Warnings: Attempted Suicide
Stories
Summary: I know I have a few stories in progress that I should finish first but I came up with this idea a few months ago and have had a lot of fun developing it. It's based on a Blackmirror episode *spoiler alert* the couple who are falling in love are part of an app to find your perfect match. They are 0.1% of a simulation.
Fifteen year old Buffy meets Jenny Calender's brother who is a technopagan developing a computer program to help people find their One so Buffy gets to see over a thousand simulations where she meets her match and they may or may not overcome the odds.
Summary: More than a year post NFA, Buffy is in self-imposed exile. Her only solace is a robot that looks like the vampire who sacrificed himself in a cave under Sunnydale. Spike is unable to stay away, only he's fighting his own inner battles he doesn't want to burden her with. Impersonating a robot for a few days should be easy, right? Completed 3/25/2018. 
(Banner by the talented DauntlessGrace)
Categories: Post-Series
Characters: None
Genres: Drama
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 19 Table of Contents
Word count: 76,556 Hit Count: 53,864 ePub Downloads: 775
Published: October 01, 2017 Updated: March 25, 2018
Summary: People, formerly friends of Buffy, half-arches missing the keystone, teeter looking for something to support.
Categories: Canon-Compliant, Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Dawn, Ensemble, Giles, Spike, Willow
Genres: Angst, POV
Warnings: Attempted Suicide
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 495 Hit Count: 447 ePub Downloads: 17
Published: September 17, 2017 Updated: September 17, 2017
Summary: When presented with the opportunity to magically alter the world she lives in, Buffy knows there are a lot of very good reasons why she shouldn't seize it, but figures things can't get worse. She's wrong.
Series: Paraverse
Categories: Season 6, Alternate Reality, Seasonal Spuffy Entries
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Ensemble, Lilah Morgan, Lindsey McDonald, Spike
Genres: Angst, Dark, Drama, HEA/HFN, Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Slow-Burn
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Blood Play, Character Death, Cheating/Infidelity, Mental Health Issues, Rape (Actual), Sexual Situations, Suicidal Ideation
Completed: No Chapters: 20 Table of Contents
Word count: 120,151 Hit Count: 17,029 ePub Downloads: 188
Published: November 27, 2020 Updated: April 16, 2021
Summary: The summer after Buffy graduates high school, Spike secretly returns to Sunnydale early in quest of the legendary Gem of Amara.  But he is shocked to discover his research on the magical item didn’t cover all of its hidden powers.  Will it be a curse or a hidden blessing?
This is my entry for the 2020 EF Secret Santa Challenge.  And this story is for the amazing Megan!  flowers
Categories: Season 4, Challenge Response
Characters: Buffy, Dalton, Giles, Joyce, Spike
Genres: Porn w/ Plot, Romance
Warnings: Attempted Suicide, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 12,035 Hit Count: 968 ePub Downloads: 39
Published: December 03, 2020 Updated: December 03, 2020
Summary: When Harmony ends up pissing off the wrong pair of witches, she goes to Spike for help. This leads to the both of them suffering the same fate of revenge. Nothing is ever same for them again and when Buffy becomes involved, she finds out that things aren't always black and white. And that maybe, just maybe, Spike wasnt always "bad."
Categories: Season 5
Characters: Anya, Buffy, Clem, Dawn, Drusilla, Ensemble, Giles, Glory, Harmony, Jonathan Levinson, Joyce, Kennedy, Original Characters, Quentin Travers, Riley Finn, Spike, Tara, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Drama, Dramedy, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Buffy/Other (Temp), Character Death, Spike/Other (Temp), Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 15 Table of Contents
Word count: 21,587 Hit Count: 6,959 ePub Downloads: 32
Published: September 02, 2017 Updated: June 16, 2019
Summary: Willow always felt she was meant for a higher calling, even if it is at the request of Uncle Sam. However when ethics have become questionable, and her best friend a target, who decides right from wrong? What happens when the cause you support challenges who you are to your core?
Categories: Season 4, Alternate Reality, Challenge Response
Characters: Buffy, Ensemble, Riley Finn, Spike, Willow
Genres: None
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Rape, Attempted Suicide, Blood Play, Character Death, Sexual Situations, Torture (Physical), Violence
Challenges: Willow in the Initiative
Completed: No Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 613 Hit Count: 162 ePub Downloads: 8
Published: April 25, 2019 Updated: April 25, 2019
Summary: When the Tabula Rasa spell is broken, Buffy regains some memories she was never supposed to remember… 
Summary:

