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TeamEricNSookie commented on Song on July 05, 2021 09:17pm

Lol... What can one say about this story?... 🤔 MORE PLEASE!!!

I enjoyed your story and the creativity of it.  It was like an everlasting gobstopper of yummy goodness.  

Thank you for sharing

Author's Response on July 10, 2021 11:15pm

Thank you very much for reading. I was trying to take Spuffy down to their core, and it seems like people think I succeeded. I'm so glad you liked! 

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Storm27 commented on Song on March 23, 2021 11:52am

Oh my goodness, I didn’t that was a typo I’m so sorry! I didn’t even realize I commented by accident until I saw your reply! I have been tearing through your work since this weekend, and I started with your season 6 and I have to say, I am both torn apart and made whole with your writing. It is so absolutely beautiful, so perfectly Buffy and Spike. I think about it all day even when I’m not reading! You have power as a writer, and I can’t decide if I should move on to a bit more fluffy of your works to survive or just keep on some type of order, but that’s Season 6 for you! Haha thank you so much for sharing your wonderful talent with us! Wow!

Author's Response on March 25, 2021 07:12am

It's okay, I just always reply to any comment I get so I have my pretty line of zeros down my comment list. I'm a completionist. I'm so glad to see my work is worth tearing into! Season six was powerful, and I always try to catch that with my fics, rather than just "fix it" but to embrace it, feel it, even feel the pain of it. All my canon compliant and post season fic does work as a cohesive whole (for the most part) but none of them require any previous reading to make sense of. I like to keep my stories easy to digest, and so I tend to leave things in-text and complete unto themselves. Thank you so much! These comments really mean the world. 

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Storm27 commented on Song on March 22, 2021 08:26pm


Author's Response on March 22, 2021 08:48pm

Even if you meant to leave this blank, thanks for reading! 

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Spikeslilkitten commented on One Last Game on March 17, 2021 05:35pm Liked

Amazing story !! Great writing. Really captured the characters even when they were playing different characters


Author's Response on March 19, 2021 08:37pm

Thank you! I was trying for some diverse experiences. Glad you liked! 

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Brooke724 commented on One Last Game on February 22, 2021 10:33am Liked

WHEW! You are a master. 

I literally don't know what else to say. Um, I need to shower now? And reassess my attempts at writing. 

Beautifully, agonizingly, done.

Author's Response on February 24, 2021 10:19pm

*offers a towel for the shower* 

Oh, don't let anything stop you from writing! Writing is a gift, it helps even out one's own head, please write! 

Thank you so much, I'm glad this story resonated with you. 

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Enbybitch commented on Song on February 08, 2021 07:41pm Liked

I have to comment on this fic of yours too. This one was just so deliciously hot. I love the switching of power dynamics. And how sometimes who actually has the power can change with one line of dialog. I love how every role they play reveals something about how they see themselves and the other person. I really enjoyed the buffybot chapter. There was a bunch of switching between it's pronouns and she pronouns for Buffy/the bot and I was wondering if what pronouns you used at each point was always a deliberate choice or you just went with the flow. That chapter also has my favorite line of dialog " I am having sex with you". Honestly that was so hot I gasped. As someone who feels a sexual power dynamic is hotter then "normal" sex it feels like this was written for me. And I love a broad definition of sex. In the queer kink circles I'm in there's so many incredibly different definitions of what is and isn't sex and I never know which of my kink experiences are supposedly "sex enough" to count so I'm fully with spike here. That is sex. And oh god has the pandemic made me horny. 

Author's Response on February 11, 2021 08:22am

Thank you! I was trying to strip them down to where they were at their core, layer by layer, starting with default setting — cheerleader, poet — and taking them through other aspects of their personality until Spike is in a place where he admits he wants to be better, and Buffy can admit she loves him. And then of course I tear the whole tottering edifice down with one word. Because I’m evil. 

The Buffybot chapter, the “she” and the “its” was based on how deep Buffy was in the role playing. Remember she’s not an actress, certainly not a method actress, so she rose in and out of character and really struggled with that role. It was wholly unlike her, which is why that one in particular wavers a lit. 

I’m glad the concept of broadening the definition of sex resonated with you. Yeah... the pandemic has made me a little randy myself, and I have a live-in partner. It’s a complicated time. I’m glad this story gave you a little escape! 

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Dynamite commented on One Last Game on November 13, 2020 06:47am Liked

Damn, if only all therapy was this hot. 

Author's Response on November 13, 2020 06:24pm

I think it would be unethical if it was... No, better to leave this to loving friends. 

