Winner for Best General Angst (Judges' Choice), Best General Saga (Judges' Choice) at the Spuffy Awards Round 3.
Artists: None
Characters: Angel, Buffy, Faith Lehane, Giles, Other, Spike, William, Willow, Xander
Genres: Angst, Drama, Fighting, HEA/HFN, Hurt/Comfort, Prophecy, Romance, Slow-Burn
Warnings: Adult Language, Blood Play, Character Death, Sexual Situations, Vampire!Buffy, Violence
Completed: Yes Chapters: 47
Word count: 232,323 Hit Count: 93,523 ePub Downloads: 961
Published: February 05, 2007 Updated: February 05, 2007
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1. Preamble by Holly - Likes: 8 Comments: 6 Word Count: 1,210 Hit Count: 7,264
Something to note about this story:
I started writing it in 2002, when I was 17 years old. I finished it shortly before my high school graduation.
One of the most common critiques I receive for this work (and other fics that were written around this era) is the misuse of words. It is an absolutely fair criticism. I did misuse a lot of freaking words. Also? I was overly verbose and a bit too purple prosey. I also didn't have a beta reader on this story, as it was my first in Buffy fandom. So what you see when you read this particular story is a 17-18 year old trying to sound older than she is. Like a lot of young writers, I thought people wouldn't take me seriously as an author if they knew I was still in high school, so I tried to hide it. And yes, in some cases, I just didn't know better, but try telling that to a teenager.
As a professional editor, I completely understand if improper word usage throws you out of the story. It certainly would me. But I hope a little context will make those errors, egregious as they may be, a little more bearable.
Thanks!
- Holly
March 13, 2017
2. Chapter 1 by Holly - Likes: 6 Comments: 3 Word Count: 5,999 Hit Count: 3,723
3. Chapter 2 by Holly - Likes: 5 Comments: 2 Word Count: 6,080 Hit Count: 2,614
4. Chapter 3 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 8,659 Hit Count: 2,510
5. Chapter 4 by Holly - Likes: 5 Comments: 3 Word Count: 4,844 Hit Count: 2,324
6. Chapter 5 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,080 Hit Count: 2,151
7. Chapter 6 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 3 Word Count: 3,226 Hit Count: 2,095
8. Chapter 7 by Holly - Likes: 5 Comments: 3 Word Count: 7,494 Hit Count: 2,168
9. Chapter 8 by Holly - Likes: 5 Comments: 3 Word Count: 6,246 Hit Count: 2,291
10. Chapter 9 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 3 Word Count: 3,494 Hit Count: 2,193
11. Chapter 10 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,873 Hit Count: 2,334
12. Chapter 11 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,260 Hit Count: 2,223
13. Chapter 12 by Holly - Likes: 7 Comments: 5 Word Count: 7,102 Hit Count: 2,376
14. Chapter 13 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 6,234 Hit Count: 2,202
15. Chapter 14 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 6,603 Hit Count: 2,148
16. Chapter 15 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,258 Hit Count: 2,092
17. Chapter 16 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 6,148 Hit Count: 2,182
18. Chapter 17 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 3 Word Count: 3,626 Hit Count: 1,919
19. Chapter 18 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,476 Hit Count: 1,877
20. Chapter 19 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,299 Hit Count: 1,834
21. Chapter 20 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,161 Hit Count: 1,997
22. Chapter 21 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 3 Word Count: 4,824 Hit Count: 1,792
23. Chapter 22 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 3,786 Hit Count: 1,755
24. Chapter 23 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,398 Hit Count: 1,640
25. Chapter 24 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 3,661 Hit Count: 1,599
26. Chapter 25 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 7,244 Hit Count: 1,526
27. Chapter 26 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,707 Hit Count: 1,538
28. Chapter 27 by Holly - Likes: 5 Comments: 3 Word Count: 5,019 Hit Count: 1,560
29. Chapter 28 by Holly - Likes: 5 Comments: 4 Word Count: 4,379 Hit Count: 1,551
30. Chapter 29 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,098 Hit Count: 1,495
31. Chapter 30 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,539 Hit Count: 1,581
32. Chapter 31 by Holly - Likes: 2 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,891 Hit Count: 1,617
33. Chapter 32 by Holly - Likes: 5 Comments: 3 Word Count: 4,472 Hit Count: 1,442
34. Chapter 33 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,833 Hit Count: 1,386
35. Chapter 34 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,340 Hit Count: 1,465
36. Chapter 35 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,324 Hit Count: 1,417
37. Chapter 36 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 3 Word Count: 3,507 Hit Count: 1,391
38. Chapter 37 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,057 Hit Count: 1,480
39. Chapter 38 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,208 Hit Count: 1,435
40. Chapter 39 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,173 Hit Count: 1,532
41. Chapter 40 by Holly - Likes: 4 Comments: 3 Word Count: 6,280 Hit Count: 1,895
42. Chapter 41 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 3,318 Hit Count: 1,479
43. Chapter 42 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 3,162 Hit Count: 1,394
44. Chapter 43 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 4,843 Hit Count: 1,454
45. Chapter 44 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,571 Hit Count: 1,741
46. Chapter 45 by Holly - Likes: 3 Comments: 2 Word Count: 5,064 Hit Count: 1,788
47. Epilogue by Holly - Likes: 9 Comments: 9 Word Count: 1,253 Hit Count: 2,046