The slayers activated by Willow fight a terrible war against vampires, demons and dark sorcerers. Just as the vampires are almost exterminated, something starts to happen. The slayers all lay down their arms and assume regular lives. Buffy quits the Scoobies and marries a man named Matt. 

More than 20 years later, the vampires return. Buffy has just left her husband. Xander has become an addict and hasn't been heard from in years. Willow went missing in South America long ago. Giles is back in Englad. Angel is human. Spike is slumbering in a tomb, waiting to be awoken by the final apocalypse.

Can our heroes come together to fight the coming darkness? Will Buffy and Spike become lovers again? Who caused the return of the vampires? What made the slayers lose their power and their will to fight? Who the hell is Matt?

Warning: This is an ensemble piece. There are lots of characters and lots of intertwining story lines, though all the character arcs are thematically similar. It takes quite a long time before Buffy and Spike actually meet, and there are a lot of other characters hogging the limelight. However, the final act does focus strongly on the Spuffy relationship. 


Summary: On Halloween night, Dawn Summers went missing. Two days later she turns up dead, and an already grieving Buffy has one less reason to try and claw her way back to life. But something already did come back – to demonic unlife, anyway. Now Spike has to rear an adolescent vampire, trying keep her from killing when she has no chip, no soul, and no real reason to be good, except for her respect for him. Season Six divergence, as Dawn is brought all the way in All The Way. Complete at 50 chapters.
Series: "Off the Canon Path"
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Angel, Anya, Buffy, Dawn, Giles, Spike, Tara, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Rape, Attempted Suicide, Blood Play, Character Death, Child Abuse, Dubious Consent, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 50 Table of Contents
Word count: 183,525 Hit Count: 72,240 ePub Downloads: 578
Published: June 10, 2016 Updated: September 03, 2016
Summary: Forced to watch helplessly while Buffy's life is slipping away Dawn makes a split second decision that may let her keep her sister, but at what cost?
Categories: Season 5
Characters: Buffy, Dawn, Spike
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Character Death, Sexual Situations, Vampire!Buffy, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 22 Table of Contents
Word count: 58,007 Hit Count: 29,179 ePub Downloads: 229
Published: April 13, 2017 Updated: July 06, 2017
Summary: Buffy woke up the same way she always did these days, a blank alertness overtaking sleep, without the harsh interjection of an alarm clock whisking her into action, without the dying whispers of a dream urging her to stay. Neither sudden nor gradual, instead it felt inevitable — like birth; yet always decidedly out of place. What was life after death in a nutshell, if not that?
(Early season 6 AU story with a canon opening and a happy Spuffy ending.)
Categories: Season 6, Alternate Reality
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Action/Adventure, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Sexual Situations, Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Word count: 9,069 Hit Count: 2,798 ePub Downloads: 22
Published: May 27, 2017 Updated: January 10, 2018
Summary: Buffy Summers is immortal, a fact that she's come to hate.
She can't die, and she feels that without Spike she can't live.
 