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Abhimary00 commented on Song on October 07, 2020 02:48pm Liked

 So. I remember reading elsewhere in your fics that some of the stuff they did was illegal. I'm wondering what's illegal in sex....would you clarify, please? 

Author's Response on October 07, 2020 07:56pm

Well, public sex is technically illegal. As was sodomy in several states -- I know that was true in the early 2000's, I don't know how many of those states have reformed their laws. Do I believe those things should be illegal? Consensual sodomy, no. Public sex, I think if there's a way to make that consensual to the voyeur -- so semi-public sex -- that could be under good regulation. 

Abhimary00 Replied on October 13, 2020 12:08pm

My, my, there were no limits to Spike and Buffy's affair, were they? Their relationship was destructive, toxic, violent, at least in the beginning, but then, because they have seen each other at their best as well as their worst, out of those ashes came something powerful, beautiful and eternal. At least, that's waht I like to think. I think they can grow to become extremely healthy and well-suited for each other. I think they did by season 7. I think they have. Nobody could every know or understand them like they do. They worked through so many stages of bad as well as good, that the foundation is strong now.

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Abhimary00 commented on One Last Game on October 05, 2020 12:46pm Liked

 That's right, tear my heart in two. Don't need it anyway.

Love it. <Sniff>

Author's Response on October 07, 2020 07:57pm

Hugs! You be okay. Think of the episode Touched and take heart! 

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MichelleZed commented on One Last Game on May 04, 2020 12:38am Liked

Super great story. Just re-read!

Author's Response on May 05, 2020 08:43pm

Thank you! It gets heavy, this one. 

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Lie to Me commented on Be Buffy on April 14, 2020 06:47pm

 Wow, this was intense and deep. I need to take a break here before reading on, I admit. I really admire how you can strip down the characters psychologically And physically At the same time! Gods, this is very good, thank you for writing. 

Author's Response on April 17, 2020 12:41pm

I get needing a break — this chapter was a tough one — but the next one is comparatively light. This function of this story is to take them both down psychologically to their core — start with a reset of Buffy the cheerleader and Spike the poet, move the power structure to Buffy in charge, then Spike in charge, and then... well, the rest tears them down even further. 

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Lie to Me commented on Song on April 14, 2020 06:01pm Liked

 Ah, nothing makes me quite as heart-sad as season 6, and mixed with that perfect poetry and the fantasy that will not quite take them away from reality, one of the more poignant smut I've read in a while. Seems fitting for season 6, that's for sure! Lovely work, I'm glad I found this (while it also jabs into my heart). Thank you for posting! 

Author's Response on April 17, 2020 12:40pm

Oh, this story is season six all the way. All the beauty, the pathos, the hunger. And in this case, poetry! This story was my attempt at dark erotica, and I’m glad it caught you. 

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Coldhandswarmheart commented on One Last Game on November 24, 2018 01:10pm Liked

I've read this fic a number of times now and it always packs a wallop. I love that you seem more interested in unpicking emotions and motivations than in mere titillation. Poor Spike, poor Buffy. So perfectly evokes the misery and confusion of Season 6 Spuffy.

Author's Response on November 27, 2018 04:51pm

Oh, yes, this story can be a gut punch. I carefully wrote it to take Buffy and Spike down to their core, and then totally rend it asunder. Thank you! I'm proud to see you rereading. 

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Twinkles commented on Song on September 07, 2018 04:52pm

Thank you so much for all your amazing fics 💜💜💜

Immortal and Pet are definite top favourites of mine, so with nothing in the reading queue I thought I'd give your short fics a glance. I usually avoid anything under 50k words or so because it's just not enough, but man, your shortest stories are exquisite 😍 Can't believe I waited so long. They read so true to canon and character, tear out my heartstrings in just the right way and flesh out canonical events so satisfyingly. 

I left this story for last because it didn't really sound like my kind of thing from the sypnosis. But oh how wrong I was! It's my favourite lol. Everything hot, dark and violent, everything sweet, tender and loving, heartbreak and hope all bundled up together into a story I couldn't put down until I finished it after midnight. 

So thank you for so many perfect hours devouring your writing, I'm off to reread it 💙

Author's Response on September 13, 2018 06:21pm

Thank you! I worked really hard on finding themes for my shorts, and even my novellas (like this one) that encapsulate a thought and make it complete and easily digestible. It's really nice to hear someone enjoyed them! 

This is a difficult story, starting light and going to dark, and I'm glad it caught you. Thank you so much for telling me! 

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spikeisthebigbad commented on One Last Game on February 06, 2018 11:32am Liked

Holy cow.... that was.... I cried! Poor Spike. I can see this as a cut scene. The way she used his love... I know she's suffering herself, but she makes him hurt just as much as she does, just to alleviate a bit of her own. 

