time.
I actually think he might have by this point - especially once he'd seen what Buffy did, and how she felt about it. It's believable to me that he wouldn't have been as big an ass as he later appeared to be.