Seven deaths for seven days, and one sacrifice to fuel the journey.
What else will Buffy have to sacrifice to save a world that's taken everything from her?
Categories: Season 7, Challenge Response, Time Travel, Crossover (AtS), Post-Series, Alternate Reality, Season 1, Season 2, Season 3, Season 4, Season 5, Season 6
Characters: Angel, Angelus, Buffy, Faith Lehane, Giles, Illyria, Spike, The First Evil
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Dark, Fighting
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Character Death, Suicide, Violence
Challenges: Welcome to the Hellmouth! Part Deux
Completed: No Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 17,828 Hit Count: 2,075 ePub Downloads: 14
Published: November 15, 2019 Updated: November 21, 2019
Summary: There once was an Elementary School in Japan known as Heavenly Host Elementary in English. It was shut down after a series of deaths occurred on its grounds. This had happened many years ago, but rumors were still going around on the internet and occultists love to post stories and other urban legends about it. One such occultist left a charm on the website, a charm that will make it so a group of friends could be together forever. Willow finds the charm and shares it with her friends, and they all perform it. They end up in a different world where death is waiting at every corner, wanting all the living that appear in its halls to join their Corpse Party.
Categories: Season 5, Crossover (Books or TV shows outside Buffyverse), Alternate Reality, Claim
Characters: Ensemble, Other
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Dark, Drama, Fighting, Humor, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Rape, Attempted Suicide, Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Character Death, Child Abuse, Fetish, Sexual Situations, Suicide, Torture (Physical), Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 11,596 Hit Count: 182 ePub Downloads: 13
Published: December 25, 2018 Updated: April 23, 2020
Summary: He didn’t know how right he was when he said she came back wrong…
Something is wrong with Buffy Summers.  Her friends might want to pretend otherwise.  At first, Spike wanted to pretend too.  However, soon there are signs even he can’t brush under the rug.  Only, he’s not quite sure how to fix it.  Can’t even determine where the crack is exactly.  The only thing Spike knows for certain is that he’s going to have to do something different—faster or more clever—if he’s going to save Buffy…from herself.
 
Thank you to OffYourBird for creating me this gorgeous banner!!
Categories: Season 6
Characters: Buffy, Dawn, Spike, Willow
Genres: Angst, Dark, Drama, Horror
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Sexual Situations, Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 26 Table of Contents
Word count: 66,869 Hit Count: 24,318 ePub Downloads: 155
Published: January 14, 2018 Updated: June 28, 2020
Summary: Spike picks up a ghost. An AH mystery/thriller/tragedy.
Categories: Alternate Reality, All Human
Characters: Angel, Angelus, Buffy, Original Characters, Spike
Genres: Action/Adventure, Drama, Horror, Mystery, Tragedy
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Character Death, Drug Use, Rape (Actual), Sexual Situations, Suicide, Torture (Emotional/Psychological), Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Word count: 44,907 Hit Count: 3,163 ePub Downloads: 75
Published: March 10, 2021 Updated: March 19, 2021
Summary: Season 2 Very AU.
Buffy comes back from her summer with her father and discovers that her death had more consequences than anyone could bargain for. With new allies and a world full of gray, how will the council react when their hierarchy is threatened.
Categories: Season 2, Season 3, Alternate Reality, Claim
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Blood Play, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Torture (Physical), Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 13 Table of Contents
Word count: 37,751 Hit Count: 8,789 ePub Downloads: 85
Published: January 22, 2017 Updated: June 16, 2017
Summary: After being ripped out of heaven by her friends, there’s only one person who can help Buffy cope with a life that feels like hell in a world that’s just too much to bear, a world that she wants desperately to escape: Spike.
One-shot for ‘Trapped’ Challenge. Elysian Fields 14th Anniversary. October 2020
Categories: Season 6, Alternate Reality
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Drama, HEA/HFN, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 13,444 Hit Count: 977 ePub Downloads: 45
Published: October 10, 2020 Updated: October 10, 2020
Summary: When you're trying to be better after decades of evil, a little encouragement can make all the difference.  When Spike gets a nudge out of the crypt and toward Africa a few months early, it changes everything for the Scoobies, for Sunnydale, and for the world.  Twice.
The gorgeous banner is the work of nmcil, who has made me the happiest author anywhere by generously giving her time and immense talent to the story.  Thank you bunches!
Categories: Pre-Series, Season 1, Season 2, Season 3, Season 4, Season 5, Season 6, Season 7, Post-Series, Crossover (AtS), Alternate Reality
Characters: Ensemble, Original Characters
Genres: Action/Adventure, Drama, Historical, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Blood Play, Buffy/Other (Temp), Character Death, Drug Use, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Suicide, Torture (Physical), Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 123 Table of Contents
Word count: 1,416,843 Hit Count: 122,946 ePub Downloads: 1,083
Published: September 22, 2018 Updated: November 21, 2018
Summary: Buffy, Spike, handcuffs, need, power.
Categories: Season 6, Episode Rewrite, Missing Scene
Characters: Buffy, Spike
Genres: Angst, Erotica, Porn w/ Plot
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Sexual Situations
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 1,172 Hit Count: 416 ePub Downloads: 15
Published: March 11, 2019 Updated: March 11, 2019
Summary:
Buffy died saving the world at the end of The Gift (Season 5 Episode 22) This is what happened next, this is going to show how small changes could really change the outcome of people’s lives. Maybe all they need is a perfect clarity and maybe it's possible to get a happy ended- it is Buffyverse though be prepared for twist and turns! 
Categories: Season 6, Episode Rewrite, Missing Scene
Characters: Anya, Buffy, Clem, Dawn, Ensemble, Faith Lehane, Giles, Spike, Tara, Wesley, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Dark, Fighting, Fluffy/Comedy, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Blood Play, Sexual Situations, Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 8,197 Hit Count: 1,367 ePub Downloads: 24
Published: June 09, 2020 Updated: September 06, 2020
Summary: When Buffy jumped off the tower and into the portal to save her sister, she came back to life in her sixteen-year-old body, just after the Master killed her.  Over twenty deaths and time loops later, she's no closer to figuring out what's going on or how to stop it.  
 