Well done! This is so good! bow

Author's Response on February 16, 2018 08:11pm

Yeah, this is a sad one, or ends on a sad note. I try real hard to keep my stuff able to sneak seamlessly into canon. Thank you! 

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sarahinexile commented on Song on August 02, 2017 11:39pm Liked

Wow, my poor Spuffy heart is crushed but what an amazing story nonetheless. Nothing quite gives me the feels like season 6 angst.

Author's Response on August 04, 2017 04:50am

Yeah, this one does end in a harsh place, but, you know... Season six. If it helps, I wrote Attainathon sort of as an answer to this one. This, the question, Attainathon, the answer, as all that connection gets to a good place in the end. Thanks for reading!

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aloradanon1 commented on One Last Game on June 22, 2017 10:06am Liked

Well that was heartbreaking. There are moments I really really hated Buffy. Both on screen and here. Every time she broke Spike's heart I wanted to bitchslap her. 💔💔💔 I was going to read through your whole series but I don't think I'm emotionally prepared for the last one. Good writing, nice way to add to canon but now I need something fluffy. 😋

Author's Response on June 22, 2017 11:39am

If it helps, I wrote Attainathon after this one as a sort of healing balm for the long slow hell I created in Connecting. This one does end on a low note, but... season six! I mean.... Anyway, yeah, I reccomend Attainathon. My "series" are just my canon-compliment stories grouped into seasons, and so not really a "series" as other writers do them. Sorry about the heart break! 

aloradanon1 Replied on June 23, 2017 03:56pm

 No need to be sorry, good addition to canon. I'll go check out Attainathon. 🙂

aloradanon1 Replied on June 23, 2017 11:15pm

 No need to be sorry, good addition to canon. I'll go check out Attainathon. 🙂

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holetoledo commented on One Last Game on May 24, 2017 05:07am

So heartbreaking. I loved it though

Author's Response on May 24, 2017 07:38pm

Thank you very much!

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MichelleZed commented on Song on May 22, 2017 11:36am

I don't think i ever reviewed this! I really like this fic. I really like how it starts off kinda light and smutty... then suddenly gets really real.

Author's Response on May 24, 2017 07:39pm

Yeah, the heat and the passion slowly draw them down to reality... until the reality crushes them and they both rubberband back into pain. Thanks for the review!

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SzmattyCat commented on One Last Game on April 20, 2017 01:54pm Liked

Did I review this before? I have this story in my ibooks app, but I think I read it before I started leaving reviews, so here I am to fix that omission. I will definitely be rereading this (probably someday when I feel I need a really good cry), and would then be able to leave a more detailed review; at this point, I will just leave what I added as a note at the end of my epub version, should I ever be looking through my library for something I had flagged as particularly compelling:


Author's Response on April 26, 2017 02:23am

Oh, yes, this can be a hard one, particularly since it goes so deep, and gets so close, and then you can see it just... thrown away. "Gutted" is a very good description! Thanks so much for the review!

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Priceless commented on Fallen on March 22, 2017 05:55am Liked


Author's Response on March 23, 2017 03:28pm

Thank you!

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HCB commented on One Last Game on November 10, 2016 10:31am

Good story.

Author's Response on November 12, 2016 10:15am

Thank you!

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HCB commented on Be Buffy on November 10, 2016 08:16am Liked

It refreshed and lost all of my quotes - stupid chromebook so I can't list all of the things that I liked but basically I thought that it was one of the saddest yet oddly touching things that I have read. You are very talented and to be fair there was a warning but it still made me cry. 

Author's Response on November 12, 2016 10:15am

Yeah, this story got dark and sad fairly quickly. But, you know, chapters 1,2,4, and the first half of six were all very sweet! The others... well. It's season six.

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HCB commented on What You Want on November 10, 2016 08:00am Liked

"Queen Fi of the Poorly-Researched-Caliphate." I love it already! :D


"(whose name she couldn’t remember just now." Who could with Spike around?


"King Cardboard" Tee hee hee!!! :D



"He was strong. So much stronger than her stupid ex – sovereign" I love the way that they two stories mix in together. Brilliantly done, feels natural although I'm sure that it must have taken a lot of planning.


Great work. :)

Author's Response on November 12, 2016 10:14am

I myself am particularly fond of the Poorly-Researched-Caliphate. Thanks!

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HCB commented on Song on November 10, 2016 07:50am Liked

Nice. I needed that. Sweet, some fluff, but obviously a lot simmering under the surface. 