But then on the first day of a new cycle she gets an unexpected phone call--and discovers she might not be as alone as she thought.
Categories: Season 1, Season 5, Time Travel
Characters: None
Genres: Action/Adventure, Dramedy, POV
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide
Completed: No Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Word count: 7,066 Hit Count: 3,623 ePub Downloads: 39
Published: June 07, 2017 Updated: June 21, 2017
Summary: S7 AU, picks up after 'Showtime' and goes from there. Buffy's attitude towards Spike really changed in-between those episodes. Wonder what happened...
Categories: Season 7, Alternate Reality, Episode Rewrite, Missing Scene, Taboo - Adults Only
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Dawn, Faith Lehane, Giles, Kennedy, Other, Rona, Spike, Vi, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Dark, Drama, Erotica, Established Relationship, Fluffy/Comedy, Humor, Hurt/Comfort, Porn w/ Plot, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Character Death, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Suicide, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 16 Table of Contents
Word count: 21,927 Hit Count: 2,569 ePub Downloads: 28
Published: October 29, 2020 Updated: October 29, 2020
Summary: She's gone. Spike knows that. Yet she rides with him tonight.
A narrative poem in freeverse describing a scene shortly after "The Gift".
Categories: Season 5, Poetry, Seasonal Spuffy Entries
Characters: Spike
Genres: Angst, Dark, Drama
Warnings: Attempted Suicide
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 822 Hit Count: 130 ePub Downloads: 12
Published: December 03, 2018 Updated: December 03, 2018
Summary: Spike finally realizes that Buffy means it this time; she's ending their not-a-relationship for good. It's over and he is devastated. He knows that magic comes with a cost, but desperate times call for desperate measures. There's got to be something to help ease the pain. He heads to The Magic Box hoping to make a deal with Anya, only to find her chatting all cozy-like with the demon who once called herself Halfrek and broke his pathetic human self's heart. That's okay. There are other places in Sunnydale where a clever vamp can find himself a spot of magic. In fact, Spike might just know himself a rather softhearted witch. Will Tara give him the magic he wants? Or might she just give him something even better?
Categories: Season 6
Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Torture (Physical), Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 13 Table of Contents
Word count: 35,290 Hit Count: 14,528 ePub Downloads: 182
Published: April 03, 2020 Updated: May 08, 2020
Summary: It was the best of times... No, it was the bloody pits. Spike had never had a worst summer in his entire life and unlife, combined.
 
Not until next year, at least.
Categories: Post-Series, Pre-Series, Season 1, Season 2, Season 3, Season 4, Season 5, Season 6, Season 7
Characters: Spike
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Character Death, Cheating/Infidelity, Spike/Other (Temp)
Completed: Yes Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 3,841 Hit Count: 270 ePub Downloads: 14
Published: December 08, 2020 Updated: December 08, 2020
Summary:
Everything changed after the Sunnydale Hellmouth fell.
Nineteen days later and the Scoobies are scattered across the globe.
Faith and Buffy start again.
The new guardians of the Cleveland Hellmouth.
Something is happening to Buffy.
Horrific nightmares haunt the Original Slayer.
Is it penance for her treatment of Spike?
Something else entirely?
On patrol in Cleveland, Buffy and Faith stumble across a gang of Mohra demons.
Things will never be the same again.
Angels and Demons, Vengeance, Oh My!
What will the gang discover about the true nature of the Slayer line?

NB; There may be a few instances of fairly graphic rape and torture in this story.
Please be aware of this before reading this fic.
This will be my first time posting a fic on EF. Please be gentle, as much feedback as possible would be greatly appreciated. Thanks to my amazing Beta Embell, without whom this story would have been a total mess.
Thanks also to Axell for her invaluable feedback :)
Summary: "Her wine glass crumbled in her death grip, shards embedding themselves in her skin. Her hand bled, but the sting went unnoticed in favor of the photo that had fallen to the floor. The impossible, oh-my-go-what-the-hell, panic-inducing, gut-wrenching photo that shouldn't- couldn't exist. Buffy read the letter that had come attached with it, 'What he hid, what they covered up.' No signature. Her greatest wish and her greatest fear were confirmed-
Spike was alive, and he hadn't come for her."
After discovering Spike is alive and kept it hidden from her on top of trying to discover who she is without being THE Slayer, Buffy decides she doesn't want to be "Buffy" anymore. And the only way to get rid of Buffy is to embrace the inner darkness she's been warding off since she was called. But, by embracing her more demonic side, she runs the risk of losing her humanity- and possibly her soul. All she can feel is pain, and if accepting the gift she'd denied in the past and losing her soul were the price to NOT feel, she was more than willing to pay the price. Regardless of the consequences.
Categories: Post-Series, Crossover (AtS)
Characters: Buffy, D'Hoffryn, Drusilla, Ensemble, Whistler
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Dark, Drama, Fighting, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Character Death, Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Torture (Physical), Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Word count: 92 Hit Count: 583 ePub Downloads: 9
Published: July 30, 2017 Updated: July 30, 2017
Summary: Takes place after 'Dead Things'. After the fight in the alley, Spike disappears without a trace. A strange demon makes a truce with the Slayer, bringing news of a slave trade that's popped up right under her nose.
Categories: Season 6, Taboo - Adults Only
Characters: Angel, Anya, Buffy, Dawn, Original Characters, Spike, Tara, Willow, Xander
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Dark, Drama, Erotica, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Rape, Attempted Suicide, Rape (Actual), Rape (Implied), Sexual Situations, Spike/Other (Temp), Taboo, Torture (Physical), Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 21 Table of Contents
Word count: 50,428 Hit Count: 9,449 ePub Downloads: 84
Published: January 14, 2007 Updated: March 14, 2020
Summary: It's been two years since the Battle of L.A. and Buffy's okay-er than ever. She's settled into New York life and a totally healthy pattern of non-stop fighting and drinking to keep the memories at bay. Nightmares greet her in sleep, and pain greets her in sobriety and peace. What's left when you have no friends, no family, and you're a broken shell sick of betrayal? One hell of a Death Wish.
Categories: Season 8 (Comic), Comic (Season Not Specified), Post-Series, Crossover (AtS)
Characters: Buffy, Lorne, Original Characters, Spike
Genres: Action/Adventure, Angst, Dark, Drama, Fighting, Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: Adult Language, Attempted Suicide, Violence
Completed: No Chapters: 2 Table of Contents
Word count: 12,220 Hit Count: 978 ePub Downloads: 8
Published: December 03, 2019 Updated: December 08, 2019