Author's Response on November 12, 2016 10:13am

Yeah, the first few chapters are pretty fluffy. Glad the sweet hit the spot.

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spiked_love commented on One Last Game on November 03, 2016 08:36pm

Aaaaand you broke my heart. I'm going to go cry in the corner with all of my feels.


Author's Response on November 03, 2016 08:44pm

But there was that moment there! That moment of honesty! Before, you know, it all fell down around his ears.... Uh... sorry? hug

spiked_love Replied on November 03, 2016 09:48pm

It's okay. it was too beautiful to hate and too honest not to love. 

This is their most broken selves down to their most deepest core. it was.... there are not enough words for what it was. 

Then she said Randy.... and the shift  the chance to italics to show it was over. so sharp, so suddenly , so braking. and it was. it was just who there were at that time: broken. 

And they both recognize that they are broken, and Buffy apologies for it, and Spike wishes that he hadn't done this, and the last line. the quiet hope that it doesn't have to be like this. 

I guess it really was just the perfect end to the story. two broken people almost, but just not able to connect. 

Thanks for the hugflowers

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spiked_love commented on Fallen on November 03, 2016 08:20pm

Oh. my. god. 

This chapter. this chapter. 

I have been away for a while and this was the perfect thing to come back to.

The turns this took was so amazing and mind blowing. first, love it was more of spike's pov. second, I thought it would be more of a look at why Spike got turned. what dress him to the evil. then the hitting started and I thought she was mad at Dru, then I thought it was about she letting Spike touch her and her o we n fall from heaven. 

But I never saw the connection to Angel till Spike was halfway  finished talking, it hit me like a ton of bricks and felt so obvious I couldn't belive that it took me (and spike) so long to figure it out. 

The ending was so beautiful, showing her that her love could purify and the bring out good. it really was what she needed.

ALso, love the shout out to Effulgence. just the perfect name for an Angel!Buffy

Author's Response on November 03, 2016 08:31pm

I took the title Effulgence from Diana Wynne Jones's Dogsbody, which was the honorific applied to the star gods. It seemed perfect, given William's joy in the word. This was the center of the whole piece, slowly getting Buffy (and Spike for that matter) to this place where she's completely raw inside. It is in turn building up to the purity of the last chapter which... is AWESOME until just at the end there.

I am so, so glad you enjoyed this piece. This was a tough chapter to write, I'm so glad it hit the way I wanted it to! Thank you!

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alive_or_dead commented on One Last Game on October 12, 2016 11:43pm Liked

Ouch, that last bit, so sweet... And then boom, jerked back to cruel reality


Author's Response on October 13, 2016 12:29am

yep, get her down to her core and she's a darling. And then... and then.....

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alive_or_dead commented on Thin Red Lines on October 12, 2016 11:09pm Liked

Goddamn, that was hot!! I've been wanting to read M/M spuffy for ages, but I didn't think it'd ever happen. Thankyou!!! 

Author's Response on October 13, 2016 12:28am

Thank Zab. It's all her fault.

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flootzavut commented on One Last Game on September 29, 2016 07:55am Liked

I've always found it so interesting, and an insight into the core of who Spike is even without a soul, that without his memory he assumes he's a good vampire and has a soul, then you have Angel who, despite actually having a soul, when he loses his memory assumes he's evil.

I love that you went with Joan and Randy for this heart I love Spike and Buffy, but I think I might love Joan and Randy even more.

oh lord randy reacting to being told he's a hottie hold me weep

"It came so easily. He kissed her, and she opened beneath him like a flower, no resistance, no demand, just... they fit together, like matching puzzle pieces. He slid inside her, and she slid around him, and it was so exactly what he was thinking that he didn’t even notice at first when she said, “Welcome home.”

When he realized he’d actually heard that, and not just felt it, he looked down upon Joan. He couldn’t think what to say. Maybe, he realized, not saying anything was more important now."

*foetal position, distressed whale noises*

"It was exactly what he’d wanted.

He wished he’d never asked."

*more distressed whale noises*

“I tried,” he managed to say.

“I know. But I’m not very good at this sort of thing.” She swallowed. “I’m sorry, William.”

weepweepweep God, they're both so broken. Okay, I'm gonna go curl in a corner and cry now.

Author's Response on October 01, 2016 04:37pm

I don't know if it was you, or someone else, but I've gotten distressed whale noises from my stories before...

And this was the image I had when I started this fic. Basically taking Buffy so deep down that she admits how she feels... before taking it away again. "I love you... but only in this game." She just can't face the reality of it, but the truth in the lie IS true.

You gotta love Randy and Joan...

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